I won a hard fight last night.
I won a hard fight this morning.
And I just now lost a hard fight.
I listened to some Kol Isha and masterbated.
You know what they say- two steps forward, one step back. But you're still on the right track.
Also regarding the music, what I found helped me is focus on not listening l'kavod sefira rather than not listening to kol isha; then it's almost like not watching porn because it's shabbos vs not doing it because it's porn.
I definitely can relate to the lack of motivation. My YH is working around the clock to convince me that masturbation isn't that bad.
Also, I don't think it's either depression
or the YH, I think they feed off one another.
I hope this bumbling shtus made an iota of sense
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Much Hatzlocha!