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Don't look at yourself as an individual fighter, while in truth each one of us is a soldier that is part of a big army, and we are all fighting together. Not only to win our own battle, but ultimately to win the war overall, with the coming of Moshiach.

Hey Onceandforall!

Your enthusiasm is a real inspiration for me!

It's funny you mention that we should thank Hashem for this yetzer hara. The Gemara actually seems to say that they tried to eliminate this yetzer hara and then no children were going to born and the world wouldn't perpetuate, so they had to put the yetzer hara back. But if it weren't for that, we would be better without this difficult yetzer hara. Also, there is a medrash in vayechi about a member of chazal who the yetzer hara tried proving he could get him to look at temptations and he gouged his eyes out with hot metal to not succumb to the yetzer hara (The yetzer hara restored his eyesight after promising he wouldn't test  him again.)

The point I am trying to make is that, although there is tremendous reward for every act of maintaining our kedushah, we still must try and make the nisayon as little as possible to be able have our best chance at staying kaddosh. 

Also, only you can know whether for you "staying busy" is really the solution, or if you need something more impactful to change your old habit and keep a new habit.

Thank you again for using GYE and being a chizuk to all of us!

I hear your question very well, and wonder the same thing- there are so many backdooes to the internet these days. But I think having an open browser through an app is open internet, and you can’t have that- whether some can learn to control it or not.

And some people are more impulsive than others and will struggle terribly with this, while others won’t.

TAG and especially Gentech can help you work this out no problem. 

These 3 weeks,

outwardly painful

inwardly-full of hope & light

17 Tammuz-17= Tov-because good is hidden within it-Aharon's words will ring true-it's a Chag-it will become a True Chag

Parshas Pinchos-filled with pride in our great nation as be list our noble lineage,filled with blessing of peace, of Hashem defending our honor against Midian, the love of Eretz Yisroel & the abundance light of every Yom Tov including Shabbos & Rosh Chodesh!!!

These 3 weeks-commencing with such a light , a  Parsha of Light-illuminating our path so that we can transform these 3 weeks into 3 weeks of light & joy-the joy of being with Hashem , of returning to Him, our minds & hearts with burning love towards Eretz Yisroel like the pure burning hearts of the Daughters of Tzelofchod, our yearning toward the Beis Hamikdosh where will again arrive to on Pesach, Shevuous & Sukkos!! 

we can tap into the inner purity & holiness & potential joy of these 3 weeks even when our hearts still mourn in our exile. because within the olive there is pure oil,within the darkness there is great light

Baseless Hate -transformed into True Love that is boundless for every member of our nation-That is where we start. 

Parshas Pinchus-Dvar Torah

Wishing all of you a wonderful week!!

https://guardyoureyes.com/media/kunena/attachments/2149/pinchas-5779.pdf

Just wanted to get on before shabbos to give myself some Chizuk before. And if anyone else happens to be reading this message before shabbos- please daven for me and I’ll daven for you and let’s together make a commitment to fight a little harder and a little longer if the going gets thought over shabbos. 

Good shabbos to all!!!

I also read this book and I found it so helpful! Check it out. It's life-changing!

Avoiding binging and posting the honest truth shows a fellow with bh a healthy mind. It means you understand fully that all is not lost and that the accomplishment remains. If someone went from acting out once a week = 52 times a year, to once every 242, that's awesome. Keep it up chaver. It is inspiring for all when one is courageous enough to post that he had a fall after so long, and that he is just moving on b'ezras Hashem.

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Its not that we struggle with the bad part of ourselves, we struggle with something that is in essence 'not' really part of ourselves. So don't look down at yourself for having this struggle, it does not define your essence.

I'm sorry to hear that you had a fall.  But, the fact that you manage to fight off the urge to "binge" is itself a major victory.  That is one of the big tricks of the Y"H.  I like your perspective on 242-1 record.  Please keep us posted on your continuous journey. 

Hey just dont forget the name of this thread...

I had an interesting past few weeks.  Pretty stressful, as I had a to deal with a lot of things at once.  Nothing terrible, just real life stuff.  With a few exceptions, I was pleasantly surprise with how I dealt with the challenges.  I accepted that these are challenges from Hashem.  SInce I've joined GYE a couple of years ago, I've found that I have a higher awareness of Hashem in my everyday life.  Just reading the daily chizuk emails and reading how other members deal with their struggle have allowed me to appreciate the bigger picture of why we are here.  We are all on a journey.  We may not understand why we have to go what we go through, but it's a process.  May Hashem continue to give us strength in dealing with our challenges. 

I am very sad to report that I had a fall last night. I had been struggling the last couple of weeks. I feel incredibly awful about it but managed to fight off the inevitable binge that usually ensues. I am ready to continue fighting. I had a streak of something like 242 days. Instead of thinking of it as a total loss im going to think about it like a boxer... I have a 242 to 1 record. Resetting the clock and battling on.

Keeping as busy as possible is clever.
But not if you get too tired...which is when you get vulnerable...so rest as well.
Keeping busy can be by being busy alone...i.e. studying, praying, reading, walking etc. etc.

Take it day by day Isaac.
Hour by hour if needed.
Good luck.