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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 09 Mar 2021 05:14 #365068

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lionking wrote on 09 Mar 2021 05:01:
Here's an idea. Have your Dad change the icloud password to your apple account and then report the phone lost and change the iphone password remotely.

Don't consider it a fall. It is a Yeridah Ltzorach Aliyah. It taught you a lesson. Keep up the good work. I'm extremely amazed by you.

Thanks for the eitza and the kind words.
Amazed? Not sure what’s so amazing, but thanks...
Yerida ltzorech aliya still means it was a yerida. Meaning, even if I use this to do better, this is still bad, just trying to keep clarity in my mind.

Thanks!

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 09 Mar 2021 05:26 #365069

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 09 Mar 2021 03:44:
I need help

Here’s the pshat: So my friend had put in a new restrictions code.
Later on, after fantasizing,wishing i could get “another chance,” and ignoring the eitza of my friend To “close my eyes and run to the bais,” I saw that for some reason the new code didn’t register and there was still the old code which I knew.
At which point I thought it would be a great time to do teshuva, but I squandered that, was nichshal more for almost an hour.

As I edged closer to Masterbating, and glued to my bed, with my last breath I pressed “call” on my dear friend Zedj.
He stayed on the phone with me until my roommate returned from Maariv at which point I got him to again put in a new code.

After he put in the new code I began walking away but then I thought to insure it registered and I saw it still didn’t!
So we figured out the problem, and Bh now all is good.

After tons of frozen yogurt (16$ worth!), a Fresca and a bag of chips, coupled with today’s shindig, I’m feeling pretty gross...

And now, at this moment, the tzadik Ish M’Grodno, without knowing what was going on, gave me a call!
Ah! A glimmer of hope.

But just a glimmer...

Edit: Made a deal with Ish M’Grodno to do zero internet browsing until The new zman (this includes the vital and exciting time of being home).
I am thankful to all of the very special tzadikim and true chaveirim here.

With now a ray of hope,

 YeshivaGuy 
Last Edit: 09 Mar 2021 05:49 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 11 Mar 2021 02:36 #365217

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I’m doing great, Baruch HaShem.
Trying to end the zman strong and get into the sugyos.
Hatzlocha and thanks for the continued support

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 11 Mar 2021 02:47 #365219

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 11 Mar 2021 02:36:
I’m doing great, Baruch HaShem.
Trying to end the zman strong and get into the sugyos.
Hatzlocha and thanks for the continued support

Truly Amazing!!!

Now a quick question. Do you have anything lined up for the time that this (Yeshiva) thread takes a month recess. Any guys you can hang out with? Or will it have to be gals...
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 11 Mar 2021 05:22 #365226

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Markz wrote on 11 Mar 2021 02:47:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 11 Mar 2021 02:36:
I’m doing great, Baruch HaShem.
Trying to end the zman strong and get into the sugyos.
Hatzlocha and thanks for the continued support

Truly Amazing!!!

Now a quick question. Do you have anything lined up for the time that this (Yeshiva) thread takes a month recess. Any guys you can hang out with? Or will it have to be gals...

A month recess?! While I’m home? Not happenin
The deal with IMG includes the ability for GYE.
As far as lmaaseh a chevra to hang with, so yaa, shver matzav

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Mar 2021 06:45 #365292

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Baruch HaShem things are going great. Not perfect, but pretty great.
I was zoche to meet HHM tonight. It was a tremendous chizuk and zechus to say the least.
I just got back from the Bais HaMedrash after solidifying and quantifying 4 questions I have on prior shiurim for my Rebbi.
I can’t wait to meet with him in his office to talk in learning and not only meet to discuss my problems.

Im still searching for a chavrusa for next zman. It’s been hard learning alone for first seder for the last 2.5 months...

Anyway, I’m feeling good and looking forward to a productive day tomorrow and an uplifting Shabbos, B’ezras HaShem.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 14 Mar 2021 17:03 #365363

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Uch! עבירה גוררת עבירה...
Kabola: I wil Not touch myself (for hanaa in the area) until Isru Chag, and once I am home I will not sleep in the same room as the IPhone.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 14 Mar 2021 19:17 #365370

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Ok time to dig some more. Wasted the day so far with the yetzer (in other words I almost masterbated) going against the grain and gonna push to go to the bais.
Its become clear that under no circumstances can I bring this iPhone back next zman. And it most certainly won’t be in the room I sleep in at home
Last Edit: 14 Mar 2021 19:19 by YeshivaGuy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 14 Mar 2021 19:23 #365371

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I’m moving on. I put myself in a stupid and untenable situation by bringing this iPhone back. But all I can do is commit to not repeat the mistake.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 15 Mar 2021 04:28 #365400

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Rough. Very rough day. That’s all I’ll say.
Thanks @OivedElokim...

Ok guys, Gn. Hopefully a better day tomorrow.
Hopefully...

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 15 Mar 2021 19:23 #365428

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No strength to write here now, plus I think I’ve been writing too much lately, prob annoying the chevra...

Have a good day

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 15 Mar 2021 20:30 #365431

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I’m not annoyed by your posts.
Whoever is has the option of not reading it, no?
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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 17 Mar 2021 02:30 #365576

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Chavrusa situation for next zman isn’t looking good at all for both sedarim.
Oy. Just relinquishing myself to HaShem. Going to sleep. 

Saw a girl my age eating pizza at a table in pizza shop.
She looked up when I walked by.
Usualy I’d be thinking in my mind “OMG she wants sex! I should go flirt with her and get her number!”
But today I was like “that’s a person eating pizza.”

Anyway, almost done the zman here, not on the greatest of highs but that’s the situation...

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 17 Mar 2021 04:53 #365583

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Yup indeed - a person eating pizza.
​The profundity of your posts blow me away.
Every time.

Long live King YG!
; )

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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 18 Mar 2021 04:05 #365637

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Ok folks, Bein Hazmanim starts tomorrow.
As far as plans, we got the no internet browsing deal/commitment.
We got the no sleeping in room with my iPhone thing.
Now, to be honest, that’s gonna be hard lmaaseh..........

Then there’s the learning/davening thing.
So there’s no Bais HaMedrash by me, so I could commit to driving 25 min every day to a a BM, but that’s hard commitment idk...
I could wake up, work out, daven neitz, then learn in my room.
I can stam bumb out and go to minyan once in awhile, idk.

I just don’t wanna be in the situation where I’m lying in bed all day posting on GYE whining about not going on the internet/Masterbating.

I want to chazer 30 blast Gemara rashi tosfos in Yevamos. I want to learn some more maamarim in Pachad Yitzchak for Pesach. And I want to prepare shiur for the summer where I’ll be giving shiur every morning.
Those are my goals.

Unsure about my chavrusa matzav for next zman, but that’s not my concern right now. 
My objective at this point is to survive and thrive under the upcoming weeks.

Looking forward to continuing this journey together. I’m aware that things won’t be perfect, as they never are.

I ask HaShem Yisborach to grant me the Emuna, Bitachon, and the resolve, to emerge from this upcoming tekufa as a true בן חורין בלב ובנפש.

YeshivaGuy
Last Edit: 18 Mar 2021 04:07 by YeshivaGuy.
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