So what does it feel like to pass 250 days clean? BH super. It's not a magical number of any sort and we all know that the correct approach has to be one day at a time, but it does feel good. Are there rough times? Yes. Are they similar in severity to the challenges of th...

I was driving from the target store in my neighborhood and a pretty girl came into view. Of course, I wanted to look but I decided that as difficult as it will be I won't. I was making a turn and I thought I was going to pass the test once I did. The problem is she crosse...

About a week ago, I finally raised the white flag. Indeed, I don’t know how to support my wife through her sex addiction (which has uncovered many other layers of emotional dysfunction). Yesterday was the first time that I went to therapy for myself. While I’d like to ...

Surrender is the key. Only surrender helps.Whoa, did I have a night! Lust knocked. I said, "go away, I'm not paying $200 just for the privilege (?) of acting out!" But then lust became a fire. Seriously, I was burning with the thing. I had to act out! But- I have a signe...

So my struggle is all about masturbation in response to my very wild and dirty fantasies. Since I'm the type that lives in my own head, there's always lots of fun and noise in there (usually not bad, btw!) and there's almost always a song playing in the background, as wel...

Yesterday, the internet was down at work. That means the techies come in and get to work.Till 48 days ago, I always got nervous when this happened. What if they start digging and find out all the stuff I saw? It may not be inappropriate websites but my boss would probably...

I started on Recovery when I was busted by my wife. I had been acting out for more than 30 years. That first night after I was busted, I went to sleep and I knew I was in big trouble with my wife. While lying in bed, I imagined myself in Beit Din Shel Mala at the end of m...

"Avi Ha'Oved" wrote in this amazing story (translated from an email we received in Hebrew): For many years after the wedding, we didn't have children. We did tests and discovered that the chances for me to be able to ever have children were close to zero. The doctor (who,...

With the help of my Higher Power who has kept me sober for over a year, I’d like to speak about what it was like for me, what my year looked like, and how things are now. How it was I thought I had hit bottom so many times. At every point of my life I never thought it cou...

My name is Boruch and I'm a regular chasidishe bucher learning in Israel. About a year ago, I read an article in the Mishpacha magazine (Lifelines section) about a man who struggled with internet pornography and found the site called GYE and recovered through it by keep...