I had built-up a very close ;kesher with my rebbe who knew everything about me, for better and for worse. Although I was a very good ;bachur, I still had my quirks, and I hid nothing from him. Except for one secret. There was a whole side to me that I had never revealed to ;anyone. It was my secr...

"Ovadia" posted on the forum: Hi, I am joining the forum for the first time today. I am married and we have B"H a number of children. I spent ten years in Kollel. After ten years learning, I had to leave full time learning for ;parnasa reasons and work in an office. The internet opened a new worl...

  I was in Israel, 14 years old, from a regular non frum family, the typical half Israeli / half American Jew. I put on Tefillin every day, but that was about it. Every time I saw a frum Jew, I identified with him, I wanted to be like him, but that spark was not bright enough inside of me. I got ...

Today is 100 days clean for me, and I would like to try and describe how I got to this point, and how I think I have changed over the past 3 months. I am a thirty something professional living in a large North American city. I attended several yeshivos over the years and was in yeshiva until I go...

RATM writes to someone who was unable to make it more than 3-5 days at a time for the past year or so, yet who still never gave up: You know, this ;90 day chart is very, very important to me, and I ;do think it is very important... When I saw this site and started getting involved in the 90 days ...

Uri writes to someone who had fallen into addictive behaviors that included live relationships: Hi, my name is Uri.We're coming from the same place, my friend.And you should know that the addiction to porn, masturbation, or sex are all very much from the same place.It is a need for love. A need f...

I've been slipping a lot lately and I felt like a total failure. This past Shabbos, the last thing I felt was holy. Then out of the blue I picked up the sefer 'The garden of Emunah' by Rav Arush and I opened it to a random page. And this is what I read as soon as I opened the book (believe it or ...

Although going strong for 28 days now, I almost just lost it due to "a regular everyday news story". As I was logging on to my e-mail account, there was a story about a controversial picture on the front cover of a magazine. Out of habit I clicked on it, but soon came to my senses before going do...

This is the first time I had some major insights FROM A CLOSE CALL, instead of FROM A FALL, Thank G-d! First of all, I used ;the forum in a way I never have before. I was desperate so I sent out distress PMs to some familiar names there. Until now, I've felt sort of impersonal just posting and re...

I was born into a very ;hareidi family... lots of brothers and sisters... my father is a well known ;posek and Rav... I learned for many years and even started on ;smicha... Since then, I've never been non-observant, chas veshalom, but I've rejected the seclusion of ;hareidi life in many ways (ev...