I feel that it would help to share my basic story & hear what everyone has to say.

My story: when i was abt sixteen i once masturbated (More or less by
mistake) im not sure but i think it was just that good feeling that
pushed me to do it more and more and more! At one point in yeshiva
there was someone who always spoke unclean and caused me to check out
some sites (Porn etc...) when i got internet, and that got me hooked,
there was nothing to do to stop it! (Even 6 years l8r!!!!) i just felt
this need to masturbate with the porn, at one point in yeshiva without
internet access i tried phone sex in place of the porn! All this
warped my mind and i used to see people and think, wow they have a
nice ____ etc. It drove me insane that i cant see
normal things even like people around me, and cant think straight anymore!!

What does everyone think, is this just the enjoyment that caused this (like i think) or some underlying factor that i dont realize?

I really resonated with your story as it reflects my own. It can be an addiction where with time if left untreated will only get worse. From what I've learned from a JONAH weekend and my therapist is that our acting out and lusting is an effect. The cause is the underlying emotions and thought patterns we have of shame, loneliness, anger, sadness, etc. By working on the cause, we can change the effect.

What happens when you try stoppin'?

Welcome Sasha 2!

Keep on posting!!!

Welcome to GYE! Keep posting, learning and using the tools here!

Hatzlacha!

Is it enough to run the program; the 90 days, read the book etc. or do i need more?

You need to see what works for you.

There are no general rules rather a support group.

Welcome and thank you for posting. Pls know that Your feelings and your emotions are very normal and are most prob related to lusting... Lusting has an effect on almost every facet of our being including our spiritual ,emotional and phycological health... The constant feeding of pleasure to our head coupled by the negative and helpless thoughts we experience when we fall can make us feel like someone we never met... Read the handbook, try completeting the 90 days and try out the other options on this site to see if they work for you... If you still have those feelings after trying these out it might not hurt to speak with someone who deals with such issues. Just know that you are not alone and that Imh with time and effort you will get back your former self . hatzlocha and please Keep posting:)

Take it one day at a time and keep growing.

I dont think i had such a hard time since
i started as yeaterday i could not stop lusting, im not
sure what caused it but i just felt this extreme need to act out, and
i actually started to masturbate and i thought abt the past two
weeks what i gained but it jst didnt help! I honestly dont know how i
got the strength to stop and read some of the gye handbook and shifted
my mind to other thoughts, i cant describe how hard it was for me, and
i just have to thank Hashem for the power that he gave me, but this
all serves as a reminder that this can happen any time, and im really
powerless!

Keep up the good work and the positive attitude!!!

Thanks for your honesty.

Im leaving to yeshiva its a little harder there, i just hope i can keep what i gained so far, and i hope i can keep growing!

Daven to Hashem every day to help you do that and to show you what His Will is for you.

Hatzlacha!!!

I cant believe what happened to me, i feel worse than terrible!!!!!!!!!!!!! i fell twice over shabbos!!!! This is after FIFTY DAYS CLEAN!!!!!! I feel like theres no hope!, Help me out please! Need CHIZUK!!!