"the real reason I stay sober is because all I ever wanted from acting out I can get from my relationship with G-d"

Heres my question
In the hava amina you separate 'feelings' from 'me'
"Acting out quiets the "me" and the less "me" there is, the better I feel. "

The understanding is that acting out is NOT me, rather serves to satisfy my feeling. So in the seifa i'd think you're saying that I can get the positive feelings I ever wanted from my relationship with G-d

Why then do you say
"Acting out promised that if I could just get rid of "me" long enough, then in that quiet, I would somehow finally be "me."

Is this a klotz q'ashe?

Signed - a Cordnoy fan

Firstly I wrote what I saw.
Secondly, I don't fully understand your question.
Thirdly, the point was that one acts out to hide from his real self, but if he connects with God, it doesn't hurt so much being "me." There might have been another point there which seems slightly different, but I cannot harp too much on analyzin', as it does me harm.

Thank you

Cordnoy


For a moment I thought I was reading about myself.

The question I have is - so why don't I like being "me" and is there anything I can do to change that.

eslaasos wrote:


Perhaps thru therapy.
Perhaps thru cheshbon hanefesh.

And yes!

Yes!
There is a call today.

Regular time and station (thank God we are outta there!).

Last call of the Year!

Gmar chasimah tovah to all

First call of the year - regular time today.

Steps 4 and 5!

ok
#6000!
Here it is.
It wasn't that I was procrastinatin'; I was simply very busy.
I also was at a loss as to where to put it.
I had some good comments for Waydown (short of course); I was gonna agree with some of Alex Eliezer's thoughts (who can't agree with him?); I had thoughts about mentionin' da guy who lowered my karma (and no; a mod doesn't know that stuff....I think), but anyways, I do thank him, for it does good to my ego which is so stinkin' high; I wanted to respond to Pischo's want ad (as I am over 35 and have children b"H); I would have loved to chime in to Zemmy's anal thread but.....; and I almost forgot, there is a call today; and this issue with the bank or drive-by, I have my opinions (that's a chiddush) and I stated them before and eventually I will chime in; and no! I was not gonna add my two cents regardin' filters which i hate (them and the discussion); and then i was thinkin' that maybe I should bump one of Gevurah's threads, but he's a bahaltine yid; MBJ wrote some gems in middle of the night (for some); Big Moish had some good retorts like usual, and I could have ditto'd a few; gettin' busy again...ouch!; I might miss a few people from my other groups, but I gotta run!

I would like to write this: Firstly, thank you to all; i could not have done it without you...I love you guys...all of you...yes, even you. But really, read my old posts, read my emails (oh...maybe don't), but from where I came from (tipah seruchah), and where I still am, but I look one day at a time, and I wish Pidaini and TZ would be back to remind us of this; I'm ramblin and way past my tweet quota....Jim Rome would have gonged me already.

Here's the real deal: Yesterday I flirted; why? Because I thought I can; bull s@#$! I cannot! not at all! I almost got myself in a pile of that and a heap of trouble. I have learned and am finally chappin' (I'm slow) what my landsman and others say: I cannot afford to lust; I cannot take a peek; I do not need it; the little pleasure it is....ok, the truth, the big pleasure that one/I has, I cannot drink; I cannot partake in, for it is the kiss of death for me; and yes, I woke up this mornin' feelin' real lousy, but as we say around here; the truck is always idlin' and you just gotta get on and shift the gears........oh my, one hand on keyboard and the other is headin' out...................................................

MAZEL TOV KEIN YIRBU!!!

Lookin' forward to # 7000.
OPAAT

Bigmoish


Uhh, what about what Bigmoish writes, can I google opaX2t? (Unless you mean the kind of tea drunk by a german grandfather with two grandchildren...)

Old People Are Always Teadrinking

stillgoing wrote:


Hey!
Stop makin' fun of me.

cordnoy wrote:


How about opaX2C

cordnoy wrote:

On purim, all are trinkin' (woodford, of course)