ShtettlMan wrote on 18 Aug 2024 23:50:

Good plan. Here's a better one. DON'T WAIT.

Yeah it's tough, it's embarrassing, and there are a million good sounding reasons to not ask. But you know it's something that'll help you, and trust me, once you do it 1) you'll feel the sweet taste of true strength and 2) you'll see they won't suspect you and probably won't make a big deal out of it.

(Agav, you really really really must make sure you fulfill whatever shvua you made in the taphshich, but speak to a qualified Rav if you have questions about it.)

Yeah I did it yesterday, the big Knas actually... It's really hard to give 250$ (especially bc I had ways to avoid such a big amount).
I renishba after that with more specific terms and more efficient ideas. I'll let you know how it goes from now! I'm not down or upset, just bored of falling again. I read somewhere that clean days were really something that we acquier. BH 50 days is huge for me and even more than what I expected to do
Thank you for your help

ShtettlMan wrote on 19 Aug 2024 20:34:

A knas is a deterrent. From what I know it works for a few select people. 

Is it worth trying? why not. 
Do I recommend it. No. 

Regardless, it only works if it works. 
If it doesn’t work as you discover if you have to pay a knas, it’ll be a good idea to up your game and find something else that does the magic you need in your life - not wasting money and buckling down the terms and conditions.

Thanks for your advice, but I dont think that leave this key that helped me going through 50 clean days in a row (which is huge for me honestly) just bc I had a fall. I dont know why you seem not to like this method, I mean working or not doesnt mean a perfect score at the first or second attempt dont you think?

ShtettlMan wrote on 20 Aug 2024 22:30:

I agree with you 100%

Mabe after a bunch of successive knas but don't discredit what worked after the first kink. 

Keep on doing what works for you.

Shalom Brother,
How are you doing?

Hi, it's been a whil!! BH Im at 17 clean days (of p&m) and I feel good. The shvua seems to be the only thing helping to keep going so long! Will let you know about next steps!