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Sometimes a person who suffers from addiction will learn that his/her parent/s suffered from it too. Often the parent/s tried to break free of it but were unsuccessful, and the struggle is then passed down to the next generation. And some of us may struggle our entire liv...

It means so much to me to be part of the GYE community; I think I am bringing much joy and inspiration to my daily SA meeting because of how good I feel inside to be sharing my journey of recovery with such holy and special Jews. Even as I write this, I thank Hashem for s...

"EsaEinai" posted on the forum: Shalom, I just want to say thank you to everyone who has put this site together and all its contributing members!!!! For most of my life I have been dealing with these issues alone (over 20 years). Even though the greater portion of my lif...

Married 20+ years. Was never attracted to my wife from literally day one. I married her because she was easy to talk to, intelligent and kind-hearted. I was also a BT, and frankly felt pressured to get married. I'm still shocked that it was all over and done in eight date...

Join the Worldwide YEshiva Shovavim Initiative at shovavim.org - "YES we can!" The parshios of the six weeks of Shovavim deal with the enslavement of the Jewish people in Mitzrayim and their subsequent redemption and salvation. Many Sefarim talk about how a man's struggl...

When your will rises to that supernal level of holiness, it is cleared of all bad traits and all bad actions that exist in the world - even of the most inconsequential matters that most people ignore.One might desire illicit relations more than life itself, because sexual...

I was an addict from a VERY young age (to young for me to remember how old I was) for about 20 years. During that time, I was under constant stress from the addiction and - for most of the years - it totally dominated my life. I would get triggered from something I saw - ...

I just wanted to mention that even though I had a fall yesterday after 70 days clean (due to some depression), I feel only mild urges to go back into the whole destructive cycle. I used to "binge" whenever I fell, but this time is much better.So I can really see how the 9...

On Duvid Chaim's phone group we defined the difference between being "outwardly religious" and being real spiritual people. A "religious" person is one who believes there is a hell. A spiritual person has BEEN to hell. And that's step 1: Hitting bottom. And as a result ...

The 350 Mehadrin bus from Bnei Brak to Ashdod is normally jammed, but at 3 PM more than half the seats were still vacant. Four young women in slacks, obviously not from the Haredi or religious neighborhoods along the route, boarded the bus at the stop adjacent to the Coca...

Rebbe of Thousands Dear Yesod Oylam, I am a Rov, Posek, Magid Shiur and Mechaber Sfarim. I have thousands of talmidim. I have been unsuccessfully battling this problem for at least 40 years. I read thoroughly the GYE handbook and would like to make the author my Rebbe."K'...

My experience bears out that sharing our insides, our hearts with each other, is precious. In fact, it is likely the only thing that matters. That can't be done though, when we have something to "prove", no matter how pure our intentions are. The heart just doesn't seem t...

I just wanna say that working the 12 steps on Duvid Chaim's phone group was totally life changing. I seriously look at people differently now. One thing that Duvid Chaim said that really made a difference to me is that "everyone is doing their best".All parents want to be...

Movies are a no-no for any Jew serious about guarding his eyes, and a thousand times more so for a lust addict. Even the most "innocent" movies today are filled with triggers. Click here for an article on movies by the famous Arutz 7 blogger, Tzvi Fishman. If after readin...

"HumanBeing" asks on the forum Where is the source of this 90 day "neural pathway change" thing? It seems that even after 90 Days, so many people still have falls.   "Ano-nymous" Replies: There is certainly no magic pill, but I can tell you from experience that even thoug...

Failure does not mean I'm a failure;It does mean I have not yet succeeded. Failure does not mean I have accomplished nothing;It does mean I have learned something. Failure does not mean I have disgraced;It does mean I have dared to try. Failure does not mean I don't have ...

After I first got sober, I had nothing to do all night long (when I'd have been out messing my life up acting out, of course) and just couldn't get adjusted to actually sleeping at night. We had a little TV "just for the olympics" at first, that my sister bought us. To ma...

Here are a few posts from the forum:   The Michtav M'Eliahu (R. Dessler zt"l) writes that the mind is like a vast empty field. This field will not remain empty. If you do not fill it with good positive thoughts or busy yourself with something, whether it be learning, work...