I have great news... I jammed my thumb playing basketball! Erm, that wasn't the good news. Oh right, I am 7 months old today! Well, actually 7 months sober, but same difference .

Mazal tov,  kein yirbu

Mazel Tov
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Sorry to hear about your thumb
Call me if you need a Tow, cause you can't hitchhike nowadays

I had a very different purim this year: I drank too much too quickly on purim night. I basically called hatzalah on myself and was throwing up consistently for over an hour. I was also stuttering and felt pressure in my head, which is apparently a bad thing for drunk people. It was the most uncomfortable experience in my life. B"H I was ok, I was completely coherent during the whole ordeal, I didn't black out or anything. I did wake up with a killer hangover so the hospital kept me there till late morning. My friend stayed throughout the night until like 8:30, which was incredibly nice of him and I definitely will get something nice for him. Regardless, I wasn't going to drink the next day. My sponsor totally thinks I am an alcoholic, although he is biased, he's an alcoholic himself.

So I basically laid in bed the next day until my seudah. When I arrived at my seudah I wasn't greeting very nicely to say the least. I told my SIL that I'm gonna eat and leave. When I told my sponsor my plans he offered to take me to another SA member (who's also an alcoholic) who was having a seudah. I went there and it was very enjoyable, I really liked the atmosphere. I wasn't completely into it but that is ok. 

I took a couple things out of purim: I had an outsider's view of purim, and honestly the things that people were doing were not that fun unless one is drunk. Also, I experienced real happiness from the other SA member even though he was completely sober. Anyone else would have thought he was drunk. Also I wanted to experience the spiritual side of connecting to god without alcohol and I think I connected a little bit. I was also feeling a lot of self-pity that I couldn't enjoy how most of my friends were enjoying, I got tons of videos and whatnot of people enjoying myself and it honestly hurt me on the inside. Also, one of my brothers apologized for embarrassing me in public by the seudah and I was able to accept it. I didn't dismiss it, I acknowledged that I was hurt and that I accept his apology. It is very hard for me to be vulnerable and this was definitely a small breakthrough.

Al kol ponim, my purim would have been really terrible if not for what I have learned through my journey of connecting to god. I would have been miserable and I wasn't, thank god. I am currently working on the 3rd Step, (are we ever not?), and this was the perfect situation. I had one plan for how purim was going to work out, and god obviously knew that this would be the best for me. I tried to stay conscious of god throughout purim and I realized the silver linings, which is a bona fide miracle for me.

Peace Out.

So I just met a newcomer in SA who turns out to be a guy I know. I was completely shocked, but that isn't what I want to focus on. I want to publicly (kinda) proclaim that I am not better than him. He may look up to me, and b"h I happen to have more consecutive one days, but I am not better. He is not less than. The person with the longest sobriety is the person who woke up earliest. SA is a one day at a time program. I also want to bring out to light that I don't need to pretend to be someone else, I'm good as I am.

שלום חוץ 

Shlomo24 wrote on 29 Mar 2016 05:18:


      


The following user(s) said Thank You: markz

PA - time to upgrade your fish avatar to that of a shark

PA snacks on sharks

Ok, I am flabbergasted. I never get these jokes. Oh well! I'm still happy 

Look out behind you! 

Markz, on a "scale" of 1 to 11 how absolutely thrilled beyond all comprehension are you that the PA has returneth

Well, you wrote "PA snacks on sharks", and I'm one, so i need time to digest this
Does the scale have a minus?

Kidding aside I'm thrilled to have PA back, and to have you both - Yesod and Shlomo too!!

I, for one, am super happy.

Shlomo, you are one happy feller today