BH the past few days have been pretty stable mood wise. I've been reading the news a lot less and that has something to do with it.
Right foot left foot. Right foot left foot.

I was recently helping out a physically disabled person. While I was washing the dishes they wistfully said "I used to be able to wash the dishes"
Today I am able to be grateful for washing dishes

nitzotzeloki wrote:

Until you update your profile image, yes it is unusual to be able to do that without smashing half of them

Dr.Watson wrote on 29 Oct 2013 01:31:

Gevurah thanks for referencing this thread it's interesting

Wow, it's been over 3 years, the last time I saw that monkey he was driving past me in a cab.

Watson wrote on 29 Nov 2016 21:05:

In the driver's seat

I can barely the remember the days when he sold good old English PG Tips.

I saw the name "nitz" and I was like "Wow, a blast from the past."

hi. am i back? i dont know. i know that i have no control over lust and p@#n and m@#$%^&*!@#$n (thats just for the censors) i know that i am powerless. the question that i have to ask myself is, do i care? how much discomfort am i willing to go through for recovery. on a consistent basis, not much. i have gone through things in the past year that i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy. lust has been my pacifier. done in the privacy of my home with no one the wiser its WORKED for me. at least thats what i tell myself. thats one reason that i popped in. reading other peoples stories helps dispel the illusion that ive created for myself. i know from experience that there is a limit to the effectiveness of the forum. it does do something though and something is more than ive tried in a while

Nitzotz wrote:


Do we need to hold onto yesterday, or hope for tomorrow?

If you have buddies to share your tree with today that's what counts, no?

Hi again.

Sorry to hear.

today i did not feel 'in the mood' to turn my will and my life over to the care of G-d. i sat there on the couch praying for the willingness. i had this brilliant flash of insight that maybe......GETTING OFF THE COUCH MIGHT BE A GOOD  IDEA. i cant do the exact same actions ive been doing until now and expect things to change. G-d likes aiming at moving targets. the thing with sobriety (ive learned this in another fellowship that im in) is that at least for me, i am powerless. that means i can not keep myself sober. G-d can. the way i am 'feeling' has no reflection on the effect of G-ds power. if i am struggling, (and even and especially when i am not) i ask for His Help, reach out to someone and get honest and than do the things that He would want me to do. i leave the results up to Him

nitzotzeloki wrote on 23 Jun 2017 03:53:

Hey!