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Re: The Story Teller 26 Feb 2021 12:39 #364282

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As a staunch supporter of Grant400's story.
I would like to say the following.
I live with grant's stories. It plays in my mind and keeps me focused. 
The amount of tears and worry over this story has brought me to a higher place.
PLease keep it coming

Eyes
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bECUASE WE Love you and you can do it!!!

Re: I'm about to FALL!! 26 Feb 2021 12:02 #364280

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it might be the wine, but I love you all and we can do it1111
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94 days clean

BH doing well

Wishing you all a very Happy Purim!
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Re: MY PATH TO SANITY 26 Feb 2021 04:55 #364274

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I almost missed my daily post. BH doing OK.
Not sure if I'll get a chance to post tomorrow, my next post IYH will be Motzei Shabbos.

Have been implementing an idea I heard from R' Fischel Schechter shlit"a to choose 3 things every morning to be thankful of, right after Modeh Ani.

May we all be zoche to the hashpoas of Purim. Each one of us what Hashem knows we need 
My email address is: growinghigher613@gmail.com
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3! 
Ah freilichen purim! 
Anothershot 
My threads:
Giving it another shot

One step at a time

Daily (I hope) Excerpt from Sefer Zos Brisi

I am going to beat this monster one step at a time... One day at a time!
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 26 Feb 2021 01:20 #364270

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 25 Feb 2021 21:08:
Ok Rabboisai, here’s where things stand.
She responded.
I told her I’m taking at least a month to disconnect from texting/technology to connect to myself and to God (she’s spiritual so was into it).
So told her won’t be talking.
She was cool with it.

So now, she won’t be texting me. I deleted her number so can’t text her “when I’m ready.”
Now, there is still a risk of texting me at some point down the line, that’s true.
But as long as I don’t respond, she’ll stop and assume I’m not on WhatsApp.
She said “I hope we talk soon.”
And that nearly killed me...

Anyway, this is the matzav.
Im not proud of myself.
I really took a step back here, and nearly lost it all.

The truth is that even with all the gedarim, if a person wants, they can get shmutz.
A person, especially in the Dor, is always just a few steps away from potential destruction.

There’s a way for me to get back her number, by going on the site we met on (before GYE) and getting the number. And unfortunately my account can’t be deleted on it.
The main thing here for me is to be שקוע in Torah v’Yiras Shamayim.

Im moving on and hoping to utilize Purim to catapult me to a new Kabolas HaTorah. B’ezras HaShem Yisborach.

The fledgling,

YeshivaGuy

Stay strong! You inspire all of us. We are all here for you too!
Feel free to contact me happyyid613@gmail.com
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Bro frrrrr. I’m famished
My thread: Let's get this party started

Procrastination is something best put off until tomorrow. -Gerald Vaughan
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 25 Feb 2021 23:25 #364268

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חזק!

For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
פרק כז׳
״ואם העצבות...מהרהוריםרעים ותאוות רעות שנופלות במחשבתו...אדרבה יש לו לשמוח בחלקו שאף שנופלות במחשבתו הוא מסיח דעתו מהן לקיים מש״נ ולא תתורו אחרי לבבכם ואחרי עיניכם אשר אתם זונים אחריהם...שנופלים לו הרהורי ניאוף במחשבתו...וכשמסיח דעתו מקיים לאו זה ואמרז״ל ישב ולא עבר עבירה נותנים לו שכר כאילו עשה מצוה וע״כ צריך לשמוח בקיום הלאו כמו בקיום מ״ע ממש״
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

My old thread

My current thread 

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Re: The Story Teller 25 Feb 2021 22:52 #364266

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maybe finish each chapter in a way that portrays everything thats wrong with moes messed up brain and actions, and how it impact his wifes feelings. I think it would remove every trigger especially with grants writing skills.

And he would not keep us in suspense that much
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I would really like to eat now.
There’s good food all over.
It smells great.
But I won’t eat cause I’m a Jew that fasts on the days we are supposed to.

I hope to one day adapt that view in regards to acting out sexually.
For the background to my name- see Tanya פרק טו.
״שההפרש בין עובד אלוקים לצדיק הוא שעובד הוא לשון הווה, שהוא באמצע העבודה״
פרק כז׳
״ואם העצבות...מהרהוריםרעים ותאוות רעות שנופלות במחשבתו...אדרבה יש לו לשמוח בחלקו שאף שנופלות במחשבתו הוא מסיח דעתו מהן לקיים מש״נ ולא תתורו אחרי לבבכם ואחרי עיניכם אשר אתם זונים אחריהם...שנופלים לו הרהורי ניאוף במחשבתו...וכשמסיח דעתו מקיים לאו זה ואמרז״ל ישב ולא עבר עבירה נותנים לו שכר כאילו עשה מצוה וע״כ צריך לשמוח בקיום הלאו כמו בקיום מ״ע ממש״
“Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future”.

My old thread

My current thread 

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Re: I'm Back! 25 Feb 2021 22:20 #364264

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Chasdei Hashem!!!!! I reached my first goal and am be"H making it to Purim bkedusha vtahara!!!! (44 days!)

Thank you Hashem and all of GYE and the GYE chevrah!!!!

A super freilichen and elevating Purim to everyone!!!!!!!!!!
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Re: Hayom Yom 25 Feb 2021 22:05 #364263

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Forget the stupid ego!
1 day clean!!!!!!!!!! 
I couldn't bring myself to post again about "petty" accomplishments. Then I realized it was the Yetzer Hora talking.

BHYY is back in the ring!
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Re: Hayom Yom 25 Feb 2021 22:03 #364262

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I'm home now. As I've stated in the past, I will not touch an unfiltered device. I will try to post here at least daily (tomorrow's post may be a trifle difficult to understand...) and I will keep davening. I will Daven that Hashem help me stay clean and overcome all nisyonos and bez"h take me to 90 days and beyond, to a fulfilling, clean life.
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 25 Feb 2021 21:08 #364260

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Ok Rabboisai, here’s where things stand.
She responded.
I told her I’m taking at least a month to disconnect from texting/technology to connect to myself and to God (she’s spiritual so was into it).
So told her won’t be talking.
She was cool with it.

So now, she won’t be texting me. I deleted her number so can’t text her “when I’m ready.”
Now, there is still a risk of texting me at some point down the line, that’s true.
But as long as I don’t respond, she’ll stop and assume I’m not on WhatsApp.
She said “I hope we talk soon.”
And that nearly killed me...

Anyway, this is the matzav.
Im not proud of myself.
I really took a step back here, and nearly lost it all.

The truth is that even with all the gedarim, if a person wants, they can get shmutz.
A person, especially in the Dor, is always just a few steps away from potential destruction.

There’s a way for me to get back her number, by going on the site we met on (before GYE) and getting the number. And unfortunately my account can’t be deleted on it.
The main thing here for me is to be שקוע in Torah v’Yiras Shamayim.

Im moving on and hoping to utilize Purim to catapult me to a new Kabolas HaTorah. B’ezras HaShem Yisborach.

The fledgling,

YeshivaGuy
Last Edit: 25 Feb 2021 21:26 by YeshivaGuy.
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