hello I grew up modern orthodox with access to all the garbage and became addicted to pornography. as I grew older I became much more frum and even chassidish, but have been living with these desires for many years. I started looking at stuff at around 15 years old and continued until I got married at age 22. at that point I was out of my house but still had desires at which point I began searching for ways to access it, which mainly included buying cheap smartphones from drug stores. I am 29 years old and still do this, throwing it out in disgust every few days or so, holding off for a few days or maybe a week, then buying it again and going through the same cycle. I don't know what to do to rid myself of this. help!

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Welcome!

You've definitely come to the right place.  Take a look at guardyoureyes.com/breakingfree/first-time-here and see what works for you.  The main thing for you to know right now is that you aren't alone in this and aren't a bad person.  You fell, you're human, and were more or less forced into the situation that you're in (what was a 15 year old supposed to do).  You can choose to change your life, and with the help of GYE you'll hopefully succeed!

Hatzlacha!

Welocome. It should be with hatzlocha. Very helpful people here.

Welcome!  Your scenario is verry common.  Check out the handbook.  It has lots of great ideas.  Keep posting. We are here for you.

A Gut Yohr to you shoimer88, 
What you are describing is soooo familiar! I am 37 but I have this same struggle since I was 16. Every time is the last time. I am hopeful for the future though. Thanks for sharing!