Hi My Dear friend Dan.
Your post that you wrote, is my story. you just needed to sign "my" name on it. I tried for decades to stop, and my Yeshuah came once i realized that i am powerless over this addiction. I can share with you my 2 cents on this demon.
What kept my addcition progressing and unstoppable, was that i was realizing that my addcition was living on 2 main blood supply arteries that kept it alive and powerful. Arterie #1. Secrective. Arterie #2. Deception. Once i exposed this secret and stopped my deception that i am regular guy(and everyone struggles like me) my Yeshua started to form, I am today clean 84 days, because i got myself a friend here on GYE, that i met in person, and i got myself a Webchaver account, and i am accountable to my actions. it is no more a secret, and it is no more a deception. it is out there for my trusted Chaver and myself to look on my actions boldly. If this makes sense for you, i would be eager to share with you more on my journey.