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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 19 Feb 2023 23:42 #392333

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Keep up the fight!!!

Maybe one of the great guys here can share some thought, or you can, but how can you replace whatever is pushing you to connect with a nonjew? What is pushing you, how can you replace it or redirect that?

​personally I do not recommend talking to girls, especially if not Jewish

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 20 Feb 2023 14:25 #392356

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frank.lee wrote on 19 Feb 2023 23:42:
Keep up the fight!!!

Maybe one of the great guys here can share some thought, or you can, but how can you replace whatever is pushing you to connect with a nonjew? What is pushing you, how can you replace it or redirect that?

​personally I do not recommend talking to girls, especially if not Jewish

What pushes me is man’s innate longing for relationship and connection.
How to redirect it is by fostering healthy relationships.
Taiva as well plays a role so the eitza is gedarim.

Great recommendation

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 07 Mar 2023 12:32 #393036

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Freilechen Purim!
Still having slight withdrawal from no WhatsApp etc but surviving.

Besides a bunch of noise clouding my mind, doing decent bh.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 12 Mar 2023 03:30 #393172

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Was 19 days clean.
Grown a lot, got back into enjoying davening and actually talking to GD and with a minyan for shachris. 
Worked hard to use the rejections I've been getting to forward my Avoda, Emunah, and Bitachon.
Finally got a yes so b'ezras Hashem going on a first date for the first time at some point.
Fell on Friday and tonight though. 
It doesn't pasul me and I won't go into depression. I will still do shachris with a minyan tomorrow. This doesn't define me.
A few days ago a lady came to me saying "here I have the perfect girl for you, here let me show you a picture." I paused for a moment and gathered the strength to say sorry not doing pictures but thank you.
Was hard but I'm proud of myself.

I've grown alot these last 20 days. Have been off whatsapp completely and off smartphone and I'm still alive.
I'm davening with kavana again, trying to have Bitachon and live with GD in my life.
Yes I just fell again but I will not allow myself to get back into the cycle of shame, self pity, further porn etc etc.

Have a gn,

YeshivaGuy

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 13 Mar 2023 11:28 #393236

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Mar 2023 03:30:
Was 19 days clean.
Grown a lot, got back into enjoying davening and actually talking to GD and with a minyan for shachris. 
Worked hard to use the rejections I've been getting to forward my Avoda, Emunah, and Bitachon.
Finally got a yes so b'ezras Hashem going on a first date for the first time at some point.
Fell on Friday and tonight though. 
It doesn't pasul me and I won't go into depression. I will still do shachris with a minyan tomorrow. This doesn't define me.
A few days ago a lady came to me saying "here I have the perfect girl for you, here let me show you a picture." I paused for a moment and gathered the strength to say sorry not doing pictures but thank you.
Was hard but I'm proud of myself.

I've grown alot these last 20 days. Have been off whatsapp completely and off smartphone and I'm still alive.
I'm davening with kavana again, trying to have Bitachon and live with GD in my life.
Yes I just fell again but I will not allow myself to get back into the cycle of shame, self pity, further porn etc etc.

Have a gn,

YeshivaGuy

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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 27 Mar 2023 03:32 #393944

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Hey pal, it's been awhile!
What's up? How's it going?
I am a bochur with a passion for meaning and truth, searching to remain clean and live a holy and fulfilling life.

If you are reading this-you have a friend in me.
Feel free to PM me and I'll share my offline contact information, so we can call and text. I'd be honored if you'd trust me with your story and promise to support you in any way I possibly can.
I've been on GYE for over 7 years. "I may walk slow, but I never walk back" (-Abraham Lincoln?).
(For the background and meaning of my username- see Tanya chapter 15).


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Re: Make it to Yeshiva 27 Mar 2023 05:07 #393945

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 12 Mar 2023 03:30:
Was 19 days clean.
Grown a lot, got back into enjoying davening and actually talking to GD and with a minyan for shachris. 
Worked hard to use the rejections I've been getting to forward my Avoda, Emunah, and Bitachon.
Finally got a yes so b'ezras Hashem going on a first date for the first time at some point.
Fell on Friday and tonight though. 
It doesn't pasul me and I won't go into depression. I will still do shachris with a minyan tomorrow. This doesn't define me.
A few days ago a lady came to me saying "here I have the perfect girl for you, here let me show you a picture." I paused for a moment and gathered the strength to say sorry not doing pictures but thank you.
Was hard but I'm proud of myself.

I've grown alot these last 20 days. Have been off whatsapp completely and off smartphone and I'm still alive.
I'm davening with kavana again, trying to have Bitachon and live with GD in my life.
Yes I just fell again but I will not allow myself to get back into the cycle of shame, self pity, further porn etc etc.

Have a gn,

YeshivaGuy

HEY YG. We are here for you whenever you can and have an update, no need to fill us in if it's uncomfortable but  I do think its helpful
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 27 Mar 2023 05:22 #393946

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My heart is completely broken.
Hope you enjoyed the update.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 27 Mar 2023 06:03 #393948

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My heart is completely broken.

Hope you enjoyed the update.


Hey YG, sorry if I intruded, would you be able to let me in on what has "broken your heart", is it shidduchim? I am a bochur too, it's not easy... I can try speaking it through if you can, I sincerely do care, you can send me pm or call as well 

Bhatzlacha
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 27 Mar 2023 12:41 #393952

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Emes-a-Yid wrote on 27 Mar 2023 06:03:
My heart is completely broken.

Hope you enjoyed the update.


Hey YG, sorry if I intruded, would you be able to let me in on what has "broken your heart", is it shidduchim? I am a bochur too, it's not easy... I can try speaking it through if you can, I sincerely do care, you can send me pm or call as well 

Bhatzlacha

Yes and thanks for the offer.
Not yet though

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 27 Mar 2023 13:20 #393956

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YeshivaGuy wrote on 27 Mar 2023 12:41:

Emes-a-Yid wrote on 27 Mar 2023 06:03:
My heart is completely broken.

Hope you enjoyed the update.


Hey YG, sorry if I intruded, would you be able to let me in on what has "broken your heart", is it shidduchim? I am a bochur too, it's not easy... I can try speaking it through if you can, I sincerely do care, you can send me pm or call as well 

Bhatzlacha

Yes and thanks for the offer.
Not yet though

I sent you a direct message, take a glance at it, no need to respond just some words of chizuk. Hatzlacha!! You have a lot of energy that I have seen! Whenever you can Get back up, will be there if needed! Stay strong  YG!
To my dear friend reading this:
You are an incredible yid for just being on this site, I am breath taken after each post or new person that comes on and shares a bit about himself, keep it up. You guys are mamash matzlichim in your own ways of growth and Hashem is proud of each one of you! (that includes me too) lol.

KEEP UP YOUR TREMENDOUS UPLIFTING IN THE AVODAH OF EMES!!

Thanks for reading! Stay shtark, I am also being challenged, just build your confidence, never quit no matter what, you are your strongest enemy and yet you are your strongest savior so you choose, I am not saying it's easy but am saying it's possible just takes effort and work!!
-from Emes-A-Yid

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 28 Mar 2023 06:00 #394041

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Emes-a-Yid wrote on 27 Mar 2023 13:20:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 27 Mar 2023 12:41:

Emes-a-Yid wrote on 27 Mar 2023 06:03:
My heart is completely broken.

Hope you enjoyed the update.


Hey YG, sorry if I intruded, would you be able to let me in on what has "broken your heart", is it shidduchim? I am a bochur too, it's not easy... I can try speaking it through if you can, I sincerely do care, you can send me pm or call as well 

Bhatzlacha

Yes and thanks for the offer.
Not yet though

I sent you a direct message, take a glance at it, no need to respond just some words of chizuk. Hatzlacha!! You have a lot of energy that I have seen! Whenever you can Get back up, will be there if needed! Stay strong  YG!

Thanks.
Get back up? I’m up bh, still clean despite the terrible whirlwinds of lies, manipulation, and disrespect.
Last Edit: 28 Mar 2023 07:44 by yeshivaguy.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 28 Mar 2023 11:29 #394044

YeshivaGuy wrote on 28 Mar 2023 06:00:

Emes-a-Yid wrote on 27 Mar 2023 13:20:

YeshivaGuy wrote on 27 Mar 2023 12:41:

Emes-a-Yid wrote on 27 Mar 2023 06:03:
My heart is completely broken.

Hope you enjoyed the update.


Hey YG, sorry if I intruded, would you be able to let me in on what has "broken your heart", is it shidduchim? I am a bochur too, it's not easy... I can try speaking it through if you can, I sincerely do care, you can send me pm or call as well 

Bhatzlacha

Yes and thanks for the offer.
Not yet though

I sent you a direct message, take a glance at it, no need to respond just some words of chizuk. Hatzlacha!! You have a lot of energy that I have seen! Whenever you can Get back up, will be there if needed! Stay strong  YG!

Thanks.
Get back up? I’m up bh, still clean despite the terrible whirlwinds of lies, manipulation, and disrespect.

I was once almost engaged to a girl (was at the point of picking out a diamond) and then I found out that her family had been hiding from me a terrible and incurable genetic disease in her immediate family - after we had asked and checked. 

this (beit Yaakov) girl and I had spoken about intimacy in an extremely inappropriate way for  people who were not even engaged. 

I had to break it off and it broke my heart. I’ve dated dozens of girls and her name is one of the few I usually remember. I had also found out around the same time I found out abt the genetic issue that she went through a tough traumatic experience. 

in hindsight, I shudder at the thought of the trauma and other issues I would have had to overcome had I married her. 

I eventually married someone else who was a much better match in every way - emotionally stable, non judgemental, etc. 

Point of the story? It’s very hard but trust that Hashem has your best interests in mind and each girl you go out with brings you one step closer to your wife. You both need to reach a certain level in order to merit one another.
Hi, my name is ILH and I’m grateful for having to focus just on today. 
Easy does it... I don't need to be perfect. 
If you figured out my identity, don't be shy, come say hi! 
It takes tons of courage to fight the good fight, but we don't have to do it all alone. 
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Last Edit: 28 Mar 2023 14:31 by chaimmod.

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 28 Mar 2023 15:55 #394051

I want to give a public shout out to the moderators for catching something that I wrote in the post above that could be triggering to others and editing it.

thank you!
Hi, my name is ILH and I’m grateful for having to focus just on today. 
Easy does it... I don't need to be perfect. 
If you figured out my identity, don't be shy, come say hi! 
It takes tons of courage to fight the good fight, but we don't have to do it all alone. 
My Story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/385922-My-Story-Being-Honest-For-Once

Re: Make it to Yeshiva 28 Mar 2023 16:18 #394053

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iLoveHashem247 wrote on 28 Mar 2023 15:55:
I want to give a public shout out to the moderators for catching something that I wrote in the post above that could be triggering to others and editing it.

thank you!

It was caught by one of the local fishermen here. You’re welcome. 

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