Shivisi, stay dtrong forever!!
i'm onGYE for a month and you're one of my strongest supporters. I read your daily post with my mouth.. i'm waiting for it the whole day. Listen if you have the power, please start posting more messages a day as you're a strong supporter to others. I really admire your great work!!! 

KEEP ON TRUCKING!! 

you're doing great......

MBJ wrote:

Wow sounds familiar. My car broke down acting out was the first thing that came to mind. Even when arthritis hits (I'm not that old though...) i think of acting out. Totally messed up thinking.

Meyer M. wrote on 10 Sep 2020 02:58:

im very happy that you have been helped by that realization ,but not "everyone else here " had that same conclusion , many have just a fight with a very strong,if not one of the strongest urges ,of a person, but it wasnt an addiction,and BH have found  tried and true ways of dealing with the Yetzer Hara. but true ,for someone who has an addiction probably other methods would have to be employed to get the desired results.
 what i mean by this being not an addiction for some is as following , here is a nice yeshiva boy who just finished learning a geshmaka R' Chaim and his Echad by Krias Shema almost ripped of the roof of the Beis Hamedrash,comes along his father and picks him up from Yeshiva ,gets home , tells his son to take a good shave and shower , and to get dressed in his best . when the son is ready, the father drives him to a house of harlotry, gives him a shpritz of the latest aftershave , and stuffs a wad of hundreds in his hand and drives off ...Chazal say about this scenario,"Mah Yaase Haben Shelo Chata?!"What in the world can the son do that he wont sin?!"if chas vishalom he falls, was it due to an addiction? is he a faker ?no*, of course not. its just a terrible nisayon.
do i make sense?

*ill grant you that there are people here who would say hes a faker, but i humbly disagree even though they have helped many people ,so my disagreement probably isnt worth too much,if at all ,to others

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From the White Book



"I could see a girl in a bikini on a billboard five years ago and it wouldn't bother me; now, I go to pieces and lose my mind over it."

cordnoy wrote on 23 Nov 2015 14:19:

Very enlightening stuff in this old post from Cordnoy. This line, however...

I don't know whether to laugh or to cry. Very disheartening. 

Weaning yourself off the "top tier crap", only to be driven insane by the "lower level crap" is a pretty useless cause, says a pretty despondent part of little 'ole me. 

I guess in my dour mood, any attempt to explain it away with religious platitudes would be interpreted by me as "cheesy, worthless reverse brainwashing"

It might help to quote the whole passage from the white book that cord was quoting:



I've put the key words in bold. 

Yet, despite that, there's something here making me feel despondent.

Will try to write more later.