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Thank you @markz for bringing this thread to life. I'd totally neglected it but I'm really glad to have it back alive and updated thanks to your thoughtfulness. So firstly small correction... I'm 18 now, so just thought I'd keep you up to date on that .

Second, I've been on a break from routine, in a house with an unfiltered open internet top of the line computer. I would never suggest testing yourself like this but Bisyata Dishmaya somehow I'm still afloat - I've kept clean and stayed strong, and leaving here tomorrow. Thank you Hashem.

I guess thirdly is just a check in. BH I'm doing well - though maybe not well enough, being a little over confident - that's when the YH usually steps in. So here's my written resolve to restrengthen and be more protective over my eyes, and IYH to KOT. Thank you Hashem for all You do, for all Your help, for giving me challenges and helping me overcome them.

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Hello long lost friends.

Been a while since i checked in on here. 

The majority of my journey is a success story, I've been clean (from intentional z"l) since last tisha bav. In that respect i honestly never believed I'd come this far and I'm amazed that even when you think you'll never make it there really is a turning back from addiction. I honestly do not even consider or have the urge to masturbate for months already now.

Porn is a whole different story. Bh in the time I'm clean I've not gone to watch on purpose either. But guarding my eyes is still incredibly difficult. So much so that my y"h knows where to look and I just stopped myself two or three minutes in to searching social media subconsciously hoping to see what I shouldn't. So I've run straight here to cry for help. The taivah is so incredibly strong and in that respect I am i desperate need of chizuk. So please leave some advice on steering back on track, I'll open this again in the morning and would love some chizuk.

Thank you guys

 

Same place bro,  clean from zl and porn since elul and yet still struggling with my eyes wandering at times. 
Need to stop going on certain "innocent" sites for months now,  i know they are potential hazards on them and yet i still go on them. 

It is very hard to kick.

Let me know what works. 

HELLO!
Been a while.
No headspace or thoughts to write like I used to update - no long schmooze or thoughts from me now.
But very quickly:

ONE YEAR.
MAAAZZAAALLL TOOOVVVVVV!!!!!!
It's exactly one year since i re-logged onto here and decided to come clean. It's not been perfect but it basically changed my life and its been the best year for staying clean and rewiring my brain. Boruch hashem.

Thank you all of you, mazal tov and thank you Hashem!!

S.