i agree to Hhm,you have to have a positive self image about yourself in these matters,im reminded about a Chasidishe Rebbe who was about to Daven and the yetzer hara whispered in his ear ."oh ,look whos Davening like a big tzadik, dont you remember what you did earlier,and you know that youll probably do it again later!"Answered the Rebbe,"i know what i may have done earlier,and what i may do later , but yetzer hara!leave me alone!! now im Davening!!
the mishna says (not exact quote ,i think )"Al tirsha harbe"dont be a big rasha!so they ask, a BIG rasha not, but a small rasha yes?!and they answer,dont make yourself into a bigger rasha than you are,meaning,ok a person falls into cheit,not good,but that should not weaken his Davening,Learning Torah, Mitzvos,Simchas Hachaim,hes still a Yid, hes still a member of the  Am Hanivchar!
when the Vilna Goan ztl was in prison on false charges, he saw one of the guards who was a Yid who converted about to take a drink, so The Goan said,"make a Beracha." answered the Yid ,"Ha! i desecrate the whole Torah, and your telling me to make a Beracha?:snort:!" Said the Goan, "whoa! Chazal say about a certain rasha that he is going to have to give an accounting in Heaven for a small sin, YOU are going to have to give an accounting o n   t h e   e n t i r e    T o r a h!!(the yid broke down and did teshuva)
the point that im trying to make to you(and myself)is the above not matter what was done the yetzer has NO RIGHT to tell us ,your a loser , youve done it so many times.
the question is , is this what you were asking...

just a little humor , sorry.

now that was a good pun/metaphor! 
its funny that my most real friends who want you to succeed, are the ones ill never know... 

sleepy wrote on 12 Sep 2019 14:11:

or maybe not everyone is paranoid like i am...

jack123 wrote on 12 Sep 2019 18:20:

its good to know that youre Jack and Chill