The Library

Today is day 90. I appreciate everyone who attended the kumzitz last night. ImTrying25, Sturggle, Battleworn, and Dov M. from DC's group. It was a really intense evening and I feel honored for hosting it. Also, I thank MOMO and Loi-Misyeish for calling in, that was very m...

It seems to me that the greatest useful change within myself from recovery so far, is the (imperfect) acceptance that "things will be OK in the end, no matter what." Sounds overly positive/optomistic? Maybe. But accepting that G-d is in charge is the only satisfactory nec...

The losers aren't the ones stuck in the dirt, but the ones who gave up the battle along the way. Fighting with (what seems to you to be) your last ounce of courage, is the proof of how much you're able to accomplish. Most of us with a few years and battles under our belt ...

"7Up" writes some chizuk to "theOne" on the forum: Our fears and feelings often run - and ruin - our lives. The more we run from them, the faster they chase us; sending us on a never-ending journey of "escape", which can lead us to the darkest caves and holes in the world...

We just installed a new spam-filter at work. It works like this: whenever we get an email from anyone in the world, our filter refuses it and sends it back to the server saying: "I'm busy now, can you try again in 5 minutes?"... The real legit e-mail servers simply try ag...

They say how funny it is that 12 steps is referred to as "self-improvement" or "self-help" in the bookstores. It's really the opposite of self-help - which is how we got screwed up in the first place, of course. It's about G-d-help, meaning: learning how to accept the una...

I have committed myself to being better in regards to P**n and self pleasure. So far I'm 40 days clean. It has to become a mindset. All those things that we saw in the movies and clips are fake. The connection that I feel with my wife and with Hashem is so much better. S...

Last night I was feeling really upset about something. Months ago, I probably would have acted out. More recently, I would have told myself, "don't act out, don't act out." But lately, I've had a lot of success with catching these bad moods before they start and warding t...

(Some of the concepts below will only be understood by those who are working the 12-Steps and/or were on Duvid Chaim's calls.) Dear Struggler, First of all, you must congratulate yourself. Think about it. You actually experienced a slip, but by posting about it on the f...

Saving the World... The Talmud says that every person must say, "The world was created just for me." That means each of us is responsible for the entire world. We all want greatness. No one says, "I wish to be mediocre." Everyone harbors the secret desire to save the w...

I cannot accept that Hashem brought you through this problem just to get you out of it so you could just move on from here as though nothing happened. He could have protected you from getting into the problem in the first place, no? Rav Noach zt"l used to say: "A guy came...

I once heard in a shiur from Rav Noach Weinberg Zecher Tzadik Levracha, that when Chazal would hear something they enjoyed, like a chidush or something that changed them, they would repeat it 40 times. So once you hit 40 days clean, which hopefully you will soon, you'll b...

Rav Noach was a tremendous inspiration to me while he was alive, (I met him only once or twice, but heard a lot of his tapes). Rav Noach was the epitome of never giving up. I believe that Aish was the eighth or ninth yeshiva that he tried to start. May we all learn from h...

Yaakov, who is a Talmid Chacham and has posted such beautiful Torah on our forum (click here to see all of Yaakov's posts), also programmed for us the automated 90-day chart, the Wall of Honor and the profile page, and he continues to update and provide support for it all...

My first exposure to porn came at age 10. My addictive behavior picked up speed at age 12. When I was 16, I had a spiritual awakening and made a conscious decision to stop. However, despite all my efforts, my addiction grew and grew as it threatened my job, my family and ...

In the video clip on this page, Rav Noach's eyes fill with tears and his voice breaks as he says: "Almighty, I know that You care about this much more than me, I know that You want me to succeed. I know that if You help me, we can change the whole world. I know You want t...

"Avodashashemyisbarach" writes: I have just started a clean streak for the first time on GYE last week while my wife was overseas. Today she returned home, and today was my most difficult so far -even though my wife looks like a million dollars. The Gemara teaches that th...

The ironic thing about GYE is that to be part of it, I need internet access. It is clear to me that I need GYE as oxygen for my soul, on a regular basis, and for the support I get from everyone when I need it. I feel like my computer has been transformed from an Avizraya ...