... I got older and managed to find easy access to the net for my fix... This carried on until I was 18. I was hardly keeping anything at that point. I was in Israel, clubbing every night and still using p**n as my crutch and getting into deep trouble. I didn't actually do anything, but I saw roc...

I was feeling down, thinking I'm fooling myself for thinking that I can be a clean and holy person... I aint holy... thinking it's gonna come a-crashin down soon... I went to get a bagel and I saw ;the cover of the New York Post and had a change of heart. It said: HOLY RAGEJANITOR STABBED PRIEST ...

I am doing pretty well and got to see first hand some of the ;hashgacha pratis that I have read about on this site. It happened two days ago. I was pretty low and it was late and I found myself typing out an all-too familiar web address. I told myself that I didn't really want to, and it is true ...

Day 1 was surprisingly easy, but Day 2 was a perfect example of where I would have fallen before finding this website. Throughout the day, from doing work to lying in bed, my whole body was just screaming for release. There were a few times it got so bad that I couldn't focus at all anymore - ;I...

The program doesn't tell us how to stop - we had done that a thousand and one times - it shows us how to keep from starting again. We had it backwards; before, we always wanted the therapist, spouse, or God to do the stopping for us - to fix us. Now, we stop; and then, in our surrender, the power...

Something pretty amazing just happened to me. I was about to start Googling certain things (with my fake "innocent" thoughts that ;"it's not so bad"), and all of a sudden my Internet just completely stopped working. I couldn't click on anything. Hashem was saying to me, ;"you have asked for help ...

Last night while waiting for a red light to change, I saw some poison. Except it looked appetizing. I looked away immediately, but felt the voices in my head saying, ;"hey, you looked! I think you looked for a second too long anyway, why not look again? You anyway blew it!" But then I noticed the...

This morning I woke up very early (4:30 AM) and I was tempted to see what I could find on my Sky-TV. I am so sorry that I fell for this temptation in the first place and nearly slipped. However, I flicked through a few channels to try and get something which I should not be looking at, and I foun...

I'm writing from my cell-phone now. I am presently in one of the newest, most gashmiusdik airport terminals, and I was beginning to get carried away by all the sights and smells.... Suddenly I felt a vibration in my pocket; it was the GYE email with tons of chizuk! That will hopefully will help m...

I had a not very great experience over Shabbos, but it ended well. I was bored and restless in the middle of Shabbos night, and my old habits came back to me. I wasn't even in the mood - I didn't even have desire. But acting out is a strong habit. You do it sometimes just to do it, just because y...