Nomore24 wrote on 01 Mar 2019 16:25:
Say no because the happiness and relief you feel when the urge passes and you move onto something else without having acted out, is a million times greater than whatever you could have felt during the extremely brief period of acting out.
Firstly, follow instructions please.
Secondly, yes the pleasure of the urge passing is nice, but the pleasure of acting out, especially if one prolongs it and enjoys the chase, that's pretty thrilling as well.
Sadly, I'm sober for several years and haven't experienced that joy in some time.