So my struggle is all about masturbation in response to my very wild and dirty fantasies. Since I'm the type that lives in my own head, there's always lots of fun and noise in there (usually not bad, btw!) and there's almost always a song playing in the background, as well. So there I was, starti...

Yesterday, the internet was down at work. ;That means the techies come in and get to work.Till 48 days ago, I always got nervous when this happened. What if they start digging and find out all the stuff I saw? It may not be inappropriate websites but my boss would probably be really mad seeing ho...

I started on Recovery when I was busted by my wife. I had been acting out for more than 30 years. That first night after I was busted, I went to sleep and I knew I was in big trouble with my wife. While lying in bed, I imagined myself in Beit Din Shel Mala at the end of my life. I was in the midd...

"Avi Ha'Oved" wrote in this amazing story (translated from an email we received in Hebrew): For many years after the wedding, we didn't have children. We did tests and discovered that the chances for me to be able to ever have children were close to zero. The doctor (who, by the way, is one of th...

With the help of my Higher Power who has kept me sober for over a year, I’d like to speak about what it was like for me, what my year looked like, and how things are now. How it was I thought I had hit bottom so many times. At every point of my life I never thought it could get worse, but then it...

My name is Boruch and I'm a regular chasidishe ;bucher learning in Israel. About a year ago, I read an article in the Mishpacha magazine (Lifelines section) about a man who struggled with internet pornography and found the site called GYE and recovered through it by keeping in touch with other ...

I get a Mazal Tov, I had a baby boy now, and it's a miracle of GYE! ; Let me tell you the story in short: ; About a year and a half ago, when I first came to your site, I had 5 daughters and no sons. I met a partner on GYE with 5 boys and no girls. We became very close and began to work togethe...

We got a "venting email" from a woman a few weeks ago: How can I say no to my phone? Sometimes, I think to myself that it's pathetic that I need to keep looking at Instagram, Whatsapp profile pics, Facebook etc., not for porn, but just because either I'm bored or to see updates. Again I'm just v...

Shalom Aleichem ;to the entire GYE community! I am finally here after my long journey of almost 30 years! Yes, for 30 years I’ve been looking to whom to turn, to tell my story, and still to feel comfortable that nobody finds out what goes on deep inside me. I have had no luck until, finally, I ha...

; Yesterday, while I was on Youtube, I noticed a feature that hadn't struck me before. Every video that you've ever viewed is underlined in red. I was so completely shocked to see how much time I had wasted. I felt like I was wasting my life away and the darkness started to swallow me. I heard t...