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My name is Yossi, I am a 19 year old Bochur, and I have been Shomer Habris for over 6 months B"H - the best 6 months of my life. One of the main things that spurred me to stop, besides for the extreme seriousness of the sin, was the realisation of how much better life wou...

HonestMouse wrote: My boss called a meeting during lunchtime and I missed Mincha, which would mean I would have to daven without a minyan. I was sulking and frustrated, mamash like a 2 year old, and I started lusting with passers by on the street. I felt very tempted to g...

Recently, I took my first business trip in a long time. A chance to choreograph a "Big Fall". Partly to "get it out of my system" (as I rationalized it) and perhaps partly a test if Hashem really wanted me saved from shmutz. Would He rescue me with His own Hand? And sure ...

An e-mail we received today: Hi Guardureyes! I just had a fight with my wife and she went storming out the door.... The first thing I did, was rush to an unprotected computer and type in very bad website. I didn't actually get to see anything in the site and I quickly rem...

Dear Guard & GYE Team, I was reading the Handbook the other night, and I read about the 3 second rule. I also got an email from a fellow member on the forum, and he told me something that he heard in a shiur, that someone who looks away after a few seconds feels like ...

Yesterday at work, I was reading the GYE forum when my boss walked past my office, so I quickly tried to minimize the screen. Unfortunately, the computer froze and was taking its sweet time trying to close. Meanwhile the Boss came to my screen and wanted to check out what...

I'm writing this to help others, to let them know that they are not alone that it is never too late. Teshuva is Hashem's gift to all of us. There is a way to erase and start a new... I grew up in a non observant "traditional" home. I was pretty much like everyone else in ...

B"H I'm doing better than ever. Slowly, staying sober and working on living right, I'm discovering a REAL PERSON underneath the exterior shell. I never knew he existed, I was always just "different". But B"H, no more. I am now like everyone else. Of course, that comes wi...

This past Thursday, I was flying back home from the "Out-of-town" city I was visiting, and unfortunately the person sitting next to me on the plane was a woman who was obviously not makpid on Rabbi Falk's standard of tznius (she was wearing what some people generously ref...

It was from the depths of physical, spiritual, emotional and mental hell that the leaders of GuardYourEyes pulled me out. They are nothing less than malachei Hashem. The first step of the 12 steps in any addiction recovery program, is to admit your powerlessness over your...

Everybody, not just the famous, has both a public and a private face. Those two versions of ourselves are never completely reconciled, nor would most of us want them to be. Our interior life, our soul, our truest sense of ourselves, whatever you call it, is too difficult ...

I would like to share with you my very sad story, so that you, Rabbis and the Jewish community in general will be able to learn from it. I am what the public calls a truly “Choshuva” “Avreych”, and with all due “modesty” I view myself as such as well. Nevertheless I fell...

I guess it's time for me to relate my story. Some background info will give some context to my story. I am a convert to Judaism of several years now. I was raised nominally xtian and did an extended stint in evangelical type xtianity from college into my 30's. How I e...

A famous serial killer, Ted Bundy, blames addiction to inappropriate material on his actions: In the Dobson interview before his execution, Bundy said that violent inappropriate material played a major role in his immoral crimes. According to Bundy, as a young boy he f...

Dear Guard your Eyes, My husband is 30 years old and we've been married for 8 years. For the last 7 years (perhaps even longer, I don’t know) he's been a Lust addict. I've caught him with newspapers, with a magazine, on the internet, acting out, etc. There have been ma...

I have no one else to turn to regarding my present situation. I am in a lot of trouble and am contemplating suicide as a way out. I write to you from a position of disgust with myself and potential humiliation for my lovely wife and three daughters. I was a successful CP...

I first encountered pornography in the back of a convenience store when I was about 10 or 11 years old. There was a whole "Adults Only" section with no one in it and it was separated from the rest of the store so I could browse with ease. Whenever I had a chance to go, I'...

Someone emailed me about your website a few days ago and I enjoyed reading a lot here, thanks. It is always nice to "meet" other people that I can relate with, and commiserate with what other people are going through. After doing the first of the 12-Steps (admitting powe...