Hi

Welcome 04

Your English is quite good

Watch what you read here, so you keep it clean ;-)

Working is a good thing for a Jewish boy and may it succeed

Have you discussed personally your pmO with anyone recently

Hi HappyJew,

Welcome, you have come to a good place. I really like your choice of name and title of this thread. It is very positive and upbeat! With that atitude you will find it easier to succeed.
הצלחה רבה!

Hey happyjew,
Welcome!!!!!!!!

​I feel your pain, I am also 22(almost 23) and my story has similar details. 

You mentioned you thought you could be a Godal, Well you still can!!!!!

There is a letter from Rav Hutner my Mashgiach showed me, and also saw in a GYE email. The letter is addressed to someone who wrote that he used to think he could be a Godol one day. Here is the GYE email."Among the collected letters of Rav Yitzchok Hutner, zt"l, is one that was written to a talmid whose own, earlier, letter to the Rosh Yeshiva had apparently evidenced the student's despondence over his personal spiritual failures. The Rosh Yeshiva's response provides nourishing food for thought. Citing the saying that one can "lose battles but win wars," Rav Hutner explains that what makes life meaningful is not beatific basking in the exclusive company of one's yetzer tov but rather the dynamic struggle of one's battle with the yetzer hora. Shlomo Hamelech's maxim that "Seven times does the righteous one fall and get up" (Mishlei, 24:16), continues Rav Hutner, does not mean that "even after falling seven times, the righteous one manages to gets up again." What it really means, he explains, is that it is only and precisely through repeated falls that a person truly achieves righteousness. The struggles - even the failures - are inherent elements of what can, with determination and perseverance, become an ultimate victory."

I found the list you wrote of "why change" to be very inspiring. Thanks! 

Hatzlacha. 

Hello happyjew
Welcome, you have come to the right place. That must have taken a lot of courage to write the full story, but its very good - that's what makes us healthy, to write as much as we can about ourselves.
Working will do you good if taken seriously.
Good luck

Welcome to the right place. Iyh here you will get chizuk, advice, etc from real people whp have experienced your challenge and BH succeeded. Stay connected and iyh you will make it out and accomplish your goals. Hatzlocha.

Thanks for the complement. I havent ever discussed my problem with anybody. 

Markz wrote on 24 May 2017 01:57:

Thanks for the complement! I havent ever discussed my problem with anybody

Shulem Aleichem Chaver:
you came to the right place, I know exactly from where you are coming from, I'm clean now for 5 weeks, I was never clean for that long period of time, so hang on, you will survive, hashem loves you, he directed you to the right place.
keep it up.

My Rebbe always said that if you don't succeed at first, try, try again; at least i think that was him, or was that Yogi Berra? I'm not sure who, but it certainly ain't over until the fat lady sings, or was that someone else? Can we say fat lady here? Perhaps it will trigger those with large muscles. Sorry Keep on pressing iron!

Trouble wrote on 24 May 2017 22:43:

Thanks all for the encoregment!

Happyjew04 wrote on 30 May 2017 00:40:

Keep posting. Stay Connected. Hatzlocha.