I would like to recount a story that happened to me a year ago on Rosh Chodesh Elul. I was in a very low mood with bad thoughts in my head. I was on my way to Israel for the Chaggim. I had to take a stopover. The first plane I was on got delayed for a few ...

I had built-up a very close kesher with my rebbe who knew everything about me, for better and for worse. Although I was a very good bachur, I still had my quirks, and I hid nothing from him. Except for one secret. There was a whole side to me that I had never revealed to ...

"Ovadia" posted on the forum: Hi, I am joining the forum for the first time today. I am married and we have B"H a number of children. I spent ten years in Kollel. After ten years learning, I had to leave full time learning for parnasa reasons and work in an office. The in...

  I was in Israel, 14 years old, from a regular non frum family, the typical half Israeli / half American Jew. I put on Tefillin every day, but that was about it. Every time I saw a frum Jew, I identified with him, I wanted to be like him, but that spark was not bright en...

Today is 100 days clean for me, and I would like to try and describe how I got to this point, and how I think I have changed over the past 3 months. I am a thirty something professional living in a large North American city. I attended several yeshivos over the years and ...

RATM writes to someone who was unable to make it more than 3-5 days at a time for the past year or so, yet who still never gave up: You know, this 90 day chart is very, very important to me, and I do think it is very important... When I saw this site and started getting i...

Uri writes to someone who had fallen into addictive behaviors that included live relationships: Hi, my name is Uri.We're coming from the same place, my friend.And you should know that the addiction to porn, masturbation, or sex are all very much from the same place.It is ...

I've been slipping a lot lately and I felt like a total failure. This past Shabbos, the last thing I felt was holy. Then out of the blue I picked up the sefer 'The garden of Emunah' by Rav Arush and I opened it to a random page. And this is what I read as soon as I opened...

Although going strong for 28 days now, I almost just lost it due to "a regular everyday news story". As I was logging on to my e-mail account, there was a story about a controversial picture on the front cover of a magazine. Out of habit I clicked on it, but soon came to ...

This is the first time I had some major insights FROM A CLOSE CALL, instead of FROM A FALL, Thank G-d! First of all, I used the forum in a way I never have before. I was desperate so I sent out distress PMs to some familiar names there. Until now, I've felt sort of impers...