Seichel, it's nice that you're still posting. We can't wait to keep hearing good things from you. Remember, it's a long journey but a fulfilling meaningful one in which I hope you will find true shalom; and in which you will meet people who don't judge you - because we are as screwed up as each other. And because we are forced to look deeper inside ourselves.
I really hope to hear wonderful things from you.
Shlomo.

Please see our resources for SSA here: guardyoureyes.com/resources/ssa

Another suggestion: Get rid of your porn collections. There is enough of it on the internet, you don't need to have collections of it on your computer too!

I'm hesitant not sure why. I feel I may need it as a last resort in case it gets too out of hand and I'd prefer watching a video to acting out. I was able to make it through Shabbos without sex. Sun I tried to have sex but Baruch HaShem, He closed my "entrance". I also was able to mostly keep Shabbos this week

good for you!

KOT

FYI -you have quite a cheering squad

Kot?

seichel wrote:


This doesn't sound like sound reasoning. It sounds more like giving up your drug with a dose in your pocket.
Commit fully to being fully sober for one full day.
Then repeat.

KOT

Keep On Truckin'

Thanks yerei. As for videos, I have a lot of stress that builds up as sexual tension. I need to help it at least 1x week to maintain a healthy and balanced personality. Also from a medical standpoint I have a varicose vein of some sort in my scrotum. The only way to avoid it really hurting and interrupting my day, the dr says, is regular maintaiance. Videos are a visual aide to help things along more smoothly

go healthy and natural

Run, exercise, work out, take up a musical instrument, start up new habits and routines that gives off positive energy. Things that you enjoy and that interest you -

That's in line with the "NEW YOU" .

seichel wrote:


Most people have stress in their lives.
Sexual tension builds from sexual thoughts.
No sexual thoughts, no sexual tension. Just tension.

Having said that, for us sex and lust addicts, stress is a trigger to start lusting.
But no lusting, no sexual tension.

seichel wrote:


Yes, if I'm lusting day in and day out, I will need a release.
No lusting, no need for release.

seichel wrote:


This does not make any anatomical sense.
Unless you're building up physical sexual tension by lusting.
Without lusting, a cool pack to the scrotum should do the trick. Motrin is also helpful. These, of course, require a little more commitment to sobriety than masturbation.

seichel wrote:


And worth giving up your sanity for?

This Shabbos and Sunday was also sex-free. I didn't even try this time. Just kinda natural. Really, I haven't felt a compulsion for it again. Yet. I do recognize that I am indeed homosexual and that wasHASHEM's will for whatever reason, I know I cannot and certainly don't want to go through the pain of trying to change. I don't want to start a debate but trust me, I've been fighting this for a long time and been through every possible scenario in my head about how this came to be or how I can "fix" it but I have come to realize that. Although very difficult, it is still easier to accept and try to live to the fullest than attempt to change your psychological makeup. So thanks for the support in my continuing journey away from sex addiction for now. I'm sure if it's not one thing there will be another issue. It's called life. /end rant

There's nothing to fix chaver. If you're making a choice to live a hetero life, then learn how to have a loving relationship with another human being. If it's about love and not lust, then it's about the other person and not you. If it's about the other person, it can be a female. That's the choice my sponsor made and that's how he lives and he's not religious. Hatzlacha!

seichel wrote on 16 Jul 1974 07:16:

I removed what I wrote here earlier cos I misunderstood you

Ok. So what are you struggling with today

Just like how not to use p--- as a substitute for being w my boyfriend. He works crazy hours so it's hard to get time in w him

How are you in life? Are you being productive? Also, why do you write the word porn funny? Seriously though, I'm wondering about that.