ditto

cordnoy wrote:


Ahem....

Hi everyone,

Sorry for not checking in until now, it's been very busy. Not much of an excuse, but...

I'm in yeshiva most of the time and don't get a chance to go online very often. B"h, things are going well. I don't have time for a full update. I'll try to write more in about a week from now.

Now for the long overdue update.

My last fall was over this past pesach bein hazmanim. I didn't post about it since I wasn't really out of the fall until I was back in yeshiva, where I wasn't able to post. I've been fine since then, and b”h still going strong. It's been a lot easier to stay clean during this streak. I think it's mostly because I'm going into shidduchim sometime soon. I really don't want this to be an issue for me during marriage, so the least I can do is to come into it with a long streak of being clean.

I don't really have much to say about this particular round. I've gone through enough falls and clean streaks that the pattern is pretty familiar. There isn't a magic formula that will keep me clean forever, but I think I've passed the major danger parts of the pattern this time around. Now I need to move on, keep my eyes open for danger, and not get overconfident. The good news is, I'm not holding my breath, and I had plenty of opportunities to fall and didn't. My last few falls were after I had no access to unfiltered internet for a long time, then I fell very soon after getting access. So since I made it past that stage, I'm out of immediate danger.

It's nice to be back, I'll probably be checking in over the weekends.

Me neither.
Did the phone stop working as well?

So this is hard but it has to be done. 

To everyone I know who's still here, I apologize for not being in touch.
To everyone I don't know (I suspect the majority of people here now), I hope to get to know you.

I've been gone for a long time and it isn't for a good reason. For the most part, ever since I've been back in america, I've been on one continuous fall.  I had some clean times in between but the falls were all too common. I knew that I needed to come here, but it's really hard to come crawling back with the news of yet another fall.

I decided to sign up as a new user, and I even made an account, but when I was about to post I realized that if I don't come back as myself, aside from making lying to my friends, I'd be lying to myself.  I fell, and I need to take responsibility for it. I'm not going to keep acting as if everything is normal. 

I can't go into marriage the way I am now and time is running out. I am officially getting up from my fall. Today is day one, and is all that matters.

I'm looking forward to becoming an active member on the site again.

Welcome back!!!!

Welcome back Inna,

Sorry to hear, but good decision.
How long have you been back for?

Welcome back! We've missed you!

Inna, WELCOME!!

Are you engaged? I didn't get it

Welcome. I was also on the site years ago [not as extensively as you though], and about two months ago I returned. Its been a lifesaver. Looking forward to getting to know you.

inastruggle wrote on 13 Apr 2016 07:52:

If I would've known, I would've looked you up, so we could take a walk again down a street stacked with shops on both sides.

You have my phone number.
You have my email address.
You even got me to break my resolve about not coming on the forum.
Let's connect, please.

Bigmoish wrote:

Moish was that resolve a taphsic?
How much $?












just kiddin'

Nice to have you BOTH on the highway with us!!

Thaks everyone for the welcome. It's great to be back, a real load off my chest.

@cordnoy I've been back a while. Btw I might come to your neck of the woods after pesach. Maybe you can show me the stores there...

@markz More like in shidduchim Do you have someone for me? 

@bigmoish I kind of lost your number. It's in my Israel phone and I lost that. I sent you an email.