I was not sarcastic. I got 5 emails.

Shlomo24 wrote on 07 Mar 2017 02:16:

B"H!

Mi k'amcha Yisroel!

Anyone wish to nitpick my chizuk email?

Anywho

So on Sunday I did a 19.3km route! And about 18.6km of that was continuous running! I love going far, to places you think you can only go by car. And in the early hours of the morning as the sun rose. 

Now I've never run this far before. And I realised something.

The deeper you get into something, the trickier you need to get.

So short runs, sure. No need to eat or drink in between. Maybe have a tiny boost before, but usually you're good to go. Longer runs, however, require more tact. On several points.

I gotta learn how to eat / drink in between. And I read that means I need to walk in between because gulping and running is dangerous. And I need to learn how life is not just one big run. There are times to slow down. It's a big step for me.

I ate healthily for 4 weeks, BH. So we got mad amounts of sushi. But I couldn't finish it all. I said, "Well, I'll leave some over for lunch tomorrow." My wife was shocked. She was like, "You actually realise that you don't have to finish it all now?"

Maybe I did.

Maybe not everything needs to be fixed at the same time. That's a lustful behaviour. If it don't get fixed, I'ma get my fix!

I think the lust is a lot looser on me. That's profound. 

That's some serious running!

I think (for what it's worth) that you're spot on about perfection feeding addictions. If a person is content he wouldn't look for something to alter his mind-state. He feels good as is.

Sometimes we say we're going to do something positive like volunteering or learn something extra to change our mind-state, sometimes it will be a fix. 

Nothing can tempt a man who's content. 

(These ideas are discussed in the book I wrote about on my thread) 

That is some really nice running - awesome! As for not needing to fix everything at once...that exactly the point of "one day at a time," isn't it? We're not aiming for always perfect, forever - we're aiming for living in the solution, for improvement. 

Thanks all, for your love.

Slowly digesting the ODAAT. It does make things a lot calmer. Just gotta sit in the problem sometimes.

Parnossa troubles big time. And I asked for a raise and was rejected, but on the grounds of "We don't really know if you're valuable; we're determining it, so we can't possible also give you a raise".

Very dejecting, for sure. Yes, the other department I was in (check the history of my thread) I really disliked, but does that mean my name is blackened forever? Hell, If I were to leave, the whole system will crash. And if that were to happen c"v then I'll tell em straight, I'm leaving for good, 100%, I'm not fixing up your system unless you hire me as a freelancer and pay me the hundreds of dollars an hour you'd have to get an expert technician to come and fix the system. 

Not sure if the work is now taking advantage of me.

Though I am grateful for the current parnossah. But with seemingly no growth prospects in this company and debt of around $5000, another kid coming and no end to expenses, I am at a total loss.

Cannot see the next step

I surrender it, whatever it is. Hashem. Take me to where you want me to be.

I read through my thread. I see the posts are getting progressively more depressing.

But I want to think I'm a happy guy.

BH all is going well. 

Though boy do I want to act out! GRR!!....

BH Haven't raped anyone in a long time

Women are unnerving me. I flipped through a magazine yesterday, about food and recipes, 'cause I thought maybe there'd be some woman. There was. I put it down. Ugh.

Getting caught up in my head. Played a good game of squash yesterday.

My truck's on an icy patch for sure!!!!

SINGULARITY STOOOOORMMM!!!

Singularity wrote on 30 Mar 2017 10:06:

Eat the squash and play with your woman.

Singularity wrote on 30 Mar 2017 10:11:

You are 118 days to late

Just finished reading you whole thread, great story. Keep up the great work, and keep on singin' (you see I picked up something).

BTW who started the whole trucking business, is it markz?

Hakolhevel wrote on 03 Apr 2017 00:38:

Singin'.....?

What's with the other words?

Hakolhevel wrote on 03 Apr 2017 00:38:

I was in diapers trading toy trucks when it was instituted by the REBBE from Bardsville

guardyoureyes.com/forum/advsearch?q=Keep+on+trucking&searchdate=all&order=inc&limit=20

KEEP ON TRUCKKING

Singin'.....? What's with the other words?

Being as there are are so many Pirushim to his name, I left it kinda open over there (singed, singular, singing and of course singularity)


And I thought you cords and Dov where the oldest people on this forum

Once again posting images on this thread

KOBT (keep on baby trucking?)