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We got an e-mail a few days ago: Hi, I'm almost 16. Do you know of any filters I can put on my mom's computer that she won't know about? The very next day someone sent us an e-mail: I am using a great product called PC Pandora. It works very good. It costs $70 for 2 lice...

"Kedusha" shared: In spite of my office's filter, I found myself least week on a website that allows you to perform searches that can lead to what, by Torah standards, is inappropriate material (I had seen the website mentioned in a legitimate article). Although for some...

A triggering teen, 'babysitting' young children, sat literally right next to me in the children's park one day (she honestly looked 'needy' as if there was not much love in the home she was coming from: she looked sad-wanting attention). The park is directly across the st...

I was walking home from Shul. 3 attractive girls were crossing my path and as much as I tried at the time to switch off my lust it was difficult since these girls were quite bubbly and ever-present --hard to ignore! So I went for plan B and shifted into giving mode. I imm...

B"H I hugged my wife before leaving today.. And Literally every single night of their lives (except for when they are away with a relative), I go and gently stroke my children's heads as they are sleeping, and rub their back as they dream. One of them used to really let ...

Just change the words "Gambling" and "GA" in this article to "Lust" and "SA". I write to you in shame and humiliation. You don't know me but I know you. For now, it will have to remain this way. I hope you understand. I am writing because I am in a state of desperation....

Although this is my first post, I have benefited from the GYE community for the past 2 years. My purpose in writing is to share with my brothers what worked for me in the hope of helping. I was lost in a very severe lust addiction for 30 years, starting pretty much from...

I come from a quasi-broken home, devoid of all love and affection. I first turned to shmuzt+hz"l as a temporary 'relief' from the bitter depression that I lived with day and night. With no social network, and virtually no family, I was left to raise myself, and provide my...

I imagine there are thousands of people who take for granted when their children start peeking in to their bags or briefcase or wallet etc. and find.... NOTHING... Just regular stuff... But I can't begin to tell you how many times I've discovered my kids having fun with m...

Hi everyone.I thought it would be fair to post and let all of my friends and supporters know that yesterday was my 90th not-acting out day. A year ago I told people here that my doing 90 days would be impossible. Baruch shechiyani vekiyimani, vehigiati lazman ha-ze! Thank...

With happiness and joy, I am grateful to Hashem for a blissfully sober day... I hit an SA meeting yesterday which was good... Last night I did something that was kinda weird for me... I baked a chocolate cake with my wife. After everyone went to sleep, I joined her in the...

I got a filter 3 weeks ago and it is amazing!! How could I have lived without it?!! Just by installing it, it helped me not even try to look at anything bad. For 3 weeks I was able to stay away from evil without a problem. At first my Yetzer Hara told me not to get a filt...

I would just like to share with you something incredible which just happened to me.3 days ago it was my 40th day without masturbation and porn. I got a kind of fever, cough, sore mouth and throat and I was generally feeling not so good. At night just as I was saying the S...

I was masturbating before I knew there was anything wrong with it.Going back 20 years, I was exposed to Porn in mags and by phone (who here remembers those business cards and fake dollar bills that the Amaleknik Porn-Pushers Yemach Shemam Vezichram used to scatter all ove...

So. You are still acting out. Well. I need to ask you what it is that you really want. And I am serious. No pat answers and "oh, well, of course I want to quit" - answers allowed here. Do you want to stop? Or do you want to be able to feel spiritual, respect yourself, ...

Dear Reb Guard, I must admit that I have not been reading all the emails that you kindly send out every day but I am doing other work for myself. In February last year, I went to my first SA meeting. It was very embarrassing. It was a huge leap for me, but I thought I cou...

I have B"H over 6 years clean in SA, and I am grateful for such a venue to share these victories in the name of Hashem with others. Somehow I've been doing great even without meetings, but I make phone calls everyday to share and connect. Your chizuk e-mails help even fur...

LITTLE INTRO, CRASH COURSE, reminder - This addiction is only a symptom. We use it to relieve our pain. Our pain comes from restlessness, irritability, and discontent in life. Why do we have this R.I.D? Because of our Ego. We can't accept when things don't go our way. Now...