One Victory at a Time

I was at a wedding last night and there was lots of stuff to look at, the cake, the miniatures, the bar, the choir, oh, and the women. I practiced. Closed my eyes, took some deep breaths and whispered gam zeh ya'avor ("this too, shall pass"). And eventually, they all did...

I want to thank GYE for the amazing website. I am only into Day 21 and already so many wonderful things have happened (Thank G-d)!!! The resources on the site and the Daily-emails have been invaluable!!! I am so grateful and appreciative that HaShem has led me (and so man...

I am not proud of all these things but just in case there is someone out there who finds this and thinks that he's alone - you should know, I was as perverted as they come.

*I was getting my teeth cleaned today - by a female hygienist who had to reach over me a couple times. והמבין יבין. I tried so hard to control my thoughts and think of Hashem's love in giving me this test. And, you know what she said to me? "Wow! You're a great patient! N...

I landed back in Newark clean b'h. There was one point towards the end of the flight where everyone around me was watching movies with explicit content and I felt the temptation. I took off my glasses asked Hashem to get rid of the urge and b'h it went away.

I am almost up to 40 days without a fall, and my wife is assur now, which makes things a little harder. Last night, I was reading business news and they had something about some woman etc. I googled who she was and a movie where she is the main actor came up. Not thinking...

1) A chaver who speaks/texts regularly with me, reached out for help today. His wife had been off limits for a very long time. There were very challenging moments, but with work and b'ezras Hashem he stayed clean. Today she was to go to the mikva but this morning she foun...

I had a miracle today which also reminds me how sick I am and can lose my new-found sanity in a matter of seconds. I've been abroad with my wife for a few weeks, I had with me a little dinky phone which I would never have imagined would be able to support any picture onli...

It was the week before Rosh HaShanah and I decided I will try to hold out from porn and masturbation the whole week. I was having a hard time but I kept pushing through. Then, a couple of days before the Yom HaDin, I was doing work in a place and there were some triggers ...

Rabbi Dov Bensoussan spoke recently about how Hashem is a "Rotze b'Tshuva" and sometimes we merit to see how He puts the opportunity to do Teshuva right in front of us. He related the story of a young man who was, unfortunately, traveling to a private place with a non-Jew...