So I've been really busy these past few days, haven't been posting much, but I did have time to meet some holy people. I'm laughing at myself at how my knee jerk reaction to meeting was, Really!? You watched porn!? You suffered like me!? 
Its still a shock to me.
But that's the power of reaching out to the mentors on here, you realize that there's nothing wrong with you, if you watched porn or masturbated for years, or anything else you may have done. Your just a normal, good, healthy, heilige yid, that didn't have the tools to deal with this crazy environment that we live in.
And the main thing is that you could get past it, your not a lost cause.
You could become the person you really wanna be.

Love this attitude!

Keep on trucking and you'll be there before you know it!

Day 49!
My personal matan torah!

Ive been struggling with davening terribly, but since I've reached out and opened up about it, I now realize that many suffer with such issues.
Reb HHM told me that the best Pshat he could think of, is that, the satan is so mad at loosing a good customer like me, that he is investing all his efforts in stopping my davening. Since I changed my life around my davening has such immense power that he wants to stop me at all costs!
Didan natzach!! 

I meant to post this a bit ago, R Shimshon Pincus writes that what a pwrson could for shovavim is be careful with Krias Shma.
What i took out of it is, especially for us on GYE, that many people get so caught up with the scary stuff written about zera lvatala, that they cant recover.
R Shimshon is telling us what to focus on, take one thing. But the main thing is to work on yourself without the tochacha!

cleanmendy wrote on 18 Feb 2025 22:34:

I wonder if anyone on GYE who is still struggling, and even been clean for a while should even think about shovavim. It only brings up anxiety, pressure, and bad feelings. What's the point of thinking about something that's not going to help you in your journey? Wait until it can be a useful tool to help propel you to even further heights of Kedusha and Tahara.

What do you think?

(If you want to think about Shovavim, go the R' Leuchter route, as he doesn't mention zera levatala or any of the related inyanim at all. I have been following his weekly shiur on Shovavim and I've been loving it!)