Checking in.

Still clean. Definitely a little slipping at the end of the week last week, but feeling grateful that the area of slippage is in shemiras einayim in the streets and not hardcore porn at the office. Still something that needs work and a lot of care that it doesn't become that first sip that drags me off the cliff. One tough thing is that my new job is in a much more urban and crowded area, and the streets are just alot more intense than where my previous job was. And keeping your head down while driving is just not so shayech. . .

Actually a funny story about that. I was thinking over shabbos about what works in the street and what doesn't. One thing I used to try was to look out for interesting stuff on the sidewalk - Rabbi Miller has a shtickel about looking for coins or something. And I so on shabbos I decided that that doesn't work since there's never anything interesting on the sidewalk and I should focus on other tools. But Rabboisei! Pull out your guitar and hum along! Hayad Hashem Tiktzor! There I was walking along this afternoon, and I happened to glance down. And what did I see? A hundred dollar bill on the ground!

Never happened to me before. Absolutely blew my mind.

Now, this would be a better story if it motivated me to keep my eyes down. Which it hasn't so far. We'll see. I've been getting somewhere with the "women on the street are not your eye candy" so hopefully I'll be able to keep on working with that. But it's tough.

The GYE calendar has me at 32 days but no idea if that's accurate or not. I have not been checking in at all, trying to actively avoid it, but needed a little chizzuk so checked in for the boost from the "streak." Either way, glad to be clean today.