Thats great to hear.. let us know how yur doin!

I was out of town, just got back today...
B"H still clean, i will post about it as soon as I get a chance

Ok time for an update:
I was out of town recently so I didn't really have any time privately for myself which was good.
I'm Back home this week and obviously very busy, 
I try to stay away from those situations where I'm by myself and it could lead to a fall.

Back in America there are so many more triggers for myself then in Israel!!!!
Im constantly telling myself not to lust and just not think about it...

Trying my best to pull through to 90 and almost there B"H!

Sasha 2 wrote on 18 Apr 2016 23:03:

It's so funny how people have different experiences. Israel was sooooo triggering for me, both men and women.

The "trigger" is here, The "trigger" is there, Hashem is truly everywhere.
Up, up, down, down, right, left and all around, here, there and everywhere, that’s where he can be found. 

 

Ye, true!
Its really good that the last few days until 90 I'm crazy busy & not the other way around B"H!  

Watch our for post 90 depression. 

It's very common for people to fall right after 90. 

Once you feel like you got to your goal, you lose the excitement of being clean. It's a transition from counting days excitedly to enjoying life with the knowledge of being clean humming in the background.

inastruggle wrote on 20 Apr 2016 19:17:

I have heard about that...

But the truth is that I am B"H enjoying life everyday being clean:

• I am not angry & short tempered at people for no good reason.
• I'm not ignoring responsibilities bec I have to act out.
• I can be myself and not fool the world

Plus many more...

That is what I am looking forward to!

Rooting for you...

realsimcha wrote:

We are all







Rootbeering




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That's great to hear. It really seems that you have the right attitude.

One other thing to look out for is when you start taking the benefits that you mentioned for granted. After a while of being clean you stop remembering how much better life is without acting out and it may tempt you again.
As you know though, it does get easier.

I'm rooting for you as well 

GO SASHA! 

markz wrote on 22 Apr 2016 02:19:

I do not endorse...... raceist jokes, rootbeer, or the ford focus.

Sasha, great to hear.
Inna makes a good point above about that we sometimes forget the 'good feeling' that we get from being clean.
Continued hatzlacha.
Sg.

doingtshuva wrote on 19 Apr 2016 10:30:

Some get triggered by the pesach hose around the faucet.

Thanks everyone!!
Its all your support which got me here!!

Chag Kosher Vesmeach! 

inastruggle wrote:

So true, so for me the count goes on. Day 131. After 90 days the fall has been stopped a day at a time. While my record here does not really come close to the effort our Maker has put in to me to help me overcome, from 1972. The next 8 years my efforts being at two health centers that had a lifestyle that encouraged an obedient lifestyle to Torah, then as a Seventh day Adventist. The days of failure were few and far between, yet still very trying to my heart. Then moving to help small groups, still there was many days of victory, yet when I let my guard down, the fall could come fast, and often for short burst. Now that I can accept that every effort to do right and be right is apart of my success, it is better now to daily aim at a lifestyle of continual righteous behavior.  Today, there are days triggers could be many, some days I am as a lion nothing can hold me back. Other days I am a mini craft, a small sail boat in a raging storm at sea.
It has been a blessing of 10 hour days for several weeks, thus I was able to pay my $90 dollar vow to GYE.
Now work has slowed down, and the appointed times give me a few quality day pays with family, what a joy the blessing of the close fellowship of my personal family. It has been 13 years of a growing life of family, a strong  motivation to winning control of mind and heart.  My queen desires specially honesty, and she is often granted to sees often the motives of my heart. This is a blessing for from youth I hid myself from myself, and sometimes did not want any to know me, for In my youth, I was rejected  for being me, or more often lost all I had gained usually on a yearly  bases. This Passover time is healing, though the loneliness of group interaction is still very stressful. My life convictions have moved closer to the Jewish people. Yet often I must be a Joseph among the Egyptian. Yet as I build my knowledge, and my faithfulness to the earth, and to my Maker, I wait for the day when I will not be taken for granted. Often others of the family of Adam take advantage of my kindness, my position of status, my situation, my morals.  When all else fails me, besides my personal family, HaShem, One alone is my fortress, refuge, defense, my keeper, my friend, my hope, my my father, and grandfather, and great grand Father, for now Israel is only a nation that is human like me, for centuries they have had children who arose from their falls to seek our Maker again and again.  Not one Jew, or firstborn died at Passover, Egypt, all lamb gods were sacrificed before Israel took the journey in the wilderness.  For mankind the sacrifice of children comes as with Egypt, when we choose to let our cravings to be our gods, then a Eden of abundance, is wasted, and our children shall be a sacrifice. This sacrifice my small four member family, is in the Passover experience, and though I could not be at a synagogue, my wife and I hug each other, and had discussed the things of Torah that answered our personal need. My boys took their toys and acted the story of Passover, as I read it. We also played simple get a  ball from daddy in the from yard. We lit the Shabbat candle the best we could. We listen to Torah in English via internet, a Torah approved by Jews who seek to rebuild the temple the third time. We know that we seek to go the right path, and we are glad that the King of heaven and earth is with us this Pesach.