Thanks everyone for your advice.  RobFloyd, Markz (if I'm understanding you) I think that you're right that I need to reach out to other people, I just need to figure out who and how.  It really goes against my nature and is difficult for me.  Hashem Help Me, that's good advice I'll do that.

At any rate I need to do something differently than I've been doing until now.  It's been about two months and there has been some progress but it's been very slow.  I think that posting daily what's happening with me is starting to become more harmful than good since it's making my falls feel like huge public events which makes them much more difficult to deal with after.  So, for now, I'm going to stop posting here daily, but I'll still be around the forums.

Some guys are on gye with no success after many years

Dont go hard on yourself bro

You are amazing!!!!!

@LoveU,Hashem
I got your chat and I tried Pm'ing you but it kept saying that the user name doesn't exist (I'm guessing that the comma has something to do with it). Have you ever received any PM's?  Pm or chat me for what you had in mind, I'm definitely interested, but we have to work on details.

You briefly sad earlier that you were doing something with the 12 steps or Dov's talks? Could you explain exactly what you are doing for recovery?

Interesting. I have private massaged in the past. Please email me at loveyouhashem1@gmail.com . I hope you're having a clean day!!

Cheers to you, my dear friend, and our loving father!!

dms1234 wrote on 23 Oct 2017 21:57:

I've been listening to Dov's talks in the twelve steps and have been trying to implement some of them. Specifically, I've been attempting to admit my powerlessness to Hashem and ask Hashem to fight for me at shacharis and thank Him for fighting for me at maariv. I've found that it really helps me although it's not a solution. For all the purists on here, it's not THE 12 steps. It's just some lessons that I'm learning from it and trying to apply it to my life.

I'm realizing that it was a mistake to stop posting here. I had made a little progress, which I didn't really appreciate and I'm seeing that it was due to my postings. I'm going to continue posting. I have a little bit of a different idea for a "challenge" which I'll post soon.

So what's the game plan, buddy?? I ran out of options.. 

LoveU,Hashem wrote on 30 Oct 2017 22:38:

That's when the fun begins

I'm going to try and work on not watching pornography or viewing anything even if I do masturbate (which I will continue to work on but with less focus on it). I'm going to try and do the ninety day challenge, but falls are only watching pornography. 

Here are some of my guidelines:
I will keep posting daily 
A fall for this is defined as purposely viewing pornography (which is indisputable) or masturbation while viewing any pictures /videos even non-pornographic. 
25 cent knas for looking at someone /something for lust purposes but no payment on sefeikos. This is for 2 weeks. 
Keep listening to Dov or reading gye materials. 

Today is day 1

See everyone tomorrow! 

Great. You are taking many steps in the right direction. Separating masturbation from pornographic imagery is very wise. If at all possible try to not even have any images in your mind (not just on a screen) if you m******  Wishing you success on all fronts.

Hashem Help Me wrote on 31 Oct 2017 00:55:

I don't think it's so wise, but I may be wrong.

cordnoy wrote on 31 Oct 2017 01:08:

Why?

It definitely breaks up the battlefield into more controllable particles. I tried it while I was single and it did work for some time. One drawback though. In my current situation, if I have no access to pornography (like on Shabbas and Sunday when I have no internet access whatsoever) I hardly ever have any lust issues. Masturbation per se for me is not a struggle. But If you do separate these two, you create for yourself another battlefield down the road which is masturbation. But it would definitely save me a ton and ton of time. If I feel that I have a lust attack and I will fail, I have two options. waist 2-3 hours looking for a clip that will really turn me on (an almost always endless search that will just leave me disappointed and disgusted, for those of you clean for 900 days plus and already forgot what it feels like), or just make a long story short and call it a day. It's not the optimal solution but I wish you lots of success!! 

Cheers:smiley: