mggsbms wrote on 02 Jun 2016 14:21:

Obviously not, but what im saying is that I derailed. I suffer from perfectionism.
Im over weight because of that and never did well in school either for that reason
 

ZDuvid wrote on 02 Jun 2016 05:04:

greetings ZDuvid,
Thanks for your open & honest sharing.... May Hashem answer your tefilos and help  you get "back on track" soon.
Your post gave me the courage to share the following: Recently my wife suprised me and went to mikva after a really long extended time of not being able to get tahor . (she does not know anything about my additction to porn/masturbation and attraction to other males) B'kitzur,aside from being over age 50, morbidly obease and feeling exhausted and stressed with the need to be up for work at 5am,we attempted to be "intimate" . My body was just not responding... what a shock! happened again a second night after which we let it go...  Was thinking that b/c i was so obsessed with the male body,i was not interested in my wife. ... So your share reminded me that "lust kills love" and with progressive recovery over lust,there is hope. Hope things get better for you soon!
 

aryehdovid85 wrote on 02 Jun 2016 18:59:



     I myself am over 50 and a little overweight. Thankfully, I can still perform but it sure ain't what it used to be. Part of "a lack of response" as you put it, is routinely  part of the normal aging process. Perhaps a trip to the doctor/urologist might be helpful.

Omg!
Perhaps we should start a club or something.
O50BOWSPBIAWIU2B

cordnoy wrote on 03 Jun 2016 00:31:

"Welcome To The Overweight, Future Sleeve Operators, Wanting To Feel Good About Our Selves, Ex Masturbaters Club"
Hi how are you today

ZDuvid wrote:

How attractive are you brother?

markz wrote on 03 Jun 2016 01:01:

Me? From 1- 100 about 18..
Why you askin

Hey ZDuvid, im pretty new and don't know much, but I can tell you what I heard from a few guys here: the goal is not to be sober. The goal is life. Being sober just gets you there.
Hope you get back on track
 

ZDuvid wrote:

And your wife?

shmirashachaim wrote on 03 Jun 2016 01:17:

Exactly right!
I wish I can open my own business and become happy about myself and more occupied and feeling fulfilled.
Right now I'm in charge of someone's Online company but I do nothing all day. Absolutely nothing! My Goyem do everything and Im just the make sure Everything is running well person.
I feel like a doosh bag at the end of the day

markz wrote on 03 Jun 2016 01:19:

1 - 100 about 4.7
I mean she's cute but her body is a disaster

ZDuvid wrote:

That sounds rough. I hate feeling like a doosh bag. Felt it more than I can count. I wish you hatzlacha in finding what will change that. Sounds like planning to open a business might do that. Just parroting what more experienced guys here say, that we should be cautious in not making sobriety the meaning in life. There's so much more than that! Haven't read your forum but 288 days is incredible. Haven't really been able to get there. Would love to see how you did it. 

shmirashachaim wrote on 03 Jun 2016 01:31:

Thanks for the compliment.
Im a type of person that if I decide to do something, it WILL be done. Heaven and earth can split, but it doesn't matter.
The problem is that I decided to be clean with the goal of reaching 90 days and then I just made another goal till after my baby's birth Mikvah night. But then there was no goal...
In other words I didn't really change MYSELF I just pushed on like a lion

That's still an incredible Noach which I unfortunately don't have. Keep us posted. 

cordnoy wrote on 03 Jun 2016 00:31: