Hashem Help Me wrote on 24 Apr 2017 19:45:

Thanks for your courage, im thinking about it, needs a lot of digestion, since im a very closed person, it takes time to open up, will get there

Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 24 Apr 2017 14:51:

I, too, was very into scheduling when my struggle would start

I'd overwrite important meetings, conferences, dates with my wife, etc.

Day #6
B"H I passed day #5
Here is my update, as I wrote in my other thread, My Upcoming Dilemma i stayed sober last night, in my wildest dream 3 weeks ago i wouldn’t believe that I will stay clean such a night without my wife on site, the nights when my wife used to be away, vacation or summer months was used to be the most dirty ones, i just can’t imagine that i successfully finished yesterday's TODAY clean, i was so afraid of a fall.
i have to admit, that it popped into my mind a few times some thoughts, like touching and pleasuring myself, but i pushed it away in the second it came to my mind, i didn’t let it come to fruition, and I’m so happy with my self.
so again, אודה לד' מאד בפי, i prayed so much the last few days that this few days should pass בשלום, so I’m happy that one day has gone clean.
i spend at night reading the GYE handbook, and FREE LUST TRUCK TOWING thread, there is a lot of good stuff there, thank you Markz, you are the guy.
i don’t know what by the end hold me back, and to stay clean, 1) that ill be depressed, ashamed and having to start day one again, 2) reading on our forums, and the support from all of you, or both, I’ll leave that to you to decide.
let me finish with my biggest THANK YOU for all our great חברים לדבר מצוה you were my support, without you, i would never be what I’m today, you will definitely share the שכר בעוה"ב.
im so excited, i feel like a million dollars.
will keep you posted again tomorrow morning

today is #6 and today only, I will be on top of my soul, I'm not interested what it will happen in tomorrow or in 2 weeks, or 2 months... and the today is not that long, just a few hours, and Hashem, please stay on my 2 sides, please don't let me down.
My YH is trying to bring me down about my last fall, but I'm not going to let this happen...

Gevaaaaald! im in a desperate urge mode, i affraid for a fall! where should i run? im babysitting, i cant run to shul, what should i dooo? pls some good idea... 

Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 25 Apr 2017 23:27:



Send the baby to me Fedex, then you'll be free to do as you please

I have a Fedex account, so you don't have to pay nothing

i need to get packaging supply, i cant get out, its raining, cant leave them alone, they are to young.
this addiction goes already on my nerves, 

ok, thats my mission here in this little world, i just went out on my purch, hope here on the street, in the public nothing will happan..
Hashem please help me.. i need it now the most.. i was good for 3 weeks. please i dont want to ruin it..

what a flair up:cold_sweat:why in the world should we go through this, i have such an urge, i will stay here outside in the chily rain until ill get to my self.
im sory for writing, i feel thats the only way i will control myself now..
Thanks for listening 

Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 25 Apr 2017 23:32:

If you prefer, I can have my USPS assistant come and pick them up. No packaging supply necessary

What happened with your 9am farher on "Free Truck Towing"?

You missed it!

As punishment I want you to write 50 times

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If you're not a sex addict, I'll tell you what to do...

Actually if you're a sex addict, I have a lighter sentence for you if you want to try (no, not Siberia

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Mark, Mind you, it worked wonders, what would do without you? I feel now much better.

Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 25 Apr 2017 23:56:

A little bit of honesty 50times can go a long way

What do you want to do about it

KNOCK KNOCK






HELOOOOOOOO????






USPS IS AT YOUR DOOR FOR THE PICKUP

PLEASE SEND THEM OUT

Thanks for your offer, I'm B"H doing great, I didn't have a fall even I had an extremely urge,  but you saved my life, 2 things saved it, 1) going out on the street/pourch 2) writing 50 times "im a sex addict" 
Thanks for you, and Thanks Hashem.
TODAY is almost over, I still need help and support tonight since my wife is still on vacation, (she is back tomorrow) will update tomorrow on my progress. 
In case of emergency ill write 100 times 

Great work
KOMT