Recovery

Today, Shabbos HaGadol was my 90th consecutive day completely free from P&M. In all honesty, I did not believe I would ever make it to this point. I only started to count days after I fell three times in one day and out of desperation I told myself this had to stop. O...

I would like to share an amazing story of Hashgacha Pratis, that I've recently had with one of the GYE members. We were reviewing the messages in our support system, and I came across an old message from a few months ago that was waiting for a reply. I replied to the mes...

Today is a momentous day for me b"h. Day 1,000!!!!!!! I'm getting emotional... First off THANK YOU HASHEM!!! I know without a doubt that this wouldn't have been possible without your loving hand guiding me along. I'd like to take the opportunity to reflect on some of the ...

Hi all, just wanted to drop by and say hello. With a lot of help from God, I've been sober for about 4.5 years. And I'm sober today, thank G-d, which makes my life so much better. I'm enjoying life so much more than I ever did while acting out. Here's my story in a nutshe...

Dear fellow brethren, Not too long ago, I saw an advertisement for GYE on YeshivaWorld; since then, I have signed up and read/listen to the GYE boosts, which is INCREDIBLY AMAZING beyond English words to describe what a powerful tool GYE is in retaliation of tremendous a...

I joined 90 days ago and BH i made it to 90 days! I cannot thank you enough for the push. I have been wanting to reach this accomplishment for a while now and this site finally helped me succeed! I just wanted to share with you and all members the following experiences I ...

Hi Everyone Yesterday, by the grace of Hashem and the help of the SA fellowship and GYE, I celebrated 600 days of sobriety! Thank you Hashem!! I've been on GYE for almost a year now, mostly in the chat rooms, and seeing that I've chatted with dozens of people here (even a...

Before I share what works for me, I want to thank this wonderful organization from the bottom of my heart for the amazing things it has accomplished.  Without the GYE community, I would be lost as I try to navigate this increasingly insane world.

I'm a sincere guy who really just wants to do Hashem's well. Like most men, I have a daily battle with my yetzer hora. Mostly it's about fantasies, and letting my mind wander into the wrong places. Sometimes, it creeps into my behavior, like when I've just viewed a perfec...

It wasn't until I walked into a room of fellow addicts and admitted my utter defeat and the unmanageability of my life (step one), and got a sponsor to help me work the 12 steps that I was given the gift of sobriety.

Yesterday, by the grace of Hashem and the help of the SA fellowship and GYE, I celebrated 600 days of sobriety! Thank you, Hashem! I've been on GYE for almost a year now, mostly in the chat rooms, and seeing that I've chatted with dozens of people here (even acquiring 2 s...

Realizing my biggest issue was probably self-esteem was monumental. As a human being and definitely as a Jew, one shouldn't waste their potential. Wasting seed and time over computerized false garbage is a sign of not admiring myself, and not realizing my potential. Thing...

Hi, I've been a hardcore addict for as long as I remember myself. I'm technically still married but in divorce proceedings. B"h, I have 3 beautiful boys whom I love dearly. My journey into recovery started in 2015 when my wife got serious about divorce. I always knew I ha...

I lost a testicle to Seminoma. I had been trying to crack the bad habit of hz"l, but not hard enough. So Hashem did me a favor and sent me a clear message. Baruch Hashem, I got the point and be'ezrat Hashem I will live my life out b'kedusha. It is definitely better to p...

So what does it feel like to pass 250 days clean? BH super. It's not a magical number of any sort and we all know that the correct approach has to be one day at a time, but it does feel good. Are there rough times? Yes. Are they similar in severity to the challenges of th...

With the help of my Higher Power who has kept me sober for over a year, I’d like to speak about what it was like for me, what my year looked like, and how things are now. How it was I thought I had hit bottom so many times. At every point of my life I never thought it cou...

I came to this site by accident, of sorts. Yes, there were several decades of filth and smut in my days, but I always stopped, at least for a week or two, or more. Recovery and lack thereof did not consume my life. I was fine with the pattern. Of course, yamim noraim (m...

I am 50 years old, married, and in recovery for four years. I had been addicted to porn since my early teens, but didn't realize that I had a problem with it until my late 20's. By my late 30's I realized that I had a serious problem, but it wasn't until my mid 40's tha...