Seems like these days S.A.M is testing the waters just to get Markz reaction!

Hey all!! Day no way?!?! 15?!?! Oh yeah!!!!!  doing great great great! Even though I miss my love like hell! But pulling through!!!!!!!! Especially with this awesome place to hangout!! So! Today! Went to the tailor... went to YESHIVA!!! But late haha! More like second Seder lol! Anyway! The best part was thins morning didn’t have anyone banging on my door to wake up early cuz both parents left house EARLY! Woohoo!!!!!!!!! Lol! Anyway honestly they’re out to help me I just CANT GET OUTTA BED! ! Lol! Hmm  maybe someone should start going to bed EARLIER!!!! Lol! I’m a work in progress can’t forget that hahahahahahah!!! Okay calm down! Life is not that fun! No!!!! It is!!!! It’s how we make it! Sooooooo.... I’m making it FUNNNNNN tonight! Everyone on GYE come join me life is AWESOME! Lol! Anyway, so let’s continue with my day! I bought pizza for lunch! That’s exciting no?!? I mean you know! Like for yeshiva buchrim usually not but... cmon let’s make everything enjoyable and exciting for now... so it was exciting especially with the awesome garlic powder on top wow! What a slice! !!! So... just guys let me know if you were smiling while reading this post? Cuz I am!!!!! Or you find me so dull and your like just shut the hell up!!! ! Listen I heard this quote so for all the people in the world that don’t like me hear it goes  “it’s okay if you don’t like me... not everyone has good taste”!!!! Oh yeah!!! Booooyyaaaaaa!!! ! Okay calm downnnnnnn.... so!!! Markz this is for you brother! anyway, shmoozed with my rebbe and I liked his advice... I think I’m gonna get married soon haha lol! But I need 2 years! Anyway... listen guys! Today I was learning a Sugya and I’m gonna share a small piece of Torah with the oilem on tzdaka! So the Gemara gives the example of a shorn sheep and a non shorn sheep walking through a river... and it explains how it’s hard to get through to the end! But the shorn one ends up making it to the end and the one that wasn’t shorn yet drowns from the soggy wool attached to him ! Oy vey poor sheep! Lol! Anyway, the Gemara explains like this it gives the analyses to tzdaka! The people that keep everything to themselves are the ones that end up drowning at the end! But the ones that give like this sheep... will make it though the hard difficulties life brings!! I thought it was a nice thing to share! We must learn to all be giving! It will get us far in life! With my lumdeshe head I was thinking everybody lose weight you’ll make it farther in life too ! Haha anyway stop being weird and corny! Okkkkkk fine so your just gonna make fun of me like that?!?! Ok what’s going on with me right now?!? I’m confused so I don’t blame ya’ll that are... Lolol! Anyway the point of this post was to share with everyone that oh yeah! Day 15 and we are ROLLING! Hell of a lot of credit to meeeeee! And!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Of course to the אשת חיל girlfriend one day maybe without the word girlfriend and it won’t be a contradiction lol אשת and girlfriend but cmon she is!!!!! Shekeeps this break going! And!!!!! #2 this was to share how my day was! Without all the difficulties! Lol!! Heya!! Let’s look at the bright side ! And number 3 is!!!!!!!!! It distracted me from my raging desires!!!! Haha anyway everyone enjoy the rest of this precious night! Cuz every night that we have is precious lol! Ok stop being so spiritual nowwwwww... just send this post and goodbye lol! Ok goodbye haha!!! 

For the people that all the sudden lose their post after writing it at times... it happened to me on an iPhone or iPod you can swipe from left to right and it should come back... 

Oh wow you talked the whole thing about your gf over with your Rebbi. 
That must have been hard, but smart. 
Great move!

Markz wrote on 05 Jan 2021 04:23:

Nah didn’t really Lolol ! Markz that post was for you! 

Hey but why not.

Next time you take a long bath, or you even when you have a few minutes to steal, check this out - Look down at the end of my signature below.. There’s some good stuff in this story.
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Wow!! Ok!!!!! Let’s start !!!!!! Firstly!!!!! So much to say!!!! Ok here we go!!!! Day?!?!?!? 16!!!!! Wohhooooo!!!! Way to go! And... day number 1!!!! For my new 4 consecutive week of no contact with my friend at ALL! I realized that lately I’ve been starting to fall with texting my friend because of 1 mess it became 2 and 3 etc so we started over and now going for... a 4 week with zero contact let’s see how it goes!!! So today I spent time with a rebbe!!! In the park lol! Was nice! Was hard for me to focus at night but I’m a work in progress and will succeed!!! Anyway everyone have an amazing night!!!! Gn

Day 17?!?!? Way to go! Today was an extremely intense busy productive day lol! Went through such a complicated process somewhere today but made it through barely surviving but Bh!!! All went well!!!!! So day number 2?! Of this new streak? Oh yeah! Bh! And I’m making a new kabala bli neder if I don’t have lights out by 12:30am I gotta pay 10 dollars to צדקה! Hopefully this will help me function more the next day! Will try it for a week see how it goes bezH! Anyway bezH through this things will be much easier! To be honest today was an extremely hard day regarding taivah.. missed my friend like a retard today lol! Was going crazy haha! I closed my eyes and I saw her walking! I just miss her so much! But I’m sure things will get easier! Was thinking a lot today... let’s say she... just decided to settle with someone else for marriage?! I don’t know what I would do?!?! I guess I’m thinking now- cry FORVER:sob:! I’m telling myself hashem runs the world! It’s a good opportunity to work on emunah! Anyway I’m hoping with leaving my phone at home and having a bed time at night... I’ll start to really function the way I wish bezH! Have an amazing night everyone! 

Guys!! I just wrote a whole post and it got deleted! Oh well! Thank you hashem!!!!!!!! Chevra, I’m sad  I’m feeling lonely! Feeling like I miss my love!  I miss the deep conversations! I miss her cute laugh! I miss everything! I miss an understanding girl in my life! Who I can just cry to and complain and she’ll understand me so well! Life feels lonely I honestly feel like crying! It’s hard to get a taste of something so sweet so deep so real and break off:sob:! I will get rewarded bezH! If there’s one thing I can say to my love! It’s please don’t marry another guy! I need you so badly! There’s no one else like you in the entire world! Guys, I’m gonna do some computer work now... but I’m sad.. and I’m hoping things will get better soon! I’m sure it will! Just thinking ... why would she marry someone else? Why would I?!? Why can’t we just commit and say we love each other and we’re so the type?! And if things change then they’ll change! But why the hell would they?!?!?! The facts on the table don’t make sense to give up!!  I don’t know! I guess I’ll discuss it with her in less then 4 weeks lol! I just have some pain and I need to relieve it.. maybe I’ll cry a little now... that’s a good idea! And I’m gonna feel better very soon bezH! Have a great night everyone!

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Before we know it I’ll be posting about my wedding on GYE! Trying to hold strong! Before we know it I’ll be shopping for my new home with my love!!! Haha good things to think about ! Gnight guys!

I’m listening to this awesome song! Chasidish music rox! Booming in my ears! Honestly feel like jumping around in my room pretending I’m by a chasuna lol!!! Ok let’s go! Lol! 

Just to help you some money....Reminder you have 7 minutes until lights out:sleeping:

Lol yes yes! 

Alrighty Gn!