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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 23 May 2017 23:20 #313972

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MMarkz, I usually don't post pictures, that is more your domain.
Yesterday I slipped too. I have one app with tech news stories. Usually things like some startup is switching to github, or how this satellite company is physically trucking their files via Monsta truck to Amazon AWS. Faster than the super highway. Sometimes there is a write up about angular.js, or c++, etc... Yesterday they had a story about a huge corporation which is supposed to foster relationships between people, has had a leak. Their internal moderator guides were exposed. I dwelled a little too long on a certain chapter. (For GYE's moderation purposes, something about cleaning kitchens ) Lucky for me the news site only showed what passes as acceptable content. It was bad enough for me. 
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 23 May 2017 23:26 #313973

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lionking wrote on 23 May 2017 23:20:
MMarkz, I usually don't post pictures, that is more your domain.
Yesterday I slipped too. I have one app with tech news stories. Usually things like some startup is switching to github, or how this satellite company is physically trucking their files via Monsta truck to Amazon AWS. Faster than the super highway. Sometimes there is a write up about angular.js, or c++, etc... Yesterday they had a story about a huge corporation which is supposed to foster relationships between people, has had a leak. Their internal moderator guides were exposed. I dwelled a little too long on a certain chapter. (For GYE's moderation purposes, something about cleaning kitchens ) Lucky for me the news site only showed what passes as acceptable content. It was bad enough for me. 
(Hey Cords, you mind leaking GYE's moderator guide?)

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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 23 May 2017 23:32 #313975

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lionking wrote on 23 May 2017 23:20:
MMarkz, I usually don't post pictures, that is more your domain.
Yesterday I slipped too. I have one app with tech news stories. Usually things like some startup is switching to github, or how this satellite company is physically trucking their files via Monsta truck to Amazon AWS. Faster than the super highway. Sometimes there is a write up about angular.js, or c++, etc... Yesterday they had a story about a huge corporation which is supposed to foster relationships between people, has had a leak. Their internal moderator guides were exposed. I dwelled a little too long on a certain chapter. (For GYE's moderation purposes, something about cleaning kitchens ) Lucky for me the news site only showed what passes as acceptable content. It was bad enough for me. 
(Hey Cords, you mind leaking GYE's moderator guide?)

II spent far too much time of my life with my internal moderator guides exposed. Ouch!
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads: Mikvah Night - Page 1, Page 2, Page 3, Last Page

https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/1-Break-Free/210029-Tryin
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 24 May 2017 00:57 #313984

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GrowStrong wrote on 23 May 2017 22:04:

Markz wrote on 23 May 2017 17:09:
This is how I was feeling as I was slipping last night
img_0963.PNG


Actually I found the picture last night as I was loopholing trying to find something triggering on my phone which is filtered better than the Mexico fence, but didn't find anything that would pass my [dis]approval, until another truck overtook me and his name is sleep

I could easily have gone on my PC and found porn in 2 seconds flat. But I have standards, so I wouldn't do THAT. Am I crazed? Probaby

Why am I sharing this?
Because even if no-one replies, it can help
And perhaps Lionking will let out another roar

Maybe you should delete Snapchat and delete all those selfies with dog filters also.

It's a loophole on my phone, not an external app
But I'll not share cos you don't need a trap
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 24 May 2017 03:28 #313995

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Markz wrote on 24 May 2017 00:57:

GrowStrong wrote on 23 May 2017 22:04:

Markz wrote on 23 May 2017 17:09:
This is how I was feeling as I was slipping last night
img_0963.PNG


Actually I found the picture last night as I was loopholing trying to find something triggering on my phone which is filtered better than the Mexico fence, but didn't find anything that would pass my [dis]approval, until another truck overtook me and his name is sleep

I could easily have gone on my PC and found porn in 2 seconds flat. But I have standards, so I wouldn't do THAT. Am I crazed? Probaby

Why am I sharing this?
Because even if no-one replies, it can help
And perhaps Lionking will let out another roar

Maybe you should delete Snapchat and delete all those selfies with dog filters also.

It's a loophole on my phone, not an external app
But I'll not share cos you don't need a trap

Markz,

If you have an iPhone it should really be fixable. I've found every loophole I can imagine and after fixing thema there's none left- should I PM you with the choices? Or text?

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 24 May 2017 12:54 #314020

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I don't need to add problems / triggers to your life 

Last time I went to TAG and they made a helpful fix, I found the loophole and showed them, but they were clueless to help someone like me (I should offer to work for them - on a day my wife wakes up on the right side of the bed, and would agree). They told me to come back

Thanks to your insistence I made a reminder for myself to speak to a TAG tech guy later today and there may be a solution

I did test the loophole last night again, but besides for the picture of my brother there's not much interesting :boring:
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 24 May 2017 13:24 #314021

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I don't need to add problems / triggers to your life 



Last time I went to TAG and they made a helpful fix, I found the loophole and showed them, but they were clueless to help someone like me (I should offer to work for them - on a day my wife wakes up on the right side of the bed, and would agree). They told me to come back



Thanks to your insistence I made a reminder for myself to speak to a TAG tech guy later today and there may be a solution



I did test the loophole last night again, but besides for the picture of my brother there's not much interesting :boring:They (TAG) were on a few of my resentment sheets (and some of my best friends work there).



IfIf I would care, they would still be on.
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 30 May 2017 16:18 #314516

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Workingguy wrote on 24 May 2017 03:28:

Markz wrote on 24 May 2017 00:57:

GrowStrong wrote on 23 May 2017 22:04:

Markz wrote on 23 May 2017 17:09:
This is how I was feeling as I was slipping last night
img_0963.PNG


Actually I found the picture last night as I was loopholing trying to find something triggering on my phone which is filtered better than the Mexico fence, but didn't find anything that would pass my [dis]approval, until another truck overtook me and his name is sleep

I could easily have gone on my PC and found porn in 2 seconds flat. But I have standards, so I wouldn't do THAT. Am I crazed? Probaby

Why am I sharing this?
Because even if no-one replies, it can help
And perhaps Lionking will let out another roar

Maybe you should delete Snapchat and delete all those selfies with dog filters also.

It's a loophole on my phone, not an external app
But I'll not share cos you don't need a trap

Markz,

If you have an iPhone it should really be fixable. I've found every loophole I can imagine and after fixing thema there's none left- should I PM you with the choices? Or text?

Thanks brother 

I went to TAG yesterday and they fixed it for me
And I went to the barber too ;-)
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 30 May 2017 19:05 #314523

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Markz wrote on 30 May 2017 16:18:

Workingguy wrote on 24 May 2017 03:28:

Markz wrote on 24 May 2017 00:57:

GrowStrong wrote on 23 May 2017 22:04:

Markz wrote on 23 May 2017 17:09:
This is how I was feeling as I was slipping last night
img_0963.PNG


Actually I found the picture last night as I was loopholing trying to find something triggering on my phone which is filtered better than the Mexico fence, but didn't find anything that would pass my [dis]approval, until another truck overtook me and his name is sleep

I could easily have gone on my PC and found porn in 2 seconds flat. But I have standards, so I wouldn't do THAT. Am I crazed? Probaby

Why am I sharing this?
Because even if no-one replies, it can help
And perhaps Lionking will let out another roar

Maybe you should delete Snapchat and delete all those selfies with dog filters also.

It's a loophole on my phone, not an external app
But I'll not share cos you don't need a trap

Markz,

If you have an iPhone it should really be fixable. I've found every loophole I can imagine and after fixing thema there's none left- should I PM you with the choices? Or text?

Thanks brother 

I went to TAG yesterday and they fixed it for me
And I went to the barber too ;-)

Common denominator.....I resent them both!
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads: Mikvah Night - Page 1, Page 2, Page 3, Last Page

https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/1-Break-Free/210029-Tryin
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 13:31 #314822

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I fell and hit the restart count button. 

Do I feel I lost my sobriety?

No because I never had it

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict. 

My Clean streak log

Began Wall of Honor journey: Aug 13, 2015 28 Av, 5775

Humpty Dumptied: 3am today

Began new journey: Jun 7, 2017 13 Sivan, 5777

At some point in the middle of the night I decided "it's time to Mast*". Now it ain't gonna work without Porn, and of course I won't go on a non filtered device, so I decided to see what i could find on this filtered iPhone.

I discovered a way to access many porn videos outside of any web browser despite all my much appreciated TAG restrictions

As mentioned previously, I do not like to share my loopholes with other gye's and drag other Trucks over the cliff, so pls wait till I do my due diligence and call Tag again... although I know TAG is not the solution

Can I pinpoint what caused my fall? Not really. And that's a hassle for me :-(

What could I have done better?

Needs some though...

I must mention however that compared to my bad old days, these past 664 days were highly productive thank Gd to you guys and gye as a whole!!

The Trucking continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 14:19 #314828

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...and all the king's horses and all the king's men...

But our King can do ANYTHING!!!

KOMTT!!!
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וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 14:34 #314831

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Oh my!!! if markz can..... then we all can....
can what????? yes we can get to 664 days, and we can fall,lets learn and take together this lesson, never give up the fight, and never take along the let down, just keep marching, and we all march together..

I feel deeply you pain, I just experienced the same, and Together I'm back on my recovery highway, all TRUCKS together, באחדות,

marks, dust your self up, you fell, hashem is picking you back up, he is at your side, and he is helping you with the cleaning process, עמו אנכי בצרה, and he will be very happy to see you marching again..

just get some fuel for your truck

stay strong! stay clean! we are all in with you, just don't create traffic along the way...
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כי עיקר מציאות האדם בעה"ז הוא רק לקיים מצות ולעמד בניסיון,  והנאות העולם אין ראוי שיהו לו אלא לעזר ולסיוע בלבד לשיהיה לו נחת רוח ויישוב הדעת למען יוכל לפנות לבו אל העבודה הזאת מסילת ישרים

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 15:02 #314835

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I fell and hit the restart count button.

Do I feel I lost my sobriety?

No because I never had it

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict.

My Clean streak log

Began Wall of Honor journey: Aug 13, 2015 28 Av, 5775

Humpty Dumptied: 3am today

Began new journey: Jun 7, 2017 13 Sivan, 5777

At some point in the middle of the night I decided "it's time to Mast*". Now it ain't gonna work without Porn, and of course I won't go on a non filtered device, so I decided to see what i could find on this filtered iPhone.

I discovered a way to access many porn videos outside of any web browser despite all my much appreciated TAG restrictions

As mentioned previously, I do not like to share my loopholes with other gye's and drag other Trucks over the cliff, so pls wait till I do my due diligence and call Tag again... although I know TAG is not the solution

Can I pinpoint what caused my fall? Not really. And that's a hassle for me :-(

What could I have done better?

Needs some though...

I must mention however that compared to my bad old days, these past 664 days were highly productive thank Gd to you guys and gye as a whole!!

The Trucking continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Markz,

I love your honesty. And love this post and am fully supporting you.

Without getting into all sorts of addiction conversations, and much more looking at it from a Torah perspective for this conversation (and I know that's not what we usually do here), you worked hard for almost TWO YEARS of constant involvement in order to fix a problem that you had. Most people, (non addiction) professionals included, would say that if you had a bad or destructive habit and you brought it down to 0 for 664 days!!!! And you weren't white knuckling, that's amazing.

So move on, get back on the horse, and keep on trucking, as you said. And of course we want to hope that every time is the last (again, leave ODAAT out of this for a minute) but it might be normal to experience a infrequent slip. But the main thing is to truck on!!

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 15:45 #314840

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I fell and hit the restart count button.

Do I feel I lost my sobriety?

No because I never had it

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict.

My Clean streak log

Began Wall of Honor journey: Aug 13, 2015 28 Av, 5775

Humpty Dumptied: 3am today

Began new journey: Jun 7, 2017 13 Sivan, 5777

At some point in the middle of the night I decided "it's time to Mast*". Now it ain't gonna work without Porn, and of course I won't go on a non filtered device, so I decided to see what i could find on this filtered iPhone.

I discovered a way to access many porn videos outside of any web browser despite all my much appreciated TAG restrictions

As mentioned previously, I do not like to share my loopholes with other gye's and drag other Trucks over the cliff, so pls wait till I do my due diligence and call Tag again... although I know TAG is not the solution

Can I pinpoint what caused my fall? Not really. And that's a hassle for me :-(

What could I have done better?

Needs some though...

I must mention however that compared to my bad old days, these past 664 days were highly productive thank Gd to you guys and gye as a whole!!

The Trucking continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Love you too!

YouYou da man!
My email: thenewme613@hotmail.com
My threads: Mikvah Night - Page 1, Page 2, Page 3, Last Page

https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/1-Break-Free/210029-Tryin
:pinch: Warning: Spoiler!
My job: Punchin' bag of GYE - "NeshamaInCharge"
Quote from the chevra: "Is Cordnoy truly a Treasure Island pirate from the Southern Seas?"

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 16:23 #314841

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I fell and hit the restart count button.

Do I feel I lost my sobriety?

No because I never had it

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict.

My Clean streak log

Began Wall of Honor journey: Aug 13, 2015 28 Av, 5775

Humpty Dumptied: 3am today

Began new journey: Jun 7, 2017 13 Sivan, 5777

At some point in the middle of the night I decided "it's time to Mast*". Now it ain't gonna work without Porn, and of course I won't go on a non filtered device, so I decided to see what i could find on this filtered iPhone.

I discovered a way to access many porn videos outside of any web browser despite all my much appreciated TAG restrictions

As mentioned previously, I do not like to share my loopholes with other gye's and drag other Trucks over the cliff, so pls wait till I do my due diligence and call Tag again... although I know TAG is not the solution

Can I pinpoint what caused my fall? Not really. And that's a hassle for me :-(

What could I have done better?

Needs some though...

I must mention however that compared to my bad old days, these past 664 days were highly productive thank Gd to you guys and gye as a whole!!

The Trucking continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


im sorry to say it, if I may say it, and excuse me, but your fall gave me toons of support, I see that I'm not alone, I was NOT clean for almost 30 years, then I became 7 weeks clean, which was a millstone for me, like your 664 days, and then have a fall, and continue trucking, it means a lot to me.
Thanks for listening
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My threads: my long נסיעה of almost 30 years ~ My Book of Business ~ My Upcoming Dilemma

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כי עיקר מציאות האדם בעה"ז הוא רק לקיים מצות ולעמד בניסיון,  והנאות העולם אין ראוי שיהו לו אלא לעזר ולסיוע בלבד לשיהיה לו נחת רוח ויישוב הדעת למען יוכל לפנות לבו אל העבודה הזאת מסילת ישרים
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