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Re: Back on the Site 18 Jan 2016 18:32 #274741

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Noooooo i wouldn't do something that stupid...
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Re: Back on the Site 18 Jan 2016 19:01 #274744

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strugglingguy wrote:
hi
i just slipped and read a p story
but then turned off my phone before it went further

victory?


Good goin'.
What is your question though?
Was it a victory to you?
We cannot decide for you.
And truthfully, what is the difference?
Will it change your recovery method?

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Re: Back on the Site 18 Jan 2016 19:01 #274745

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mggsbms wrote:
That's definitely a step in the right direction, however it doesn't necessarily fix the problem.

I also fell today (I'm posting it here due to the lack of a proper place to come clean)after18 days, i can put the blame on a tough situation which i was put into. But I'm NOT. It's abundantly clear to me had i not been an addict i wouldn't fall even in such a situation.


Thanks for the share.
What is your next move?
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Re: Back on the Site 18 Jan 2016 21:15 #274771

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Dono yet
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Re: Back on the Site 05 Feb 2016 18:43 #276835

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fell today 
not much time to eloborate 
told my wife 

Re: Back on the Site 05 Feb 2016 18:54 #276837

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Please forgive me but I am asking the following from total and absolute ignorance. 

Are you telling your wife about that because she encourages you to continue acting out

Alternatively is your wife your partner to help you out of lust?

Or is she your therapist?

I am totally lost I would appreciate it if you could clarify for me
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Re: Back on the Site 05 Feb 2016 20:19 #276845

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strugglingguy wrote on Unknown:
fell today 
not much time to eloborate 
told my wife 

Thanks for the share.

Hatzlachah movin' forward.
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Re: Back on the Site 15 Feb 2016 15:32 #277867

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was home alone -- my job is flexible (and I don't have a car and it's cold out,) unfortunately I guess
u could say i shouldn't b home alone but that is basically impossible
watched for an hour thru proxy on my comp but cov eyes caught it 
going thru the charade now of posting here
this stuff is too powerful - only "consolation" is that i didn't ejac (yet)
davened that i shouldn't have this today but i guess i didnt help myself out 
going away on vaca for a week and won't b alone so maybe that will be a good start
please continue with the chizuk

for those that asked, my wife used to be very mad but last time she didn't really press me on it ... prob a bad sign 

Re: Back on the Site 15 Feb 2016 15:44 #277870

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Someone that has stayed clean for a while: please PM me, I need the assistance. 

Re: Back on the Site 15 Feb 2016 22:08 #277934

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i don't use pm (if i can help it), but you can always email.

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Re: Back on the Site 15 Mar 2016 19:33 #281395

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what's ur email (you can PM for that  of u want

Re: Back on the Site 24 May 2016 00:24 #288713

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I could have had a productive day today, but I told myself I was tired, etc. so I pursued a different path.  
I acted out twice this afternoon.
Home alone; wife out of town - does not help.
I don't have enough fortitude to help myself. I also like immediate gratification. I would not have survived earlier era's of history where you had to be patient. This is all part of my problem.
I could write more, etc. but thats it for now. I will try to salvage the rest of the evening/night for good things.

Re: Back on the Site 24 May 2016 01:49 #288730

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 Moving forward ....tomorrow being home alone what can I do not to act out?ill go to work but i know ill be home some.(9:45PM) the problem with me/us is that - we can be good for most of the day - but it only takes a couple "down" minutes to fail!.... i don't want to capitulate to victimhood but ...

Re: Back on the Site 24 May 2016 02:10 #288732

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strugglingguy wrote:
 Moving forward ....tomorrow being home alone what can I do not to act out?ill go to work but i know ill be home some.(9:45PM) the problem with me/us is that - we can be good for most of the day - but it only takes a couple "down" minutes to fail!.... i don't want to capitulate to victimhood but ...

You don't lose what you gained in that time of being "good" besides your streak and soberity isn't just a streak 
Soberity is a journey NOT a destination 
 

Re: Back on the Site 24 May 2016 02:27 #288733

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strugglingguy wrote on 24 May 2016 01:49:
 Moving forward ....tomorrow being home alone what can I do not to act out?ill go to work but i know ill be home some.(9:45PM) the problem with me/us is that - we can be good for most of the day - but it only takes a couple "down" minutes to fail!.... i don't want to capitulate to victimhood but ...

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