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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 04:34 #362437

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 01 Feb 2021 03:27:
Here it is:
So my IPhone is filtered properly bh.
Prob is, I stumbled (not so beshogeg) upon the  ability to listen to Kol Isha/see music vids on my phone (first 30 sec of it. But that’s enough to poison me).
There i said it.  
This can kill me.
Already was nichshal abit.
It’s overpowering.
I can not withstand this.

I hope this doesn’t mark my demise...

Whats the eitza?
Uh, I can try getting my mom to put in restrictions code so I can try fixing the settings.
One reason not to though, is that it shows that I have 6 failed attempts to put in the code...
Embarrasing....

Oy,

YeshivaGuy

Why not have TAG put one of their filters on it? They do a fantastic job. 
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 09:13 #362454

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The craziest thing ever just happened to me

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 09:30 #362455

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Bkitzur, when I was trying to fix my phone with my mom putting in the code, I got a chatting app.
So I started shmuzing with this girl, and I was mamash full of taiva, at the cusp of giving in.

B’kitzur I ended up chapping that this “girl” was a scam.
We were WhatsApping, and turns out he’s a black guy! Lol!

It was absolutely insane.
What I see from here is very clear Hashgacha.
Now we see taivas and we think it’s a דבר ממשי, but really its all הבל הבלים.

You guys can’t imagine the shock when this big taiva that I had built in my mind turned out to be a black guy!

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 11:18 #362460

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I think this is the way it always is with this sort of thing (even if its not specifically a black guy tricking you) 
I know I'm always (somehow) surprised after falling, when the illusion of what I wanted disappears its always unexpected.
Last Edit: 01 Feb 2021 11:18 by Hy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 13:48 #362465

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YeshivaGuy,
Don't disappoint us. You didn't almost reach 150 days, just to fall with some fake chat.
If you need to chat, we are here for you.

Regarding the iphone, I second the comment about calling Tag. Or you can reach out direct to GenTech and they can help you.

If you want to do it yourself, there is a utility by Apple, called Apple Configurator which needs to run on a Mac, which allows much more granular settings to lockdown a iPhone using profiles.

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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 14:20 #362467

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Like what lionking said - your such inspiration to all of us constantly persevering over ur taivas keep it going don't let us down!

Keep it going!
Think about how good you'll feel if you say no to desire and compare that to how bad you'll feel if you say yes.

Desire is unique in the way that it is never fulfilled -  if you give in the desire comes back even more powerful in just a few days. Telling yourself that its ok because this is really the last time doesn't work because you are just adding new images to your head that will cause future falls.

The Joy of triumph over the yetzer hara is worth the effort it takes to win. It IS worth it! Keep fighting!


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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 16:00 #362469

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lionking wrote on 01 Feb 2021 13:48:
YeshivaGuy,
Don't disappoint us. You didn't almost reach 150 days, just to fall with some fake chat.
If you need to chat, we are here for you.

Regarding the iphone, I second the comment about calling Tag. Or you can reach out direct to GenTech and they can help you.

If you want to do it yourself, there is a utility by Apple, called Apple Configurator which needs to run on a Mac, which allows much more granular settings to lockdown a iPhone using profiles.

Hatzlocha

I can just call? I don’t need to go to the store in person?

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 16:01 #362470

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Honestly, I think this is the time to rid myself 100% from this sheretz once and for all

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 16:25 #362474

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 01 Feb 2021 16:01:
Honestly, I think this is the time to rid myself 100% from this sheretz once and for all

I don't want to be harsh especially to someone like you, who is a role model here, but it may be beneficial.

YOU SAID THAT 1000 TIMES! 

You know that this phone is causing you many unwanted problems, you don't need or want it. So you know what to do.

You aren't someone who talks and doesn't do...so what's up?!?

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 16:43 #362476

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Grant400 wrote on 01 Feb 2021 16:25:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 01 Feb 2021 16:01:
Honestly, I think this is the time to rid myself 100% from this sheretz once and for all

I don't want to be harsh especially to someone like you, who is a role model here, but it may be beneficial.

YOU SAID THAT 1000 TIMES! 

You know that this phone is causing you many unwanted problems, you don't need or want it. So you know what to do.

You aren't someone who talks and doesn't do...so what's up?!?

If you came from the same place he’s from and it’s not ‘YeshivaHome’, you’d do the same! Ok? So put down that stun gun right now!

YeshivaGuy take my word - it’s good to listen to the General on this. Peel the apple, take out the core (sim-card), and cast the rest in the recycle. 

What? Your family will think you’re nuts?
Umm... what do they think of you now...
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 17:39 #362480

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Ouch, but yup.

Spot on Ulysses (was I just oiver "mechaneh sheim??)

Tough love is far and in between on this forum, but this one was timely.

Nonetheless precisely because of the above exchange, my vote is that Yeshiva guy should be crowned the GOAT (as in Tom Brady)...

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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 17:55 #362482

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 01 Feb 2021 16:00:

lionking wrote on 01 Feb 2021 13:48:
YeshivaGuy,
Don't disappoint us. You didn't almost reach 150 days, just to fall with some fake chat.
If you need to chat, we are here for you.

Regarding the iphone, I second the comment about calling Tag. Or you can reach out direct to GenTech and they can help you.

If you want to do it yourself, there is a utility by Apple, called Apple Configurator which needs to run on a Mac, which allows much more granular settings to lockdown a iPhone using profiles.

Hatzlocha

I can just call? I don’t need to go to the store in person?

I’m not going to weigh in on whether you should keep the phone or get rid of it. But if you keep it, l’fi aniyas daiti, you should have TAG filter it. You do not need to go to an office, you can call them. I recommend you call the TAG Flatbush office and tell them you want to get set up on Machane Kadosh, that’s the highest level of filtering (thanks HHM for the recommendation). You don’t need to live in Flatbush (I don’t) it’s just Machane Kadosh is based out of that office. 
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 18:54 #362486

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Grant400 wrote on 01 Feb 2021 16:25:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 01 Feb 2021 16:01:
Honestly, I think this is the time to rid myself 100% from this sheretz once and for all

I don't want to be harsh especially to someone like you, who is a role model here, but it may be beneficial.

YOU SAID THAT 1000 TIMES! 

You know that this phone is causing you many unwanted problems, you don't need or want it. So you know what to do.

You aren't someone who talks and doesn't do...so what's up?!?

I can’t hear properly on my dumb phone.
I think I need it, idk
Im using this phone when I’m home davka, so that I won’t use the unfiltered stuff here. That was the eitza I received, and it has worked to keep me off the computer.
Using this phone while being home has kept me from watching porn etc. it’s been very beneficial thus far.
The prob is that it’s not fool proof.
Its a hard place I’m in, ligit unfiltered stuff everywhere.

As far as in Yeshiva, I’ve been doing well separated from it
Last Edit: 01 Feb 2021 19:02 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 20:38 #362496

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I’m home, feeling down, surrounded by unfiltered garbage, and not in a makom Torah. Can’t leave the house cuz of the storm (guess narrows it down to me being from one of like 5 states).
I only have one 6 year old brother home, so not much to hang with.
It’s a tough situation. So I use this phone, particularly for GYE to get me through this.
My goal here is to not masterbate or go on YouTube while home.
If I wouldn’t use this phone now at home, I’d be a dead man...

As far as Yeshiva, like I said I’ve been doing much much better being separated from it. But even still, I can be even more separate.
Its a very hard time I’m in.
Especialy cuz I’m depressed, which makes one seek dopamine to numb the pain.

Im not one to shy away from mussar, eitza, or critiques, I just think that I’m doing my best here so far, though I should def contact gentech.
My other friends are all over their computers/TVs now, and I’m trying to hold out.

Even if I was in a good place emotionally, it would still be very hard. And being depressed just adds to it.
Especialy cuz stam being home can be stressful cuz parents speak in loud voices, my brother always wants me to play video games with him, and ya...

You guys are def right that I can do even better.
But please understand that I’m trying so so hard to stay afloat here at home.
Things aren’t so poshut
Last Edit: 01 Feb 2021 20:41 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 01 Feb 2021 21:15 #362499

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 01 Feb 2021 20:38:

My goal here is to not masterbate or go on YouTube while home.

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