yiraishamaim wrote on 09 May 2017 01:11:

I wish I can stay home! Was at work for 10 hrs yesterday plus 1.5 traveling time. Technically I can take a sick day off, but my work load just keeps on piling up. So I will need to put in extra hours a different time. Not worth it for me.

tiger wrote on 09 May 2017 01:21:

Tiger, I hope you feel better. We can't have the whole jungle feeling sick! 

tiger wrote on 09 May 2017 01:23:

Good idea.

ThereThere used to be a "G" thread, which focuses on gratitude, goals and gains.

Im in, I am usually wired for negativity especially when I'm sick, but I have been getting better

tiger wrote on 09 May 2017 12:04:

Don't be "In."

FindFind it, read it and then post.

lionking wrote on 09 May 2017 10:45:

Especially if others took sick leave eg 
Polar bear

Giraffe popped in recently
The Bear hasn't posted in a while...

cordnoy wrote on 09 May 2017 11:36:

You left out glitches and gains is really good stuff.  
Anyhooooooo It is in the break free section

I haven't updated my thread since I took sick leave. I was back a while already and popped in to other people's threads, took some advice from Markz to just chill and post. 
This past Shabbos was a tough one. I promised myself this Friday night, that I will post either way. I got hit Friday afternoon with such an attack. I wasn't lusting or fantasizing. I didn't want to have sex or see porn. I just wanted to masturbate. (Perhaps it was withdrawal symptoms, I don't know the cause for it.) I promised myself that I will post the outcome either way. I managed to overcome that feeling. I went to the Mikva, got ready for Shabbos. I thought I was done with that test. Friday night when I came home from Shul, Wife hinted that tonight will be fine, It's been over a week. When we got ready for bed, she tells me that her back is hurting and she is extremely tired. She really would like to postpone. I have to give her credit, being the good wife that she is, She offered that she will do it if I really want to. I couldn't took her up on the offer. She is not in the mood and I will be only doing it for my pleasure. As hard as it was for me, I politely turned down and told her that I am fine and really want what's best for her.
(God should forgive me for that lie, מותר לשנות מפני השלום) I distracted myself, learned a little and read something until I was so tired and literally falling asleep, so that I shouldn't have time to lay in bed and think/fantasize. During alot of the day, I had a tickling sensation down below, felt like I need to urinate. Was so hard to get it out of my mind. I surrendered to Hashem. I am truly powerless over this. I really want to stop. Please help me.
Sundays are my hardest day every week.
Please have me in mind during your Prayers.
Thank You

lionking wrote on 21 May 2017 03:47:

LION KING WORRYING TOO MUCH???

Markz, I'm off Movies for Sefira. I don't speak Swahili. Took a few minutes to get the reference.
I've come a long way in the worries department. 

Super how you made it through Friday night and Shabbos. Withdrawal is the pits but it subsides alot with time. Hatzlocha with Sunday b'ezras Hashem.

HHM,
Thanks for your support. I'm looking forward to a great day today with Hashem's help. I woke up early, feeling fine. It definitely helps to write and get it off my chest.
Hatzlacha to you too.

lionking wrote on 21 May 2017 04:26:

Yoh, i can stop laughing, i still dont get it....

lionking wrote on 21 May 2017 03:47:

Hay lionking, i know what you are talking about, i was in exactly the same shoe size like you, but for me is the toughest day shabbes, but the more days passing clean, the more easier it gets, dont mess if up, it pays to fight this war, you will win. 
stay strong, stay clean 

Markz wrote on 21 May 2017 04:17:

Markz, Can you get the motions a little bit slower? I cant figure out what color monkeys they are!!