Day 70: On one hand i dont want to make a big deal about reaching 70 days. Today is a challenge just as every day was for the past 70 days. A challenge to keep my eye on the ball and not lose sight of what is important. It is a challenge to remain connected with Hashem and not to undermine all the pieces of healthy living that I put into place. On the other hand I want to shout from the rooftops I MADE IT TO 70!!!!!!!! and I guess this is the balance that has been coming out of the "conversations" that I have been having with Ina - who I was happy to "meet" on this forum. 

Its hard. On one hand I am so happy not to be the person I was 70 days ago. On the other hand I am very much that person. And with one action I can slip and slide head over heels until I get to the bottom, bruised and upset. I dont want that. I want to keep remembering to do what it takes to be here. 

To anyone who feels like they keep falling: Please keep trying. Even if I were to fall today [and I have no intention of doing so -- with Hashem's help!] I would never regret the past awesome 10 weeks of my life. And I fell many many times. Sometimes I couldnt get four days. Let me introduce you to my friends from those times: Pain. misery. Humiliation. Regret. Self Hate. and many more ugly characters. The only thing Ia can say for myself. The one only thing is that with hashems help I refused to give. Please dont give up. Lets keep "truckin' " together עד ביאת גואל צדק

Day 70: On one hand i dont want to make a big deal about reaching 70 days. Today is a challenge just as every day was for the past 70 days. A challenge to keep my eye on the ball and not lose sight of what is important. It is a challenge to remain connected with Hashem and not to undermine all the pieces of healthy living that I put into place. On the other hand I want to shout from the rooftops I MADE IT TO 70!!!!!!!! and I guess this is the balance that has been coming out of the "conversations" that I have been having with Ina - who I was happy to "meet" on this forum. 

Its hard. On one hand I am so happy not to be the person I was 70 days ago. On the other hand I am very much that person. And with one action I can slip and slide head over heels until I get to the bottom, bruised and upset. I dont want that. I want to keep remembering to do what it takes to be here. 

To anyone who feels like they keep falling: Please keep trying. Even if I were to fall today [and I have no intention of doing so -- with Hashem's help!] I would never regret the past awesome 10 weeks of my life. And I fell many many times. Sometimes I couldnt get four days. Let me introduce you to my friends from those times: Pain. misery. Humiliation. Regret. Self Hate. and many more ugly characters. The only thing Ia can say for myself. The one only thing is that with hashems help I refused to give. Please dont give up. Lets keep "truckin' " together עד ביאת גואל צדק

And remember shlomo 1 is no less than 2

I know there has been some discussion on the forum about math and english teachers, but just to clarify..

Which is more? 71, or 70?

70 = Wise Man's age

With sobriety plan = Zaken Monstah Trucker
Without a plan = Zaken Mena'eF

markz wrote on 19 Apr 2016 19:17:

Were you ever in an nursing home?
I have been there and saw some elderly people who still get excited over every women passing by.
Nebech, nothing works anymore besides of their eyes and fantasies. 

doingtshuva wrote on 19 Apr 2016 21:11:

Nothing?
 

Day 71: Nothing like a nisayon on day 70 to remind me that day 1 and day 70 have to operate with the same principles. Last night as we were going to sleep, my wife and I went into bed with completely different ideas of what would take place.She thought [as wives often do -- what was I thinking ?!?!?!] that it would be a good time to review the day and talk about stuff that happened and think about how to finish getting the house ready for yom tov. I though we would take a little break, enjoy each others company, chill out and maybe even enjoy some intimacy. Boom! And all because I couldnt get off my own selfish position and selfish needs. If only I could have said "zelda shprintza [name changed to protect anonymity], I see you have alot on your mind from the day, lets talk about that a bit and then lets take a break and enjoy each other" - then I would have been the caring and understanding husband that my wife has been starting to believe that I could be. The night could have been great. It didnt go that way. We are married for a long time and we are mature enough to work through it, but it reminded me just how selfish and single minded I can be. Selfish enough to lock myself into the bathroom and act out while she takes care of the kids and runs the house. 70 amazing days. [today 71 bh]. And lots more work to do.

Day 72: Feeling humbled from the mussar cords gave me earlier. Ouch. He is right. Being selfless doesnt mean pushing what I want to the back of the list. Sometimes it means taking it off the list. True. In that spirit, trying to help for Yom Tov today with creating drama about it, just being dependable and calm. Hatzlacha to all.