Rav Fishel Shechter on Mishpatim recently said:
That's the (meaning of) machatzeetz ha shekel, the matbea shel aish...let me be who I am.
The Targum Onkelus says..."we're organizing ourselves." What are we organizing?
The Meoros Einayim says everyone has a letter in the Torah, and the letter gets distorted
when we do the wrong thing. The Divrei Yechezkel says...dinim in previous gilgulim.
When a person takes on his challenges and his disappointments b'ahava, then HaKodesh Borichu
puts back the letters in their place...that's tisader/misader. That's the naaseh v'nishma!
Then, there is the Musaf of parshas shekalim: Who cares about the shekalim of Ephraim?
But that was Avraham Avinu's biggest test in emunah. He comes back to tell her about the akeida
and how he had such a zechus, and finds that she's dead. Then, when he goes to bury her,
it's somehow tons of money, after being promised Eretz Yisroel by HaShem...and it doesn't make sense! But he doesn't ask questions. He says that Klal Yisroel is going to be thrown into a world
that doesn't make sense. And my emuna now will give them the koach to go through.
His shekels is the ultimate test in his life. It didn't make sense. Why did my wife die now?
Why do I have to pay so much for a measly little plot to bury her in a land that HaShem promised me?
All the medrashim by the chorbonos say that Klal Yisroel will endure and come back,
because Avraham Avinu paid top dollar and didn't ask questions.
He knew that this is my machatzeetz hashekel, and that is how we survive and are here now.
Rabbi Yosef Shaul was the Rav in Lemberg. The Yeshuas Yaakov was the Rav before him.
And the Yeshuas Yaakov suggested R. Yosef Shaul to take over the position after his death.
But he didn't want it. He just wanted to continue sitting in learning. So, they convinced his father-in-law
to threaten to stop supporting him, if he didn't accept the position. So he agreed to be the Rav for 1 year. They brought him a contract for 3 years...and with pressure from his father-in-law, he signed it.
It was very difficult for him, and a huge achrius. At the end of the 3 years, the water carrier says
on Leil Seder, that someone is eating chometz! Rav Yosef Shaul immediately walked all the way there,
to check it out, and knocked on the door of a far off hovel of a house. The guy was embarrassed,
but said that his wife is very sick and can't leave the house, and he is taking care of her,
and they didn't have enough money to buy matzah. So, he left over bread, until it got moldy,
and then he ate it (which is still forbidden, because he is being machsheev it, but that's what he did).
He was horrified, took care of them, and then said, but last year you did go to the maose chitim fund.
Why didn't you tell anyone or go this year? Because this year, I couldn't leave the house,
because of my wife who was so sick. The Rav then got very upset with the people who distribute
the money. He asked them, why they didn't notice that someone who came last year,
didn't come this year...what do they think, that he suddenly got rich? They should have investigated
and taken care of them. But they answer, that we are so busy with the people that do come,
you want us to worry about the people who don't come!
So, he says that's it. He's leaving. He can't take the achrius anymore. He packs his bags
and has them put on a wagon. He's all set to go, and then people come to him for a din Torah.
He says: o.k. it's my last day here, and this will be my final act as the Rav of the town.
We'll have a din Torah, but then, I'm leaving. A businessman says he lost his bag full of money
(500 coins). And he went to the inn, and the innkeeper says that he found his money.
But then he goes on the way and someone says that he found the bag with the money in it.
He gives the simonim, and it's his bag. So they don't know what to do. Someone is definitely lying!
So they come for a din Torah. Neither wants to take back the money. They both say they are doing
the mitzvah of hashavas aveida. So the Rav says: the bag plus 500 coins goes to the guy,
and the other 500 coins we'll have to decide what to do. They both say: let's give it to
the maos chitim fund, because we heard that there was someone who had to eat chometz on Pesach.
And they shake on it. When the Rav heard that, he said that's it, take the bags off the wagon,
and he decided to stay. If these are the kind of people here in this town, then I'm staying!
There are those moments in our life, where it looks like we are at the point of no return,
but then you make that right move and the Ribono Shel Olam says, that's it, you are Mine forever...
and parshas shekalim is misugal for finding that moment.