Tomorrow morning I leave to Eretz Yisroel. 

I will bli neder daven for all of the members of GYE at the mekomos hakedoshim that I hope to visit, that everyone here should have siyata d'Shmaya in learning to control this yetzer hara and to live healthy, clean, holy lives.

Thank you to everyone who has been a part of my journey until this point. Iy"H next Rosh Chodesh Nissan I"ll be back.

Hatzlacha Rabbah GYE!

Birshusi wrote on 28 Aug 2016 23:12:

פאר געזונטערהייט


  Iy"H next Rosh Chodesh Nissan בירושלים הבנויה
               

Birshusi wrote on 23 Aug 2016 18:25:
You obsess about your personal shortcomings, but are not a perfectionist?! Hmmmm. I have to think about that one .

I'm back after a gevaldige seven months in Eretz Yisrael. The truth is that it doesn't feel very good to be back on GYE, because it brings back memories and feelings of struggling with the Internet, but I know that I experienced real growth and progress by participating in the GYE community, and that being here acts as a real safeguard from falling.

So I plan be relatively active on the forums over bein hazmanim, and with Hashem's help I'll remain as clean and holy as I was during my time in EY.

It doesn't feel good to feel normal?

C'mon you're one of us!

gr8 to have you back

Keep on shTeiging 

Welcome back!! 

Welcome back.

Birshusi wrote on 30 Mar 2017 16:55:


Hi Shu
Glad to hear that you did well in E'Y. (I remember being shocked when I settled in my dira and found that my yetzer harah had somehow tracked me down in a new country.) How are the nisyonas back home different then when you were away? Sometimes when we change settings during a good streak, it helps to pinpoint what are the weak points and challenges in our new situation so we can be sure to avoid them and remain as clean as we were.

Good to see you back.  Bain Hazemanim can be a difficult time.  Posting may help you through it.

Welcome back!

Ah, learning.

we are waiting for you here with open arms keep it up 
ain torah k'toras eretz yisroel

Thanks for the warm responses guys. Unfortunately this week was not a clean one. I fell a couple of times. I realize that I'm in some twisted state of acceptance and denial at the same time. I posted a couple days after I got home because I knew that I needed to be on top of things over BH even though I was on a high from being in EY and couldn't see myself falling, but I knew that wasn't the case and that I'd very quickly revert back to the way things have always been once I readjusted to being home. On the other hand, I only posted that one time, because I just didn't want to get all involved in the whole internet struggle thing; I just wanted to live life without being busy with this stuff, and I really thought I could pull it off.

But l'maaseh, this week, especially Wednesday, was really bad. So again I'm back, and my job now is to come up with a strategy to stay clean for the rest of BH.

stillgoing wrote on 02 Apr 2017 12:50:

The internet is my biggest issue; I struggle with shmiras einayim in the street just like everyone else, but my internet struggles are far more challenging and destructive.
Not having internet access in EY made that nisayon obsolete; I was a dry drunk. Bein Hazmanim means the nisayon is back.

Birshusi wrote on 07 Apr 2017 17:29:

Sorry to hear.

SoI what is the strategy?

cordnoy wrote on 09 Apr 2017 04:45:

I don't have one yet.

I've considered a taphsic, but I'm scared...

Otherwise I've been on the forums a lot.

Any suggestions?