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Don't want too be here 06 Mar 2018 20:42 #327816

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Hi I'm not exactly sure what I meant to do here but I will say my "story" 
I'm 20 years old and I have been watching porn since I was about 13 year's old the first time I watched I was so upset that I slapped myself across my face then slowly I just started watching more and then one Friday night I couldn't control myself and I took my phone and.... And now I use it the whole day on shabbos slowly I moved on to bigger things I started to wear girls clothes watch gay porn and even met a few people then last week my father came in the morning too my room screaming are you gay..... And now I'm here. 

Re: Don't want too be here 06 Mar 2018 21:08 #327821

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welcome,
Thank you for writing your story, i know it's hard to do. Joining GYE shows great strength and courage to want to get out of this bad habit/addiction. There are many tools on GYE too help you through. Everyone here wants to help you.
Feel free to email me 360gye@gmail.com i would love to help you

Re: Don't want too be here 06 Mar 2018 21:10 #327822

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Brother, Is this the first time your father intruded, or shouted at you
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Re: Don't want too be here 06 Mar 2018 21:12 #327824

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wow thank you so much for sharing, it probably isn't easy for you, in the beginning it could be tough and we could feel very vulnerable, but stick around bec. ur joining with the right crowd! were all suffering from the same sickness, it can play out differently by different people, but at the root its the same, and were all here to help and to get help! hatzlacha raba and pls. stay around I wanna here from you

Re: Don't want too be here 06 Mar 2018 21:13 #327825

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Hey friend, welcome! None of us wanted to end up here but considering this is the path God put us on, I think pretty soon you'll be glad that you did. In fact you'll be wondering how you lived without it.

​Great first post, must've been hard to share that. Know that there are loads of people here just like you, maybe different situations but we all relate to the struggle.

There's a dedicated board for SSA (Same Sex Attraction), you might wanna check that out. Make yourself at home, keep posting, and you will get the help you need.

Re: Don't want too be here 07 Mar 2018 00:39 #327847

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Yeah we usually get along very well he just found out about it and went all crazy 

Re: Don't want too be here 07 Mar 2018 02:23 #327857

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hi ,hope you have hatzlacha,youre a mighty man to make that post and lay everything out on the table,it must of hurt so much when your father got upset at you, be strong! and with the help of Hashem lifes bumps will soon smooth out,we are living in crazy times and its understandable that an impressionable 13 year old would do what you did , i have a child that got their  hands on a internet phone and also used it on Shabbos ,the temptation is great! i dont think that its far fetched to assume that what makes people do these things on Shabbos is the guilt feelings that they saw such crazy and disgusting things on the internet as you said that you slapped yourself, i think that kids have to know that no matter what they saw or did Hashem still loves them and they are never signed off by Hashem keep on davening ,putting on tefilin , saying berachos ,shabbos, dont listen to th yetzer hara  and dont give up .hatzlacha and again i hope everything will work out with you and your father  and everything else.
i also hope that just like you want your father to have patience with you,please have patience with your father because eventhough you feel that he is going to crazy about the whole thing,still some people have a difficult time adjusting,again hope everything works out ,you joined a great group of guys here who are trying to fix up all our mistakes.Chazak chazak!

לב  טהור   ברא   לי   אלקים , ורוח  נכון    חדש  בקרבי

  to all my friends who heeded my request  to be so generous and give me a negative karma  for the sake of me acquiring       
                                                . humility ,i humbly  thank you                                                                                                 

Last Edit: 07 Mar 2018 12:17 by ieeyc.

Re: Don't want too be here 07 Mar 2018 15:34 #327879

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Welcome!  Keep posting.  There's a lot of support and encouragement here.  But most importantly, tools and resources for recovery.  Commit to do whatever it takes, and never ever give up.  I wish you all the best!
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