Day #15

B"H I passed Day #14, and Today is Day #15, Porn-clean Day #74

Yes, I’m still clean, Today is number #15, and I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem for helping me to get at this stage, I had yesterday a very very tough day, but I managed, it was hot and humid, the streets were full, I had tons of questions, why it has to be that tough, but I overcome it. BH

on top of my issues, I was yesterday at a Hacnuses Sefer Torah, and there were lots of dressed up women, it was murder not to look, glimpse on them, but I managed not to look, not even once, and not even for a second, the following tools were used: 1) I will really be embarrassed to tell my partner that I cheat, and also, I didn’t want to hurt him, 2) what will I write the other day on GYE? That I had a fall? Id dint want to be in that place, 3) I didn’t want to mess up my days, 4) I remember how I felt when I fall 2 weeks ago, it was horrible, 4) I was thinking that today has to finish clean, no matter what, ill look tomorrow on another woman, there is lots of them on the street.

No, im not keeping the credit for me, im not that Gibor, and not that Tzadik, it has nothing to do with me, I for myself, without your help, I would still be in the mud, its only because of you, we can do it only together, only because we work together,

So, Hashem, thank you, for helping me to survive, thanks to my best partner, and thank you all of you on GYE, im clean only because of you, it has nothing to do with me… I’m powerless, I wouldn’t be clean today without your help, im very happy that im part of this chevrah, without you, I wouldn’t be where im today

Today is Day #15, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Lets Stay Strong! Lets Stay Clean! Yes! We can! And Together!

Ask Not Whether, But How!

YY Jacobson Author and International Speaker

Kill the messenger?

Why were the spies condemned for reporting the facts?

Link to this great article at: http://bit.ly/2siPqYR

"The difficult we do immediately; the impossible takes a little longer". -- General Montgomery

The Hole in the Roof

A rabbi stands before his congregation and reports to them that a massive hole has been found in the roof of the synagogue

"Now I have good news and bad news for you," the Rabbi continues. "The good news is that we have the money to repair it; the bad news is that the money is in your pockets."

If We Win?

The story is told that the Israeli parliament, or Knesset, recently convened an emergency session to figure out a solution for the devastated Israeli economy.

One brilliant minister said, "Let's declare war on the U.S., and then, in the wake of the utter destruction America will bring upon us, we will receive billions of dollars for reconstruction, like Germany and Japan

"Sounds great," responded another member of the Knesset. "One problem: What will we do if we win the war?"

Twelve Jews on a Mission

This week's portion, Shlach, tells the story of 12 men who were dispatched by Moses from the desert to go and survey the Land of Israel and its inhabitants. The purpose of their journey was to prepare the Jewish people for the subsequent conquest and settlement of the Land

Upon discharging the spies on their mission, Moses presented them with a list of questions they needed to answer. "See the Land," Moses said to them. "How is it? And the nations that dwell in it—are they strong or weak? Are they few or numerous? And how is the land in which they dwell—is it good or bad? And how are the cities in which they dwell—are they open or are they fortified?"

When the 12 spies returned from their 40-day tour of Israel they presented to the people a report of their findings

"We arrived at the Land to which you sent us," the spies said, "and indeed it flows with milk and honey and this is its fruit. But the people that dwells in the land is powerful, the cities are greatly fortified and we also saw the offspring of the giant

"We cannot ascend to that people for it is too strong for us," the spies proclaimed

The report that the spies brought back demoralized the Jewish nation and drained it from the motivation to enter the Land. As a result, the spies were severely punished and the entire generation ultimately died in the desert, never making it into the Land. Only 39 years later, in the year 1276 B.C.E., did the children and grandchildren of this generation cross the borders of Israel and settle the Promised Land

Kill the Messenger?

One of the many questions raised by biblical commentators concerns the reason for the spies receiving punishment. Moses gave them a detailed list of questions about the Land; he instructed them to make their own observations as to what will await the people upon their arrival

This is exactly what the spies did. They came back with an answer to all of Moses' questions and reported what they perceived to be the reality of the situation. If Moses expected them to cover up their observations -- that the Land was inhabited by mighty men and its cities were greatly fortified -- he should have never sent them in the first place!

Why were the men faulted for relating what they had seen?

Introducing Paralysis

The answer is that if the spies had merely related to the people the reality of the situation as they saw it, everything would have been fine. But they did more than that. They used the difficulties they observed as an incentive to introduce the option of surrender and capitulation in the face of crisis

Had the spies returned and said, "Hey guys, we have seen a mighty people and well-protected cities in the Land, so now we need to devise an effective strategy of how to go about our challenging mission," they would have fulfilled their task splendidly. The moment they responded to the obstacles by saying "We cannot do it anymore," they swayed an entire people to abandon their G-d-given destiny

The spies are condemned in Jewish tradition for substituting the "how will we do it" with the "can we do it?"

Conquering Your Darkness

Each of us has a domain in our life that needs to be conquered, a terrain that needs to be transformed into a "holy land." Some of us need to battle fear, temptation, addiction, or shame. Since the challenges that lay in recovery's path are at times frightening, we are naturally tempted to believe that we are incapable of overcoming our darkness and we thus surrender to our demons

Though this feeling is understandable, it is a sad mistake that must be fought tenaciously, for it robs us of the opportunity to liberate our souls and arrive at our personal "Promised Land."

The option of resignation compels us to remain stuck for the rest of our lives in a barren desert made up of shame, insecurity and weakness

The question ought never to be, "Can I do it?" The resources to repair the hole in our personal roof are always present. Every problem can be dealt with. The only legitimate question is, "How do I do it?"

Day #16

B"H I passed Day #15, and Today is Day #16, Porn-cleanDay #75

Yes, I’m still clean, Today is number #16, and I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem for helping me to get at this stage, I had yesterday a great and clean day.

Hashem, thank you, for helping me to survive, thanks to my best partner, and thank you all of you on GYE, im clean only because of you, it has nothing to do with me… I’m powerless, I wouldn’t be clean today without your help, im very happy that im part of this chevrah, without you, I wouldn’t be where im today

Today is Day #16, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Lets Stay Strong! Lets Stay Clean! Yes! We can! And Together!

Day #18

B"H I passed Day #17, and Today is Day #18, “Chai” Porn-clean Day #77

Yes, I’m still clean, Today is number #18, “Chai” yes, this is my new life, one time chai, and hope to reach many more chai’s, I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem for helping me to get at this stage, I had yesterday a great and clean day. Yes, I did have a very tough moment yesterday, I wanted to let go a little bit, but I survived it, how? The answer is: my best partner…. I sent him a text, and he was right there for me…. Thank You!!

Hashem, thank you, for helping me to survive, thanks to my best partner, and thank you all of you on GYE, im clean only because of you, it has nothing to do with me… I’m powerless, I wouldn’t be clean today without your help, im very happy that im part of this chevrah, without you, I wouldn’t be where im today.

B”H my family is getting better, should we all use the hospital only for simchas.

Today is Day #18, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Lets Stay Strong! Lets Stay Clean! Yes! We can! And Together!