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"Ach es Mateh Levi lo sifkod - Don't count Shevet Levi" (1:49) Rashi says that Hashem foresaw that there will be a decree on all those who were counted from age 20 that they will die in the desert, so He said, "These shall not be included, because they are mine, for they ...

We are at the start of a new Sefer, a new Parsha and a new month. A simple question: Why does Parshas Bamidbar always precede the Yom Tov of Shavuos? The Medrash tells us that Torah needs three attributes: Fire, Water and "Midbar - a Desert" Midbar signifies mesiras nefes...

"Bayom Hazeh Ba'u Midbar Sinai - on this day, they came to the desert of Sinai". Chazal say (Shabbos 86b) that we arrived at Midbar Sinai on Rosh Chodesh Sivan. The next Pasuk repeats: "Va'yisu Merifidim, Vayavo'u Midbar Sinai - And they traveled from Refidim, and they ca...

Someone posted on the forum: "I just fell. I am such a lowlife." Dov Responded: Gevalt. How do you know what you are? You don't even know how to stay clean, and yet you say you understand yourself well enough to determine what you are?! I'm still not exactly sure what I ...

Whatever method or system we've been using on our own up till now, has obviously not worked or we wouldn't be here, dealing with lust and masturbation in our daily lives. SO WE HAVE TO ACCEPT THAT OUR OLD SYSTEM JUST DOESN'T WORK, PERIOD. We need to try something NEW. We ...

With the counting of sefiras haomer, we are celebrating the switch from harvesting barley... to harvesting wheat. Barley is coarse animal food. It represents animalistic traits. Everyone can be an animal with no effort. Eating, lusting, sleeping, etc. are all animalistic ...

I was lying in bed last night, literally weeping, thinking about my father who passed away a little while ago. I began to think maybe I should push off my struggle for a less emotionally trying period. I began to think about slipping. I then opened up yesterday's chizuk e...

At some time in recovery, I admitted that what I was always really looking for in all the lust and schmutz was true acceptance of me (or my body) for the sake of me (irrespective of my goodness or lack thereof), by someone that I really respect/worship. Someone I consider...

I don't think you truly understand the meaning of change and the idea of working on your SSA. You're letting yourself be carried away by what the gay community wants so hard for you to believe. I have seen so many gay men unhappy and get into unsafer sex and ultimately su...

"NoWhereToTurn" posted this shocking post on our forum recently: Sholom Aleichem warriors, I am a regular 15 yr old yeshiva bochur in a top yeshiva in somewhere, but have internet at home. Besides for my own problems with watching my eyes and controlling my hotzoas zer...

Just sometimes, but more frequently lately, the pain, loneliness and restlessness become overbearing, and it is then that I desire to leave this empty world of "hevel varik", and be next to the kisei hakavod. GYE Responds: Your desire to be next to the Kisei Hakavod is y...

Someone wrote on the forum: Today was a record breaking day for me! My previous longest streak was 26 days and today my new streak became 27 days and counting. All I can say is Baruch Hashem for this site and this forum. Before discovering guardyoureyes.org my clean s...

Someone writes on the forum: My name is Yechiel and I just can't believe it has come to this. I pashut can not believe that I have not been able to break this addiction. I quit smoking, I quit poor eating habits, I am extremely successful in everything that I have done or...

As we all know, Shemiras Shabbos was THE main Nisayon during the first half of the 20th Century. The six (or seven) day workweek made keeping Shabbos extremely difficult, and, at the time, there seemed to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Even those who were able to...

The first order of business when beginning to work the steps, is to get sober and remain sober by getting reasonably comfortable with the practice of asking for help when lust strikes. Asking for help is good a sign that the addict has finally come to believe that he is a...

"JIP", as he is known for short, has had a very painful life. It started when he was molested at the age of nine. See his painful story on this page. Here is what "JIP" wrote when he reached 90 days clean: 90 days! I owe a thank you to everyone for helping me get here, b...

Today is Yesod Sh'b'Yesod in the Seffirah. The word Yesod means "Connection". Every human has an inborn subconscious need for connection to something "bigger" than themselves. Often this need is misinterpreted and we try to fill it with money, honor and pleasures. See thi...