Hi my stage name is Fred
I have been at this for three years
Consistently at 6 to nine months of being OK I fall
I want to do better this time
I am getting old but my Yetzer is not
I make excuses that I have always been obsessed by sex since  I was eleven, my wife has a lot of troubles now and doctors haven't been interested
I don't look at real porn, just youtube but of course there's plenty of terrible stuff I can find there and it leads to acting out (masterbation) and loss of control.
I'd like to feel like a mensch and stay clean for the rest of my life.
thanks for listening
kol tuv to all
Fred

Welcome,

Lots of similarities here.

II understand and feel for you.

I realized that change will work if I make decisions for tomorrow but focus on today.

B'hatzlachah

fred wrote on 05 Feb 2017 11:55:


Tippin'?


I'm crazy too, so you should feel at home here

I hope to see you more often

Time for a pit stop at

Welcome. You're in the right place.

First of all please take time to read through the GYE handbook.  No two people are the same, everyone has a slightly different set of circumstances, but we all share this problem and since we share the problem we can share the solution too. The book is written in a general way so it can apply to everyone. I found it helpful to really think about what the book was saying and how it applied to me and my own life.

This is a very common problem nowadays, you're far from the only one to deal with it. The word addict gets thrown around quite a lot, but most people who struggle with this issue are not addicts, just normal people with a normal yetzer hora. Which is good. Some people have come to realise that they really are addicts because their situation got gradually worse and worse despite working on it. When I say worse I mean, in frequency, severity or just feeling worse after every slip. If that is the case we may need more than GYE, which most people find to be therapy or SA or both. But I wouldn't jump to that conclusion about you. Many people have overcome this challenge right here on GYE using the tools in the handbook.

So stick around. Keep posting, keep reading and keep on trucking.

Youtube is porn as any other porn. Just has a different name.

Welcome! May you shunt the shmutz out your life for good! Look around, build up a toolbox!

Singularity wrote on 06 Feb 2017 11:08:


Couldn't agree more. YouTube is misleading because most videos are on YouTube but there is so much shmutz, although sometimes dresses up as a movie clip or something else. In a way it's worse because you can fool yourself that it's not regular pornography, as I sometimes do.

Welcome! Check out the handbook.  Keep posting.

Hi all
I appreciated your replies
I will try to stay in touch
regards
Fred