I've been looking at GYE for a while and decided its time to join and see if i can also get there with a calm and relaxed feeling.
My story in short:
I have had a problem with watching Videos and MZL for about 25 years. I used to be MZL minimum once a day to relief me of stress and therefor being able to fall asleep, i used to watch videos when i was and was in desparate need of some good company - or so it thought then. This was all good, albeit feeling down after doing it, until my wife checked my phone, at first i denied everything but then she saw it again and i decided NO Choice you just have to own up. this happened about 11/2 years ago. Since then the Sholoim Bayis was rocky at times and at other times it was stormy - hurricane like. For the past half year or so things are B.H. calming down and she is now accepting of who i am today. The problem is i have my falls every now and then and i am MZL. I know its an aveire but this did not stop me for many years why should it stop me now. In Yeshiva the Mashgiach even once saw what i was doing but he just pulled out a Shulchan Aruch and that was the end of him talking to me.
I hope by joining GYE i will be able to free myself totally from this. 

Welcome GT,

You are not alone, there is a group of guys here going through very similar issues for many different reasons. I myself took 30 + years before I found GYE and started recovery.

You can breathe easy, you will find most of the answers you need, right here on the site.

Find some free moments to read through the GYE handbook if you have not yet already done so. Take some extra time to go through the 30 Principles of GYE

Of the many tools you will find here on this site, bringing the problem out into the open, out of isolation and sharing it with others in a similar boat is a great first step.

Read up on the various ways that many here have managed to stay clean for amazingly long periods of time by participating with us in the forum.

If you are dedicated to stopping, know that it is possible.

Most importantly.

Keep on Trucking.

Welome nice share

Let us know how we can help

Recovery should be with Hatzlacha

Welcome!
 Hatzlacha & stay connected to GYE! Keep on coming back and reading/posting, so many people have been helped tremendously here.

Welcome!!

Gye is the place to be when you used it right. So hang around and make yourself comfortable.

Hatzlachah!!!

Thanks for joining and posting!

 to the mashgiach in my opinion.

may hashem guide you down the path to success and happiness!

Welcome. We are here to help. Many have successfully broken free of these stress relieving/self soothing acts through the various options available on this site. Iyh you will too. Hatzlocha.

Welcome. Wise decision. 

WOW, I really did not expect this. Such a welcome and apparently i am not the only person with this issue.
Looking forward to getting this done together.

getthere wrote on 27 Apr 2017 09:20:

You were masturbating in the beis medrash??



Welcome! Much hatzlocha in your new journey!

getthere wrote on 28 Apr 2017 07:20:

Joining was a giant first step. 
Stay tuned. Keep posting. Reading and inquiring. Recovery is truly within reach if the desire is there. 

getthere wrote on 28 Apr 2017 07:20:

Oh yeah!

KOME ON TRUCKING!!!

Brich Haba, welcom to hashems Chabura, its the best place to be, you did the right choice, we will support you all the way.

Welcome,

RecoveryI should be with hatzlachah.

This indeed is a great group of fellows.

Another brave man. Welcome to the family. You will GetThere!