Hi Guys!

I guess an update is long overdue. The reason why I haven't been so active here lately is because I kind of graduated from GYE.
I discovered that reading the "dov quotes" from gibbor was more productive than just hanging around the forum. I then discovered that listening to the recordings of dov's 12 step introduction (and his yamim noraim speech- thanks Serenity) might be even more productive. Then I discovered that emailing dov was better than that. Then I discovered that calling dov was better than that. Then I discovered that meeting someone from SA was better than that. Then I discovered that going to SA was even better!
I hope you get the point, and I hope my discoveries continue...
I want to thank the guys here for being so helpful to me. 

Specifically,

Cordnoy
Bigmoish
Serenity
Markz
Gibbor120
Gevura

AND
Anyone else should feel free to add their name to this list...

I love you all, and will try to continue checking in from time to time.

I'll leave you with one lesson a guy from SA taught me. 
"If you feel like acting out, pick up the phone in one hand and the White Book in the other

trysohard wrote on 01 Nov 2016 17:04:

Is there any way for me to get mine off? 

Looks like you're making some good decisions. I'm actually only on GYE to be of service to others. I've never even read the handbook 

trysohard wrote on 01 Nov 2016 17:04:

Good stuff....except when I call, it is with blue tooth and I read white book on comp, so I still got two hands available.

Bigmoish wrote on 01 Nov 2016 17:33:

sorry, there's no such option...
(2 years ago you were a big help to me)

cordnoy wrote on 01 Nov 2016 18:49:

And I masturbated for a while before I even discovered it can be done with my hand. 

Trysohard

I like your progressive graduation escalator

Youre the one that deserves the compliment!!!

Amazing stuff

And I couldn't resist upping your Car-ma

KEEP ON MONSTAH TRUCKING

Markz wrote on 02 Nov 2016 01:21:


Car-ma might we be myssppelinng something?

MONSTAH might we be mispronouncing something?

progressive graduation escalator might we be making up a whole new term?!


Mark, you have added Tunz of life to this site!
Thanks 

Shlomo24 wrote on 01 Nov 2016 21:49:

Hey! I wasn't looking for ideas 

Gevura- I see you read this, sorry I forgot you in my list. 


That's me (you know where it's from  )

And, sorry everyone else, but Bigmoish asked me to mention his name again 

I just wanted to share how I agonized whether I'm an addict and the program's right for me. Until, when I managed to conclude that I am one. Then I quickly jumped in because I knew that at any moment, I would change my mind and "realize" that really I'm fine and making WAY too big of a deal about a tiny issue.
Now, as I work the program and see how crazy I am (internally- on the outside I seem perfectly normal, and until recently was convinced that I am), I realize that even if I'm not an "addict", I need the program to help me learn how to lead a sane life.

Good Shabbos All!

An update-
I disclosed to my wife a couple of weeks ago. This has been the most painful time of my life, and the time of greatest growth in my life. If I find time, I will share some of the amazing things Hashem did for me during this time.
I hope all you guys are doing well.
(By the way, my wife read this thread, so be careful what you say )

trysohard wrote on 24 Nov 2016 01:45:

Mrs Trysohard you have a heck of a great husband!

Yeah!

Many people these days Trysohard to change the world - their wives their children their bosses their siblings and of course their in-laws

Someone that can rise above and Triessohard to change HIMSELF is a rare bird / truck

And one more thing

Us men have a hard time sharing our deepest feelings and experiences even with our spouse. 
What your husband did is a leap of faith that he trusts you will take on your marriage to a totally different level

I hope you appreciate his endevours to be a better person and a much closer husband!

Hope you continue having a great life together!

Hello.  I eventually got rid of my smartphone just because it was too easy to have access to inappropriate material.  Even with that the PC is still a temptation even though I use it 90% for work.  My wife will not tell me the password so that helps somewhat.

Hi everyone!
I reached 90 days! woohoo I'm cured! according to GYE I'm a level 8 which is a full blown Tzaddik!
In reality I am very grateful for this miracle and I would not be at this point without GYE. I do feel more sober as time goes on, but the challenges and pain are HUGE. My wife and I are both working on ourselves, and hopefully one day things will be good.
Hatzlacha to all of you!