Day #48

B"h shabbos was good.

See everyone tomorrow!

I am happy to hear about your shabbos, may it continue this way through the week days.

Day #49

I made it seven weeks! No real news, but I'm going on my third week completely clean without even thinking about it much. 

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good to hear this.  keep it up

Day #51

Unfortunately, yesterday I had a masturbation fall, but still no porn b"h.  I got started with some stuff that I shouldn't have been looking at and was able to push everything off until the next day.  Unfortunately I started looking at stuff again, which led to me masturbating.  I have to be really careful at those beginning stages, that's where the fight is.  Be"h I was able to delay it which is a big accomplishment for me, and I also made it clean for two and a half weeks which is good.  I'm really seeing progress here.

See everyone tomorrow!

bgit wrote on 12 Dec 2017 02:05:

Brother I want to share with you something I noticed in the whitebook which I started perusing recently thanks to Shvisi. 

Maybe this will help someone else - I'm not sure. The beginning of your post is something I tried to do often too, but it's actually an escape from life

When we are alone - in private - and I share the limelight only with myself - many of us dread such an experience - as Rabbi A Twersky said about himself too (not regarding lust)

Recovery = dealing with life

Heres a quote from the SA white book (pg 23)
Sorry I cut off the quote in the middle - you know how to find the whole thing ;-)

Hi Mark
As we say, You hit it on the nail.

Day #52

B"h things are good.  I only had one fall and it didn't lead to anything else.  

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Good and Sweet

Day #53

I've had some slips here and there but with Hashems help it won't lead to anything else. I'm not sure what's gotten in to me these last couple of days. They've been a little hard for me.

See everyone tomorrow! 

Hi Bgit

I dont what was the trigger, but for me, i tried to stop a/o over 2 and a half decades, and what i came to realize, is that i am living in my own head. and i decide what to share and what not to share. today i am not in my own head, i share everything before i a/o, so i dont end up a/o. i never a/o when i was sharing before with a friend. once i share it, it loses its potency. you might use this information, or trash it. 

Day #55

I had a really rough past couple of days and I did end up masturbating.  I came pretty close to looking at porn but with Hashem's help I didn't so I still have my streak going for no porn watching.  Iy"h I'll get over this soon.  I renewed my knas on looking at things for arousing purposes.  Hopefully it'll help me not to get started.

See everyone tomorrow!

bgit wrote on 23 Aug 2017 19:28:

Can I take a guess? 
I may be wrong, but how about Ykv_schwartz

Day #57

Today is good but yesterday I ended up masturbating again.  I've noticed that things are much easier to control and don't get out of control when the masturbation comes without looking at anything as opposed to getting a little caught up in bad stuff (even if it's not pornography).  Everything is much weaker then.  B"h there was no porn so that's good.

See everyone tomorrow!

Markz wrote on 24 Dec 2017 08:25:

Nope, never seen that before. Interesting story though...