GrowStrong wrote on 12 Jun 2017 22:08:

Animals in terms:
1) they ware the same clothes like animals = undressed
2) אתם קרוין אדם ואין אומות העולם קרוין אדם = Animals

Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 12 Jun 2017 22:14:

Were they animals back when you used to lust over them?

And then we quote Dov that we should pray for those animals.

Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 12 Jun 2017 22:14:

So then you're cured!!!
Theres no halachic issue with looking at animals.
#KosherSubwaytogo

See the last post on this thread please

Markz wrote on 13 Jun 2017 00:37:

Yooo! Markz is for the books!! 

To clarify. There definitely are wonderful people, be they yidden or not who travel the subway. Unfortunately there are many others, who probably through no direct fault of their own, and due to the decadent culture of liberalism and Western/Yavan thinking, act in extremely "lowest of the low" hanhaga. Yes we should pray for them and for our society at large. I assume Shivisi had the same idea in mind.    Although we train ourselves not to speak or write lashon hora, for the sake of distancing ourselves from inappropriate groups and their ways of thinking, it is sometimes necessary to use strong vocabulary. Shivisi was probably not referring to a specific person as an animal, but following in the footsteps of Chazal, he used that derogatory term as a description of a society.

Hashem Help Me wrote on 13 Jun 2017 11:27:

I agree 100%, thank you for clarifying. 

Shivisi!!! You've got a nice rhythm there; One day at a time.

The NYC subway is notorious for the shmiras eynayim travel. Consider it pro-shmira-ing zone. (expert level). It can be nearly impossible to not see anything. As a frequent rider of said system I try these things which may be helpful to you or others in the future.

1) bring your ipod and listen to music, a shiur, or an interesting lecture (tip - bring appropriate sound canceling headphones so that you don't hurt your ears from the high volume and that you can actually hear the sound over the noise of the train.)

2) make up not to look at the advertisements. (which in my unfortunate experience are about 50% clean, 50% not) Watch out for the "I'm just checking to make sure if the advertisements are clean" trick. (similarly, this comes up in the form of the "I'm just checking to make sure she is dressed properly. If she is not I'll look away" trick )

3) bring a sefer, do math problems in your head (use a calculator to check. stuff like 12*37, 5*84), also reviewing things memorized helps too. In fact the math and the memorization thing work the BEST for me out of all the above since it completely occupies every ounce of my concentration)

Just some tips and tricks I've learned that help me get through the way of sub.



Hatzlacha and Keep the Trucking UP!!!!!!!!! 

Day #9

B"H I passed Day #8, and Today is Day #9.
I’m very thankful that Today is called number #9, wow, I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem because he is always on my side, he loves me, even I don’t see it, but I believe it, and every Nisoyion, is just another test, he wants to test me how far I will go out of my way for him, and even I might fall, which I hope not, I’m still his child, and he still loves me, and im not a fool or a loser, so, I won’t fool myself, I’m a full fledge addict, and I am powerless on my addiction, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

I had a very clean and successful day yesterday, and I’m very very proud of that, I did have a strong urge of Lust last night when I went to bed, and I begged Hashem he should watch me, he shouldn’t leave me for a second, and he did, I fell asleep Beshulem. Thank You Hashem..

Thank You all GYE Chaveirim, and thanks to my Partner, for my new life… Thank You

Today is Day #9, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Stay Strong! Stay Clean! Yes! We can! Together!

TzedekChaim wrote on 13 Jun 2017 15:50:

Thank you TzadikChaim, great tips..
I neveruse the subway, this time was an exception, I hope not to use it anymore, its too tough:punch:

Day #10

B"H I passed Day #9, and Today is Day #10.
I’m very thankful that Today is called number #10, I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem because he is always on my side, he loves me, even I don’t see it, but I believe it, and every Nisoyion, is just another test, he wants to test me how far I will go out of my way for him, and even I might fall, which I hope not, I’m still his child, and he still loves me, and im not a fool or a loser, so, I won’t fool myself, I’m a full fledge addict, and I am powerless on my addiction, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

I had a very clean and successful day yesterday, and I’m very very proud of that, Thank You Hashem, for all the goods you are giving me, I’m really thankful, especially with my lusting problem, I beg you hashem, please don’t let me fall,

Thank You all GYE Chaveirim, and thanks to my Partner, for my new life… Thank You

I sew a great vort

in Ohr Hachaim on the Pussik ועבדי כלב עקב היתה רוח אחרת עמו וימלא אחרי והביאתיו אל הארץ אשר בא שמה וזרעו יורשנה why did hashem only mentiond Kulaiv and not Yehoshua, he was together with the same mindset like kulaiv? And what does it means היתה רוח אחרת עמו the pussik should have say ועבדי כלב מלא אחרי that’s it? So the Ohr Hachaim says that Yehoshua had someone who had him in mind, Moshe Rabeinu had him in mind and he prayed for him so he wasn’t in such a צרה but Kuleiv had a big problem, and he had an internal fight, the YH asked him to go with the Mraglim and the YT asked him to go with Yehoshua, so that’s what the pusik says: עקב היתה רוח אחרת עמו BECAUSE he had a huge fight with the YH and he won that fight, because of that he got rewarded that he will live another 40 years, והביאתיו אל הארץ was after 40 years in midbar, so, we all have a similar רוח אחרת עמו should we listen to the YH or to the YT, I think we will be better off listening to the YT!!!

Today is Day #10, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Stay Strong! Stay Clean! Yes! We can! Together!

Day #11

B"H I passed Day #10, and Today is Day #11.
I’m very thankful that Today is called number #11, I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem because he is always on my side, he loves me, even I don’t see it, but I believe it, and every Nisoyion, is just another test, he wants to test me how far I will go out of my way for him, and even I might fall, which I hope not, I’m still his child, and he still loves me, and im not a fool or a loser, so, I won’t fool myself, I’m a full fledge addict, and I am powerless on my addiction, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

I had a clean and successful day yesterday, I was passing Manhattan on Canal Street today, ou, it was hard not to look around, but I passed clean, I’m actually clean of porn 70 days, I’m so excited and delightful about it, I never thought I’ll be able to detach myself from it, BH and thank you Hashem. and I’m very very proud of that, Thank You Hashem, for all the goods you are giving me, I’m really thankful, especially with my lusting problem, I beg you hashem, please don’t let me fall,

Thank You all GYE Chaveirim, and thanks to my Partner, for my new life… Thank You

Today is Day #11, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Stay Strong! Stay Clean! Yes! We can! Together!

Day #12

B"H I passed Day #11, and Today is Day #12, & Porn-clean Day #71

What an exciting day, it’s Todaynumber #12, I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem because he is always on my side, he loves me, even I don’t see it, but I believe it, and every Nisoyion, is just another test, he wants to test me how far I will go out of my way for him, and even I might fall, which I hope not, I’m still his child, and he still loves me, and im not a fool or a loser, so, I won’t fool myself, I’m a full fledge addict, and I am powerless on my addiction, and I need to be constantly fully aware of that. I’m still on top of the hill, one slip and booms.

I had a clean and successful day yesterday, and we are at the weekend again, today is Friday, im scared from it, I beg you hashem, please don’t let me fall, especially with my lusting problem, BH and thank you Hashem for helping me until here, Thank You Hashem, for all the goods you are giving me, I’m really thankful,

Thank You all GYE Chaveirim, and thanks to my Partner, for my new life… Thank You

Today is Day #12, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.

Stay Strong! Stay Clean! Yes! We can! Together!

Day #14 - 2 Weeks

B"H I passed Day #12 & 13 which was Friday and Shabbes, and Today is Day #14, & Porn-clean Day #73

It is an exciting day, it’s Today number #14, happy 2 clean weeks, and I’m very grateful and thankful to Hashem for helping me to get at this stage, but why, why does it has to be so tough, its soo dificult, why do i have to struggle, the last few days was so so so tough, why, and why, im starting to realize that to be clean is not everything, its more the "foreplay" then the afterplay, its so difficult lately, i dont know why, i tought it will get easier, i had such a hard time the last few days, the weekend is so tough, i bh didnt fall, but i dont understand what hashem want from me, does he really want i should fall? And why am i getting so lusty? I didnt look on anything bad for the last 73 days, not even once, even i had the opportunity many many times, so what is going on with me? why? Why? And again why? Anyone with a good answer?

Its soooooooo hard, what am i doing wrong? Im soooo afraid about my self, i know im doing well, but but but..... i cand figure that out.... during the day im great, but at night and morning, its so so so tough.,

After all, i had a clean weekend, thank you Hashem for helping me until here, Thank You Hashem, for all the goods you are giving me, I’m really thankful,

Thank You all GYE Chaveirim, and thanks to my Partner, for my new life… Thank You

Today is Day #14 - 2 Weeks, and Today only, I really want to stay clean, and I will stay clean for the rest of my life, I realized that I’m Powerless, I can’t help myself by myself, I need upper power, assistance and guidance, the Today is not long at all, it’s a matter of just a few hours, I won’t mess up the few moments left in Today,  and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down, I want to stay clean, and help me, my partner, all GYE members and all Klal Yisroel stay clean.
Lets Stay Strong! Lets Stay Clean! Yes! We can! And Together!

You ask
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