How was the meetup with the Captain?

Shtarkandemotional wrote on 08 Jan 2021 03:18:

I have no words. Simply no words. 
Im not ראוי to be in your presence.
I can only wish you continued Hatzlocha and Siyata Dishmaya

Hey, how's it going?
Haven't heard from you in a few days?

Apparently SAM was arrested by the Captain as he reported that they were scheduled to meet due to the warrant.

It used to be “Uncle SAM wants You”
It became “Uncle SAM is wanted”
Sort of like our president...

Hi, How are you?
We're missing you on here.
I hope you are holding shtark to your emotional side!

Dear Hashem, 
I’m feeling so angry so sad so frustrated SO DRAINED! No one understands no one chaps! It’s too hard for me to function! I can barely live normally.. let alone accomplish learning in my prime years! It’s hard!!!!!! Hashem! But instead of complaining! I’m gonna thank you! Thank you hashem I know this is best for me in the moment and I appreciate everything! And with this! Ill grow and fulfill my mission in this world! Thank you thank you thank you!

Shtarkandemotional wrote on 13 Jan 2021 01:58:

All I can say is, we do understand and we do chap, we get the anger and frustration.

May Hashem make this easier for you, and once you rise above you will look back at this time with pride and satisfaction. It is hard to see the light now, but it's there, you will see it once the fog lifts.

Hey thanks! 

Hey SAM


Every second your fighting Hashem is watching and smiling!

Keep strong!

Hey SAM

I see how frustrated and anguished you are.

I just wanted to share with you that there were periods in my life where I also felt frustrated and upset and all negative. And I thought that all of this negativity would never end. That I would have to deal with it for the rest of my life. 

But, lo and behold, life has a way of making you move past things. Even things that carry high emotional weight. The main ingredient: time. With time, if you let it, you'll learn to move on. You just have to allow yourself this time and not get frustrated if you don't see the results straight away.

Another ingredient, which I found to be important, is to find someone (non-judgmental) to be open with and not to bottle everything up inside. 

All in all, I think you're doing great and I stand in awe of the way you're dealing with your situation. 

Please, for your sake and for the sake of us all on this forum, keep going and keep inspiring.

Day 24! We can do this!

As the people here say...
K.O.T!

Shtark, 

we have not heard from you in some time. Please update us.



Shabbat Shalom

I have the same exact issue. I need help as well. thought i was the only one struggling with your issue. message me hopefully we can work it out B”H 

Hey all!

It’s been a while I haven’t been on here decided to take a little bit of a step back especially the moderator told me too... they said I was being a bit too much over here so decided to take a step back a bit! So... I’m on day 35 I think lol haha! But had a couple falls but sill never really spoke on the phone! Or met etc! I’ve made tremendous accomplishments and achieved a lot and came a far way and the constant battles that face my way Bh hashem is helping me to overcome each one bezH! My learning has increased amazingly Bh! I’m feeling much much better these days! I realized the break has helped for her to be less on my mind! Which makes it much less painful! And every time I do fall back with text or whatever it’s interesting to see it get painful again like I think about her and crave her and can’t have it so it hurts emotionally ALOT! You’d be surprised how much ! Bh! I’m gonna keep going strong bezH and things will continue for the best! BezH - shtarkandemotional